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Latest Episodes:

The Three Stages of Divorcing a Narcissist Dec 22, 2020

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Today we talk about the three stages of our healing process when we are divorcing a narcissist. We go through our priorities in stage one, sorting out the legalities while starting to heal in stage two, and recognising that healing is a lifelong journey in stage three.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

Safety is the first priority when divorcing a narcissist
The triangle of divorcing - legalities, finances, and children
How to be gentle with ourselves when we start our healing process
The pitfalls of thinking of healing as a destination
Understanding post-traumatic growth and how it affects us

Divorcing a narcissist is tough, especially if you have children. However, if we focus on our safety, on our healing process, and avoid re-traumatising our mind, we can go through it. What we need to do is not beat ourselves up, and create a healthy ecosystem around us to help us heal.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

The Cheating Narcissist Dec 15, 2020

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Today I talk about cheating narcissists, the reasons behind cheating, and what it is that narcissists pursue by doing it. We also cover narcissists' strong protective parts, how codependents in a relationship trigger cheating behaviours, and the difference between healthy and narcissistic abusive relationships.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

The reasons behind your partner’s cheating
The role of self-soothing in cheating behaviours
What happens when two wounded younger parts meet in a relationship
How cheating can satisfy the need for narcissistic supply
Why we need to be mindful and empathetic with those who choose to stay in a cheating relationship

When we are cheated on, we tend to think it is our fault, that we are not good enough, not worthy. But when a narcissistic partner cheats on us, it’s not about us, but about their wounded younger parts, and their need to feel that sense of grandiosity.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

Anxiety, Depression and Narcissistic Abuse Dec 08, 2020

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Today we’re talking about anxiety and depression, not as mere symptoms that need to be treated, but as parts of us showing up for a certain reason. Let’s ask ourselves - why are we anxious, why are we depressed, why are those parts showing up?

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

Looking at anxiety and depression as trauma responses within our body
Deb Dana's ladder analogy in the context of narcissistic relationships
The role of anxiety as the sympathetic trauma response
The role of depression in our system state
How to look at anxiety and depression as parts of ourselves and not identify with them
The reason why people stay in abusive relationships
How to understand the intentions of all our parts and welcome them to our system

Once we see anxiety and depression as parts of us reacting to trauma, we will realise that we are not a depressed or anxious individual, but we have parts that are showing up in order to distract us and soothe us from feeling the pain of our younger, wounded part.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

The Difference Between Narcissism and Confidence Dec 01, 2020

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Today I want to talk about two words that may conjure up very different concepts to you, and they are narcissism and confidence. We go over what narcissism is, what true confidence is, and how to tell a difference.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

The difference between narcissistic traits and narcissistic personality disorder
The difficulties with diagnosing someone as a narcissist
Why we need to be careful when we use the word narcissist
Why we perceive narcissists as being confident and what lies beneath that confidence
Internal Family Systems and using Parts theory to understand narcissism
How to recognise truly confident persons

Because we can’t change narcissists, let’s get back to trying to live as much as possible as your true authentic self, as someone who is curious, calm, connected, courageous, creative, confident, compassionate, and lives with clarity. How much of your life are you living like that?

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

Signs of Dating a Narcissist Nov 24, 2020

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Today we talk about the little signs and the red flags that we must be aware of when we start dating someone new. Even after a traumatic separation, at some point we need to start meeting new people, but we must have ears and eyes open to the signs of narcissistic behavior, so we know what to do if they keep happening.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

How we can step out into the dating world after a traumatic experience
What is "love bombing" and how to detect it
A key red flag - the narcissist’s lack of empathy
Gaslighting as the real hallmark of narcissism
The "I'm not apologizing" story and why narcissists believe they’re never wrong
The importance of having a positive relationship with yourself

The dating world after a divorce or a breakup can be terrifying. But it's important to remember that being with someone is not always better than being single. So if we decide to take a new chance, we must have our narcissistic radar on point to avoid falling into that trap.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

Help!!! I'm Addicted to a Narcissist! Nov 17, 2020

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In this episode I’m talking about the addiction to the narcissist in your life, how to deal with it, and the first steps to overcome it. Remember that every addiction serves to stop us from feeling the pain of our wounded younger part, and today we are going to unpack that mechanism.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

Recognizing the difference between knowing you are good enough and feeling like you are not
How our body gets addicted to not feeling good enough
How our brain reacts to our biggest perceived pain
The importance of no contact or extremely modified contact with the narcissist in your life
Why our brain always reverts to what is familiar even when it’s painful

In a relationship with a narcissistic person, we are continually trying to prove that we are good enough, and our body gets used to that sensation. Not feeling good enough then becomes familiar, and our brain perceives what's familiar as what's safe, thus ignores the pain we are feeling and perpetuates that cycle.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

The Narcissist's True Intention Nov 10, 2020

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Do narcissists deliberately try to hurt you? What is their driving force?

Even when they say or do horrible things to us, the narcissist’s intention is purely about themselves. What they pursue is the narcissistic drug of choice, what we call the narcissistic supply. That is the only thing they are after.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

- Narcissistic abuse happens TO you. It doesn’t happen BECAUSE of you.

- Why your pain is just the byproduct of the narcissist’s behavior

- Where the narcissist’s need for mistreating you really comes from

- Narcissistic aggression and manipulation as the expression of their younger, wounded part

- How to recognise when the narcissist is pretending to behave in a certain way to achieve what they want

When narcissists hurt us, they want to heal their wounds at our expense. It has nothing to do with our integrity or our values. So remember that it is YOU who is holding the power to heal, and change the perception of your own childhood experiences.

Resources:

- Join my Facebook group https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse

- Connect with me on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

What Is Narcissistic Personality Disorder Nov 03, 2020

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In this week’s episode, I want to talk about what exactly a narcissist is, and what tool is used to identify narcissistic personality disorder. We tend to wrongly label narcissists as those who take lots of selfies or those who are rude to us, and by doing that, we are not helping the real victims of narcissistic abuse. What You Will Learn In This Episode: •The difference between being a narcissist and being obnoxious •How being a victim of Narcissistic Personality Disorder affected me •Are narcissistic personalities born or created? •The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM) nine traits to detect Narcissistic Personality Disorder •The importance of educating the society regarding NPD and helping its victims If someone you know ticks the boxes of at least five of the nine traits described by the DSM, the person has NPD. This method might help you get some reassurance of what you are dealing with and that it is not your fault.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse
Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

Five Key Phrases to Disarm the Narcissist Oct 27, 2020

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Today I want to share with you the five key phrases that are great to disarm the narcissist. These phrases really helped me and my clients to understand that the power is within us to heal from narcissistic abuse.

Five Key Phrases to Disarm the Narcissist:

I'm so sorry you feel like that.
I can accept your faulty perception of me.
I have no right to control how you see me.
I accept that this is how you feel.
Your anger is not my responsibility.

Keep me posted if you're using any of these five phrases to disarm the narcissist. I would love to hear what their expressions were like, what they said back to you. Even if you don't feel these right now, remember that it's all about dis-confirming those experiences, but we have to start somewhere. So give these phrases a try.

Resources:

Join my Facebook group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse

Narcissistic Abuse and Internal Family Systems Oct 20, 2020

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In this episode, I want to talk about the different parts of you, that may be stopping you from healing from narcissistic abuse.

In working with my clients, I use an evidence based parts therapy called Internal Family Systems, and I’m going to explain what it is and how it can help you heal.

What You Will Learn In This Episode:

Internal Family Systems and the concept of True Self
Two main types of Protector parts - Manager and Firefighter
How physical conditions can play their parts
How we can change the roles of the parts to start healing from narcissistic abuse
How you can create a map of your parts to become aware of them
What is reconsolidation of memory

Working with parts as I explained them here can help you update that younger part of you, so the roles of the Protector parts won't need to be so reactive, proactive or destructive, and you can start healing from narcissistic abuse.

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