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Daughters Confront Past with Former Polygamist Mother Sep 23, 2025

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The Lebaron group fled the US after being excommunicated from the Mormon church for still practicing polygamy. While in Mexico, the group split and the Ervilite side started implementing blood atonement in an attempt to wipe out the other. Pamela Jones grew up in fear that the Ervilites would come for them any moment. To escape the extreme abuse, she got married at 15, not realizing she was entering into the Ervilite family. Her husband went on to marry 5 other women while keeping her and her family in forced poverty, even restricting water. Today we speak with two of Pamela's daughters who give us their perspective on the cult and fleeing to the US to start a new life.

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I Worked for a Predatory Vampyre Cult Leader in NYC Sep 22, 2025

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Predatory Vampyre Cult Leader Exploits Vulnerable High Priestess on Altar Sep 19, 2025

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In the Vampyre community that Father S was the head of, it was sometimes the case that the group rituals and spiritual practices were manipulated into something far more insidious. Khassa and Ashra describe what happened at the group ceremony called Babyl*n. They were each told something different by Father S about the intention of the ceremony concerning Khassa’s role. In the end, Khassa was severely compromised by him and left questioning everything.

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https://youtu.be/R3SbSxyFews?si=JgIM7Uw8sLKM7l8C

https://youtu.be/nivycAxCicE?si=du7_tIyQB03UNQTg

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Groomed & Preyed on by Infamous Vampyre Cult Leader ft. Ashra Sep 19, 2025

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Ashra was looking for a sense of community and understanding when she came into contact with Father S, the most public face of the Vampyre community. Eager to learn from him, she entered into a mentor/mentee relationship. Things would eventually devolve into conversations about sex magick and rituals that he wanted her to be a part of. She didn’t realize she was being groomed to be one of his many girlfriends. He would go on to tell her what to wear and confessed he liked dressing his girls like dolls. Ashra would also end up being exploited for her labor, expected to proofread and edit one of his manuscripts for free. After leaving and being lured back in, she would finally make her escape in 2024.

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High Priestess Exposes Insidious Vampyre Cult Leader ft. Khassa Sep 18, 2025

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Growing up, Khassa’ Kaikesi's mother felt plagued by her abilities as a medium. Even though Khassa came from a long line of Magickal practitioners, when she started understanding her own gifts, she was left with no support and felt isolated. She was bullied for her practices and attended 4 different high schools because of it. Once introduced to Vampyrism, the spiritualism resonated and she found herself meeting “the face” and fang master of the Vampyre community, Father S. He quickly showed romantic interest, but Khassa tried to keep her distance as she sensed something was off about him. Serious about her practice and interested in building a community, she set aside her fears about him to help create the inner circle. After a few years, things would take a dark turn and lines between spirituality and self serving ego would be blurred, leaving Khassa as one of many women who would be taken advantage of in more ways than one. For the first time, Khassa steps into the light to expose the inner workings of Father S’s Vampyre community.

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Escaping Mexico's LeBaron Cult: Not Allowed to Read or Write to Multi Millionaire Sep 17, 2025

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After 34 years of being abandoned, neglected, and brainwashed, Pamela Jones and her nine children escaped a fundamentalist cult out of Mexico and fled to a new life in the US. She had 2 cars and nothing more than $5 and two credit cards which she didn’t know how to use. Her biggest challenge was acclimating to a life of leadership and tasks she was never allowed to do in the cult. Getting the courage to order food at a drive through was her first huge undertaking. Pamela shares her struggles with helping her children learn in a public school, finding ways to feed and shelter her family, including almost joining an even more insidious polygamous group, and slowly finding her voice and value as a woman. She would go on to found a multimillion-dollar business, Exclusive Services by MyGirls, and has shared her story across the country to show how someone who came from nothing can truly have everything. Her family has grown to include 32 grandchildren, keeping Pamela busier, and more fulfilled, than ever.

Watch part one (linked below) to learn more about her life growing up in isolation, hiding from a bl*od thirsty rival church and getting married off at 15 to escape her own familial abuse.

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Pamela’s book: The Dirt Beneath Our Door https://www.pamelaspeaks.live/book

Pamela’s Podcast: Wicked Confessions Uncensored

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Chapter Marks

00:00:00 Intro

00:05:26 Discovering How To Live in America

00:10:14 Practicing Reading & Writing

00:15:12 The Order Cult Almost Recruits Pamela!

00:22:59 The Struggles of Putting Her ChiIdren in Public Education

00:28:17 Starting Her Business & How Her Influence Caused More Women to Leave

00:37:25 Deconstructing the Religion

00:43:53 Realizations After Leaving the Cult

00:51:11 The Steps Pamela Continually Took to Heal

00:55:56 CW: CSA from her brother

00:59:08 The Ways Cult Survivors Choose to Heal

01:04:53 The Beginning of Pamela’s Business & Where It's at Now

01:12:29 Finding Love After Being So Mistreated in Pamela’s First Marriage

01:23:40 Pamela's Shares About Her ChiIdren

01:29:50 Final Thoughts and Linda Listen

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Lebaron Polygamist Cult: How She Became a 15 yr Old Plural Wife in Mexico (Living in a Sheep Pen) Sep 17, 2025

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Pamela Jones was born in Los Molinos, Mexico to members of the Church of the Firstborn of the Fullness of Times, a fundamentalist, misogynistic cult. She was the 11th of her abusIve father’s 57 biological children and 2nd of her mother’s thirteen children and it was from that moment on that Pamela held one single belief: She existed for one reason and one reason only, to be her eventual husband’s handmaid and to bear him as many children as possible. Fast forward to age 10, Pamela was forced out of school to help her mom care for her 12 children, giving her nothing more than a fifth-grade education.

At age 15, Pamela married David Lebaron, the grandson of cult founder Alma Dayer LeBaron Jr. and was pregnant 17 times in 18 years. After 9 childbirths and 8 miscarriages, Pamela felt she had enough children to make it to heaven, a fundamentalist belief. One day, she awoke her nine children to escape the neglect and ab*se from her husband, and make their way to the United States to start a new life.

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Find Pamela!

Pamela’s website: www.Pamelaspeaks.live

Pamela’s book: The Dirt Beneath Our Door https://www.pamelaspeaks.live/book

Pamela’s Podcast: Wicked Confessions Uncensored

https://www.wickedconfessionsuncensored.com/

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Chapter Marks

00:00:00 Intro

00:10:31 CW: Murd*r, Pamela Explains the Practices of Blood Atonement and How it Impacted Her ChiIdhood

00:15:08 Pamela Talks about the Raid on Los Molinos & Her Role of a Mother from an Early Age

00:22:15 CW: CA, The Ways Pamela’s Father Controlled and Ab*sed Her

00:28:14 Pamela Shares More About Her Father

00:33:58 Pamela’s Father’s Reaction to Her Meeting Her Husband

00:39:30 How Quickly Pamela’s Husband Changed on Her

00:43:44 Pamela’s Husband's Actions and Infidelity

00:49:09 How Pamela Was Treated as a Polygamous Wife

00:54:16 Pamela Makes Plans to Leave Her Husband and the Cult

01:02:30 CW: Mentions of R*pe, Pamela’s Father Supports Her Against Her Husband

01:09:48 Pamela’s Escape Story

01:18:12 Pamela’s Experiences After Leaving Mexico & The Fear that Gripped Her

01:26:01 Final Thoughts and Linda Listen

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TwinRay Cult: Secretly Dosing Devout Followers to Sell Them Expensive Magic Merch Sep 15, 2025

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Demetria is a survivor of an Oregon New Age group called TwinRay. She describes her journey into spirituality after reading Eckhart Tolle's works and being drawn to an online guru who claimed to have achieved spiritual liberation and later claimed he wasn’t even human. He introduced a woman (a former actress) to the leadership and claimed they were 'twin rays' with special spiritual knowledge. Demetria paid these self appointed Gurus $17,000 extra for life coaching and they put her on an all-fruit and charcoal pudding diet for 6 months, on top of charging $9,000 retreats where attendees were given a mysterious 'elixir’, later discovered to be DM.T. Once everyone was in an elevated state and under the influence, they would then make sales pitches for expensive products and future retreats. It was clear that the Twin Rays were living in luxury while their followers were exploited, used for labor, and not given a second thought.

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OneTaste Org*sm Cult: He Stole My Virginity with Intention to Impregnate and Entrap Me Sep 12, 2025

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Feeling worthless as a young single adult in the Mormon church, Katie was sucked into a relationship with a “worthy priesthood holder” from her ward. Once he discovered her SA, a trauma that others were blaming and shaming her for, he claimed he could cure her using OneTaste’s Orgasmic Meditation. Vulnerable and left in the dark with all things sex related, he groomed her into thinking she needed these sessions with him to release her trauma. Unbeknownst to Katie, OneTaste was another cult who was pushing harmful ideas about SA, exploiting women and much worse. These harmful practices and ideologies combined with his predatory nature, led him to steal her virginity while she was unconscious having a seizure. He later admitted to purposely impregnating her so she would be forced to marry him. Barely 18, with no real support, Katie was left picking up the pieces while continuously being monitored and berated by the Mormon ran Brigham Young University’s honor code office.

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How a “Tainted” Molly Mormon Was TARGETED for the OneTaste Orgasm Cult Sep 11, 2025

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Born and raised in a Mormon majority town, Katie was doing her best to be the most righteous and worthy Mormon she could be. Everything came crashing down when she was blamed by her mother and shamed by her bishop for being SA’d. They claimed her “purity was tainted” and she needed to repent. Upon graduation, she went to the Young Single Adults ward, where she was primed to be targeted by a “worthy priesthood holder” who tried to lure her into an orgasm cult with promises to “fix” her sexual trauma.

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