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terra | i want you to always be available to me Jul 24, 2024

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At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship.
**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.**

quotes
“I found myself leaning into the attention whenever I would get it. And then when the attention would stop, I would seek it out.” - Terra
“…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra
“With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra
“It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra
“I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terra

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emma | you should be scared Jul 10, 2024

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Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse.

quotes
“All in the same week, I lost a dog, a job, a relationship, and a house. It was just like one of those things where your world is completely turned upside down and you're very vulnerable, right?” - Emma
“I run into Ben again, and Ben is somebody that women do see and say, wow, that guy's very attractive. And, we exchanged numbers and decided to go out for drinks one night… within a couple weeks, he had said, I want you to be my girlfriend.” - Emma
“He'd always kind of put on this good face for other people and then if there was any sort of stress or something that he perceived as a stress it would set him off.” - Emma
“My sense of safety around him, I think I was always aware that the day could be a bad day or like, I hope he's not in a bad mood and anything could really put him in a bad mood.” - Emma
“And I said something like, you're really scaring me, and all of a sudden he goes looks at me and he goes ‘you should be scared’ and he puts his foot on the gas like all the way, you know, ninety miles an hour swerving, screeching, whipping around and I'm just absolutely freaking out.” - Emma
“I didn't want to give him the power to ruin romantic love for me or the idea of a relationship for me, I wasn't going to do that.” - Emma
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debra | i’ve always seemed to attract the crazy type Jun 26, 2024

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After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control.
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quotes
“...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra
“I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra
“So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra
“Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra
“And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra
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The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast
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National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism
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The mission of the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism is to generate and disseminate fundamental knowledge about the adverse effects of alcohol on health and well-being, and apply that knowledge to improve diagnosis, prevention, and treatment of alcohol-related problems, including alcohol use disorder, across the lifespan.
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kenzi | i think we met awkward twelve minutes ago Jun 19, 2024

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Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior.
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quotes
“I started to really realize like, okay, I'm going to have to leave this marriage because if I don't leave this marriage at some point, I'm not so sure I'm going to make it out at all.” - Kenzi
“I have got to rebuild my life. And I finally get to this point where I want to start the process of exploring dating.” - Kenzi
“And he just looks me dead in the face. And he says, If you're not going or staying the night, I might as well just go ahead and get this over with.” - Kenzi
“I'm just like, God, please let me get my shoes on and get the fuck out of here, like, please, just let me get the fuck out of here safe, like, please don't let anything happen to me.” - Kenzi
“And what I would tell them is that you have no idea what somebody is going through until you are standing right in their shoes and you're put into the exact same situation. You don't know how you would react. You don't know how you would act. You don't know what you would say.” - Kenzi
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Inside The Case | Podcast
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kaitlyn | we didn’t have boundaries Jun 12, 2024

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Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence.
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quotes
“I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn
“We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn
“He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn
“I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn
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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
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Cleveland Rape Crisis Center
https://clevelandrapecrisis.org/
Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change.
Futures Without Violence
https://www.futureswithoutviolence.org/
For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world.
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lena | he’s your problem now Jun 05, 2024

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Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse.
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“I came from a traditional Armenian family. my cultural heritage is from Turkey. my grandparents were both survivors of the Armenian genocide. my parents were first generation, I'm second. And I was raised in a very strict household.” - Lena
“My father would say conflicting statements like you can do anything you want to do in life as long as you put your mind to it. Whereas my mother on the other side would say a girl's place is in the home taking care of her family.” - Lena
“He took me to the most extravagant Restaurant. he was dressed to the nines, and he got me flowers and gifts, and you're beautiful. You're perfect. I've never imagined myself with anybody so wonderful as you and I think that we could build a future together.” - Lena
“It progressively got worse and worse and worse. he started to degrade me, and he got very controlling. He told me what I could wear, how I could wear it. how to wear my makeup, how to wear my hair, And he told me what type of underwear to wear, and if I didn't do it, then there was going to be some form of emotional punishment.” - Lena
“And she said, ‘You've got 30 minutes to get your cats in their carriers, get your purse on your back, and get out of the house or I'm going to call the police.’” - Lena
“...if you're in a situation where you're dealing with a narcissist and you're married to that, start planning, look for a way out. stash money away, get your jewelry, and hide it. And when the time is right, it's going to present itself and you get the hell out when you know you're supposed to leave and don't look back.” - Lena
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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Leigh Robinson, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay
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The Midnight Mission is the oldest continuously operating human service organization in the Los Angeles region. Centered in the Skid Row area of downtown Los Angeles, The Midnight runs one of the most efficient direct service operations in the country. With only five executive managers throughout its 100-year history, The Midnight has been a consistent beacon of light for those with nowhere else to turn.
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laura | true love always May 30, 2024

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Laura reconnects with her grade school sweetheart sparking a wave of nostalgic romance. However, the warmth of their reunion soon fades as she becomes subjected to his abusive and destructive behavior.
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(23:18) questions & answers
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(27:44) charity & organizations
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quotes
“We went to fifth-grade camp. we were hanging out all the time, and I kind of got one of my crushes, you know, and I guess he did too, and then we ended up connecting…So we were boyfriend and girlfriend.” - Laura
“We were joking about how we dated when we were younger and we still had the same sort of sense of humor, and the things that made us get along. I felt a special connection to him.” - Laura
“We'd get into arguments and he would. Grab me by my throat and squeeze and choke me and look into my eyes….It was like something else took over him and sometimes I just see him enter a room and he would look like that and I was like, Oh, I better not talk.” - Laura
“And, he was in there with a girl and he looked shocked and she didn't, because she didn't know about me, apparently she's just sitting there. I walked up to him and I was like, Oh, hi. And he looked at me like, Oh, And I said to her, hi, I'm his girlfriend.” - Laura
“I saw more and more examples of healthy relationships like around me and I started recognizing it and being like this is just I can do better than this…” - Laura
“I think that rationalizing is a problem. You can't try to justify other people's behavior. You can't try to rationalize other people's behavior. If you're doing that, there's a problem.” - Laura
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NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness)
https://www.nami.org/
NAMI is the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. NAMI works to educate, support, advocate, listen and lead to improve the lives of people with mental illness and their loved ones.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
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sadie | i could kill you right now May 22, 2024

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Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life.
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(24:43) questions & answers
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(30:33) charity & organizations
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quotes
“I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie
“...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie
“I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie
“And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door. And I was like, please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie
“I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie
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Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
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https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe
Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free.
CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and support to victims of domestic and sexual violence through education advocacy and shelter.
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jenna | no one gets out this early May 15, 2024

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Jenna is swept off her feet by a charismatic chef and finds herself married within ninety days. But under his charming facade lurks a volatile temper as Jenna becomes the target of his rage, threats, and physical intimidation.
chapters
listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about jenna | 01:20
jenna’s story | 02:12
questions & answers | 21:56
closing thoughts | 25:46
charity & organizations | 27:07
submit your story | 27:36
disclaimer | 27:47
quotes
“And I was instantly taken with this man. he was tall, he was really, swarthy, dashing and would speak to me in Spanglish. And so we ended up making out and hanging out all night.” - Jenna
“I knew this was moving really fast and I wanted it to I think I just felt so ready I want to get married and this guy was just so passionate and all about me.” - Jenna
“...and he was calling me, blowing up my phone saying like, you better come home now or I'll kill myself and you have to deal with the body or I'll kill you if you don't come home.” - Jenna
“And so as I was leaving, this woman pulled me aside…And she's like, Jenna, I read your file and this guy's going to try to kill you.” - Jenna
“...I'm not going to blame myself because I just didn't have all the information. And then once I did get it, I took action. I knew I had to get out.” - Jenna
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Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay
Crazy Love written by Van Morrison
Spacetime by Mountaineer
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Peace Over Violence
https://www.peaceoverviolence.org/
Peace Over Violence is a nonprofit 501c3, multicultural, community based and volunteer centered organization dedicated to building healthy relationships, families and communities free from sexual, domestic and interpersonal violence. To achieve this mission our agency manages five departments delivering the services of Emergency, Intervention, Prevention, Education and Advocacy.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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mira | a f**king broken mess May 08, 2024

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After tying the knot, Mira finds herself fostering an emotionally immature man-child whose public intoxication, abusive tendencies, threats of suicide, and troubling fixation with firearms put Mira and her daughter's lives at risk.
chapters
listen with caution | 00:00
next on lovelustfear | 00:16
about mira | 01:17
mira’s story | 02:05
questions & answers | 21:32
closing thoughts | 25:09
charity & organizations | 26:24
submit your story | 26:54
disclaimer | 27:05
quotes
“I never really learned how to date in a healthy way. in my twenties, I definitely was part of that more of a big, binge-drinking culture where you went out on Friday night and drank a lot. And so then I'd meet men drinking, and then they turned out to, you know, have alcohol problems.” - Mira
“When I started internet dating, I got all those responses, including him. We were first talking, and I took screenshots of those back then because I knew it was not quite right.” - Mira
“It was very eye-opening in a lot of ways because in a sense, it was like adopting him as a teenager, really what it felt like because I had taken on all of these responsibilities.” - Mira
“And I was afraid he was going to commit suicide. I was afraid he was going to kill us. and he was driving by the house and all this shit and so he had no support system. He's never had any friends.” - Mira
“I had to trust my path and I don't do well with that. I like knowing what comes next. So you have to trust that you will be okay and you have to lean on others and come into a space of receiving and acceptance and put that out into the universe.” - Mira

music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Geoffrey Harvey, Samuel Kamau, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, AlesiaDavina, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, and TheoJT from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
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One Mom’s Battle
https://www.onemomsbattle.com/
One Mom’s Battle is the intersection of narcissistic abuse and child custody issues. The mission at One Mom’s Battle is to raise awareness and educate family court professionals on post separation abuse as it relates to co-parenting and the family court system (divorce, paternity and child custody battles). Education on high-conflict individuals and post separation abuse will allow family court professionals (Judges, Commissioners, Magistrates, CPS workers, Guardian ad Litems (GAL), Parenting Coordinators (PC), Custody Evaluators, therapists and attorneys) to recognize the abusive dynamics that play out in the family court system so they can make decisions that are in the best interest of children.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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