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Toni Becker | Anorexia, Body Dysmorphia, Meth, Recovery, Sobriety, Hope and Tattoos Feb 21, 2022

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Growing up, Toni Becker felt intimidated by her family. They were all so beautiful, and Toni felt the pressure to live up to those standards. She always felt like the black sheep & this led to her body dysmorphia & eating disorders early on in her life.

Things started getting out of control in high school, where she felt pressured by her classmates and the media for encouraging the super-thin supermodel look of the early 2000s. She was young & seeking attention, and this naivety fueled her desire to look attractive at all costs. She thought that she could control it, but quickly she realized she couldn't & needed help.

In college, she started experimenting with meth and a drug called "cat" After trying to run her friends over & ending up on a golf course, she went into rehab for the first time. She thought she had it handled, but her father knew she wouldn't commit. He sent her to a real rehab, where she couldn't leave, and finally accepted it and got some help. She lived in a halfway house, and a sober living facility for 2 years and this really helped her stay sober. Now, she's become a sponsor herself & is taking it one day at a time, wanting to share her story to help others.

She realized one day while getting coffee with her friends, "Why don't we start a YouTube channel & share our stories?" And since then, she has been on a mission to destigmatize anorexia, body dysmorphia, bulimia & all the disorders associated with it. She wants to start a discussion & get help for whoever may need it.

This is Toni Becker in her own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down.

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Terrance ’T. Wrecks” McKinney | Childhood Trauma, Drug Abuse, Dying Twice, MAA, UFC & Sobriety Feb 14, 2022

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Terrence McKinney aka T. Wrecks sat down with Jason and Mikey to share his near-death story of substance abuse, redemption, and spiritual progress. Growing up, Terrence lived mostly with his Grandmother. His mother was trying to get her life together & gave him to her in hopes that she would raise him better than she was equipped to at the time. His father was never a part of his life. He was hyperactive and would get in lots of fights. One time his grandmother locked him in a basement for 24 hours. These types of events were traumatic and Terrence didn't deal with them until later.

He started doing drugs and drinking heavily as a teenager to repress the trauma he was experiencing, and this quickly spiraled out of control. One night after taking a lot of mushrooms and other drugs, Terrence woke up in the hospital after being revived by doctors. He had no idea how he got there or what he did, but he knew that he didn't want to do drugs like that anymore.

Turning his fighting into a career seemed like a natural progression for him at the time. Luckily he was able to find discipline in the sport, and this in turn made him more disciplined with how he was treating his body. If he treated his body poorly with drugs and drinking, he couldn't get where he needed to be professionally so this turned out to change his life for the better. He stopped drinking & using drugs altogether, and has since been focused on his mental and physical health.

He realized that he needed to face his trauma & past head-on, so he could deal with it and move on in a healthy way in his life. Now he's finally done that and had to make some very mature decisions about what path he wanted to go down in life. Now, he's one of the UFC's rising stars, with a world-record-setting time of 7 seconds for one of his knockouts. He trains 3 times a day and hopes to continue his path of personal growth and maintain his health.

This is Terrence McKinney in his own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down.

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Jason and Mikey | The Fear of Relapse, Recovery, The 1st Drink, Toxicity, Having A Support System, I Could Lie and more. Feb 11, 2022

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Jason and Mikey talk on this bonus episode about Jason's fear of relapse after having to be put under for a procedure that included fentanyl. Mikey shares the story of his first drink. They also touch on creating boundaries to avoid toxic connections, as well as support systems. Plus trust when it comes to building bonds and maintaining one's integrity.

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Dai Manuel | Alcoholism, Sobriety, 10 Day Meditation, Travelling the World, Fatherhood and Family Feb 07, 2022

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Early on in his adult life, Dai Manuel started to mask his insecurities and anxieties with alcohol, and this led to dramatic mood swings and personality traits that he didn't like. It went from a socially fun thing to actually trying to escape his emotions that he couldn't deal with sober. This started a destructive path that eventually started to get out of hand.

One of the lowest points in his life was coming home after drinking way too much, waking up late and his wife asking him "Are you being the kind of man your daughters want to marry?" That was the turning point for Dai, and since that day, he hasn't had a drink. Now, Dai is living his best life. He's found clarity, faith, and purpose in his life that he didn't have before. He hasn't had a drink in over 11 years. He quit his oppressive job of 17 years and now travels the world with his wife and kids. He does his work online now and finds it makes more time for his family as well as his sanity.

This is Dai Manuel in his own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down.

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01:46 She asked me, 'Are you being the kind of man your daughters want to marry?'

11:06 I wanted to drink again, and I realized I needed help

24:15 If you can get clarity, you can start to build confidence

31:39 After I got clear on my values, boundaries were easy to define

4:735 We packed up our SUV, pulled the kids out of school, and started traveling

54:54 There is nothing louder in the world than your own voice inside your head

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Steve Hofstetter | Comedian, Author, Mental Health On the Road, Anxiety, Alcohol & Online Trolls Jan 31, 2022

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Growing up, Steve was shy and bullied. He started to use comedy as a way of being the "funny guy" in class and started getting the attention of a girl he liked. This inspired him to do comedy more, and before he knew it he made a career out of it.

Touring as a comedian definitely had its ups and downs, and Steve talks about how it was tough for him not to drink on the road when you're in a profession where everybody is trying to buy you a drink. He had tough times dealing with mental health, physical health, and setting boundaries with his fans. Also, the isolation and loneliness that Steve felt on the road, before social media and the internet really took off.

Now, with his latest book 'Follow Your Dream (Unless Your Dream Is Stupid)' Steve talks about those first 6 years as a stand-up comic, and all of his failures and learning experiences along the way. He gives advice on how to deal with negative people, stick to your guns, and embrace who you are without compromise.

This is Steve Hoffstetter in his own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down.

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Sam Lucania - Author of ”Just Don’t Die”, Trauma, Addiction, Alcohol, Overdoses, Jail Time, Rehab & Recovery Advocate Jan 30, 2022

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Sam Lucania talks with Jason and Mikey about his journey to sobriety and what led him down a path of addiction.

Growing up in New Jersey, Sam had a typical upbringing. He was a high-energy kid and had a lot of anxiety. He was also depressed, as a lot of adolescent kids deal with school problems as well as problems at home. To hide all this, he started drinking and using "gateway" drugs like marijuana and alcohol. Eventually, this led to pills & heavy drinking combined.

It started as self-medicating but eventually turned destructive. He was taking very high doses of prescription drugs and drinking heavily. He started to have suicidal thoughts and eventually overdosed. When Sam overdosed, he woke up handcuffed to a gurney and had no idea how he got there. He didn't get the help and counseling he needed after this, thinking he was fine. This led to him breaking and entering and stealing from a friend to support his habit, and being sentenced to jail for 3 years in 2015.

This was the wake-up call he needed and has been active in recovery ever since. Typical sobriety practices didn't work for Sam, so he found his own "holy trinity" of things that keep him sober: his spiritual fitness, physical fitness, and mental fitness. He was first inspired to do public speaking and share his story in hopes of helping someone out that may be going through a similar ordeal.

Now, Sam is an author as well, with his first book just released called "Just Don't Die", which reinforces his belief that you can cure addiction, alcoholism, and other diseases, but you can't cure death. Even if you feel like you're on the brink, you can get help and make a recovery.

This is Sam Anthony in his own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down. For more on Sam and to connect with him visit https://samanthonyspeaks.com/

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Sonny Mayo | Part 2, Crystal Meth, Recovery Advocate, Thrash Metal Pioneer, Sevendust, Snot & Rock to Recovery Jan 17, 2022

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When Sonny Mayo was growing up, he had tendencies of manic depression often. He started using drugs and felt like this released him from the anxieties and problems he had in his life. This led him on the path of addiction, and he heavily relied on it; mentally and physically.

Sonny got into treatment at the age of 16 after abusing Dexedrine with a friend of his. He wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink, and pushed everyone that cared about him away. One of his lowest lows around this time was smoking meth in an airplane bathroom during an international flight.

One night he came home to his mother high on acid, claiming he had a message for her and that she should treat him like the messiah. The next day, he was in rehab. He hated it at first & didn't feel like he belonged there. But after a while, it started to connect with him and he finally committed to getting better.

In 2009, Sonny went to recording school in Los Angeles and got his certification for Pro Tools, and has been recording many artists and friends in the Los Angeles area. Since 2014, Sonny has been on the board of directors for Rock To Recovery, which helps to bring music to people in various stages of drug & alcohol recovery, people suffering from PTSD, and other mental health issues. They write songs with the patients, work a lot with veteran organizations, and have written over 21,000 songs so far. We also talk about his music career with Snot, Sevendust, Hed P.E., and more.

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Sonny Mayo | Part 1, Crystal Meth, Recovery Advocate, Thrash Metal Pioneer, Sevendust, Snot & Rock to Recovery Jan 17, 2022

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In 2009, Sonny went to recording school in Los Angeles and got his certification for Pro Tools, and has been recording many artists and friends in the Los Angeles area. Since 2014, Sonny has been on the board of directors for Rock To Recovery, which helps to bring music to people in various stages of drug & alcohol recovery, people suffering from PTSD, and other mental health issues. They write songs with the patients, and work a lot with veteran organizations, and have written over 21,000 songs so far.

Check them out at www.rocktorecovery.com

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Brianne Davis & Mark Gantt - Sex & Love Addiction, Debtors Anonymous, Drugs, Alcohol, Recovery, Hollywood, Authoring & Podcasting Jan 10, 2022

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Jason and Mikey sit down with Brianne Davis & Mark Gantt. Brianne and Mark have had quite the experience in Hollywood. From the highs of writing and starring in your own TV series to the lows of sex addiction & heavy drug use, they have seen it all. Mark started using drugs and drinking heavily in his teenage years, trying to escape the stresses of home. He stopped using drugs at 19, and reluctantly went into rehab and was able to stick it out. Brianne's addiction didn't come until her teenage years, when she learned how to manipulate everyone in her life, as she put it "snort & drink" people instead of drugs. She would get a thrill from lying and deceiving family members as well as her personal relationships. She wanted to use her body and appearance to her advantage, so this is what led her to Hollywood.

Brianne met Mark at a time when one of them was in recovery, and the other had yet to confront their disease. However, Mark had yet to come to terms with the way he was using money as a coping mechanism and started attending Debtors Anonymous. The symbiotic relationship soon formed between them to heal together in a healthy way, while trying to remove the stigma associated with sex and love addiction. It was tough to rewire her emotional process, but eventually, she overcame it. Mark has been sober for over 30 years now. Brianne has been free of her addiction for over 10 years now, and now they both hope to inspire others to come forward.

Brianne has shifted her focus from acting to writing & podcasting. She recently wrote the book "Secret Life of a Hollywood Sex & Love Addict" in 2020, and quickly made the Amazon Best Seller's List. Lately, Mark has been focused on writing as well, including two upcoming Audible Original True Crime books, and currently writing & pitching two separate tv-series with Brianne.

Brianne & Mark also launched the "Secret Life" Podcast in September of 2020, and haven't looked back. They are discussing all kinds of taboo & personal topics that people struggle with in their everyday love lives. They are trying to break down the stigma with sex and love addiction, in hopes that more people will come forward and seek treatment as well as create open dialogues for people with trauma and addiction backgrounds.

This is Mark & Brianne in their own words, on Knockin Doorz Down.

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Tim Lodgen | Alcoholism, Skateboarding, Brandon Novak, Marines, Bipolar, Homelessness, MMA & Rehab Jan 03, 2022

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Growing up in Maryland, Tim Lodgen started skateboarding with the local up & coming pros like Brandon Novak & Bucky Lasek. He started drinking often in high school, and eventually, it went down the road of alcoholism & drug use. When Tim joined the marines, it really made the drinking worse. Tim thought he had it under control, he would drink while holding down a job, and this justified it in his mind.

He was trained in MMA, karate & other martial arts. He never made it pro, but he was a local accomplished athlete that still had the respect of his peers at this time. His drinking started to take over his life though, and Tim noticed a difference. His friend Brandon Novak went over to his house one night and tried to convince him to get help and get into rehab, but Tim wasn't ready.

A couple of nights later, he went to the local liquor store after drinking, crashed into something, and made it home. His wife was upset and concerned, but let it slide.

The next morning, he woke up & realized the whole side of his truck was smashed, and he had no memory of what happened. The next day he went out drinking again and smashed into another car, this time damaging the front of his truck. This was the last straw for his wife, who kicked him out of their house at this point. He was homeless, sleeping in his car drinking whiskey when Brandon Novak called him. They had arranged for him to get on a plane & into the Banyan Treatment Center, and this started his road to recovery.

Now, Tim is in the best place he's ever been in life. He's taking his medication and is able to process & deal with his emotions in a much better way. He's been staying sober with the help of his daughters and his wife, who want to help him as possible to stay on the path he's been on. After 9 months of sobriety, his oldest daughter is finally talking to him again. He takes everything one day at a time and hopes to share his story here in hopes of changing a life out there that may have been going down the same road as he was.

This is Tim Lodgen in his own words, on Knockin' Doorz Down.

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