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**DiscountEDU**

Welcome to DiscountEDU, a podcast where Dallas Thurman, Jezel Martinez, Valentina Parra, and Aryn Honaker talk about their experiences as first-generation low-income students (FGLI) at Northwestern.

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Episode 6: Intersectionality - Latine & FGLI May 28, 2024

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Join hosts Jezel and Valentina as they share how their first-generation, lower-income and Latina identities intersect at Northwestern and beyond.

Are you interested in sharing how your ethnic/racial background interacts with your identity as a first-gen and/or low-income student at Northwestern? Please reach out to us– Valentina’s email is valentinaparra2027@u.Northwestern.edu.

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Jezel Martinez and Valentina Parra. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

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Episode 5: Intersectionality - Black & FGLI May 27, 2024

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Special episode! Join hosts Dallas and Aryn as they share how their first-generation, lower-income, and Black identities intersect at Northwestern and beyond.

Are you interested in sharing how your ethnic/racial background interacts with your identity as a first-gen and/or low-income student at Northwestern? Please reach out to us– valentinaprvsr@gmail.com

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Aryn Honaker and Dallas Thurman. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

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Episode 4: Advice to Prospective FGLIs May 27, 2024

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Join hosts Dallas, Jezel, Aryn and Valentina as they discuss what to consider when committing to Northwestern as a FGLI student. They cover special programs like SES, what side of campus to live on, choosing a major and what it’s like being so close to a big city like Chicago.

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Aryn Honaker, Jezel Martinez, Valentina Parra, and Dallas Thurman. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

Cover art by Olivia Abeyta.

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Episode 3: Applying to College Apr 30, 2024

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Join hosts Dallas, Jezel, Aryn, and Valentina as they reflect on their college application journey as FGLI students. They cover choosing colleges, acceptance reactions, getting that financial aid package, and writing essays.

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Aryn Honaker, Jezel Martinez, Valentina Parra, and Dallas Thurman. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

Cover art by Olivia Abeyta.

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Episode 2: Transitions to a Big 10, Continued Mar 06, 2024

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Join hosts Dallas, Jezel, Aryn, and Valentina in their second episode of DiscountEDU, part two of their first episode. They discuss adjusting to the academic rigor of the school, switching up routines, and dealing with PWI/socioeconomic culture shocks.

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Aryn Honaker, Jezel Martinez, Valentina Parra, and Dallas Thurman. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

Cover art by Olivia Abeyta.

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Episode 1: Transitions to Big Ten Pt. 1 Feb 28, 2024

Welcome to DiscountEDU, a podcast all about the first-generation lower-income (FGLI) student experience at Northwestern University. Join hosts Dallas Thurman, Jezel Martinez, Aryn Honaker, and Valentina Parra for their first episode as they dive into their transition from high school to a Big 10 university.

A North by Northwestern podcast. This episode was hosted by Aryn Honaker, Jezel Martinez, Valentina Parra, and Dallas Thurman. Edited by Dallas Thurman.

Cover art by Olivia Abeyta.

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Subtitled Ep 3: Best of 2020 Feb 16, 2021

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** ["Maintain(Makaih.com)," by Makaih Beats, CC BY-NC-ND 4.0]** ["Maintain(Makaih.com)," by Makaih Beats, CC BY-NC-ND 4.0] L: Hi, I'm Lami Zhang. V: This is Victoria Benefield. L: And welcome to Subtitled, a podcast where two fake film students take a look at popular TV shows and movies. Although I am no longer a film student, I have dropped my minor, and I am picking up art history. V: Whoo! Exciting! L: Yeah, which is a possibly even more pretentious minor than Film and Media Studies. V: I don't know. I feel like based on the length of the title of it, Film and Media Studies is really obnoxious. Like I feel embarrassed when I introduce myself with a Film and Media studies minor. Sometimes I have to shorten it to film studies to sound slightly less ridiculous. L: Alright, so today we're going to talk about our 2020 favorites and least favorites for TV shows and movies. Because we have a lot of opinions on things like this. V: Oh yes. And all things. I think we have opinions on a lot of things. L: That's true. That's true. So Victoria, give me your top three movies for 2020. V: Okay, top three movies of 2020. Shirley directed by Josephine Decker, available on Hulu. Please watch it. It's excellent. Borat Subsequent Moviefilm, which is – I don't even need to explain this one. An excellent movie. And then Emma. Those are my top three. What about you Lami? What were your top three films of 2020? L: Definitely Emma, ‘cause I’m a huge slut for Jane Austen. Obviously. The King of Staten Island because Pete Davidson is my man. And I have written down Portrait of a Lady on Fire, although I did not really enjoy that movie. I guess I just haven't seen a lot of movies in 2020. V: Yeah, I feel that. I don't think there were a lot of good ones that came out, like I struggled to make this list. Or maybe I just didn't watch the good ones. That’s also a possibility. L: I think you would really like The King of Staten Island because you also like Pete Davidson. V: Oh, yeah. A huge fan of Pete Davidson, which apparently is controversial. L: TV show wise, I really liked Bridgerton obviously. Simon's pullout game is strong. The Queen's Gambit, although I know nothing about chess. And Emily in Paris. V: Did you really put that at number three? L: That was not number three. Okay. I'm not even going down a list right now. Um, number three, let's see. Possibly Sex Education, season two. Wait, no, no, no, V: Wait, that was in 2020? L: That was in 2020. V: So good. L: But maybe that didn't make my list. Big Mouth season three, two… three? The newest season. [Note: Lami is referring to Season 4.] Really, really good. Highly recommend. V: My TV choices. I only have two, but I would put Bridgerton on here as well. Shamefully, but so good. I love Gossip Girl, and I love Jane Austen, and it really just felt like the best possible combination. So, top two TV shows for me were How to Sell Drugs Online (Fast). Season two came out this year. This is a German show. Everyone needs to watch it. It's about two really nerdy high school boys that end up starting a drug business online, somehow. It's so complicated, but it's so good, and there's a lot involved, 3D printed guns … there's a lot of drama. It's so good. And then my other favorite was Ramy season two. So good. It has to be in my top five TV shows of all time. I think it's incredible, like the portrayal of the conflict between religion and culture and like American culture versus his culture from home. It's incredible. L: Remind me what Ramy is about again? I've heard you talk about this. V: Way too many times. Yeah. So, it's basically about this Muslim … man. I almost called him a boy. He's definitely a man, a fully grown man. But a Muslim man growing up in the U.S. and about just his relationship with his culture and his heritage, him reckoning with his religion versus American culture. And as someone who is religious, I think it's really interesting, like the tug between those two sides of yourself. So yeah, I love it. And it's also funny somehow. Despite all that, it's somehow comedic. But, yeah. And then I have podcasts next here. What were your favorite podcasts of the year? L: Definitely the one I listened to the most is probably Anything Goes with Emma Chamberlain. Just because it's really light. I do listen to news podcasts, occasionally, but sometimes you just need some valley girl talk. You know. V: I love her. She's so relatable. L: And also Life Kit by NPR. They tell you how to do shit. I just need that in my life. V: We all need to know how to do more shit. L: How about you? V: So, my favorites. I'm gonna say The Daily by the New York Times just because I listen to it every day, so I can't not include it. L: Michael! V: I love Michael. L: Remember when we saw him on Zoom during that Medill talk? V: Truly changed my life. L: The highlight of my Fall Quarter. V: I think I cried a little bit, or a lot. He's a very important male figure in my life. It’s fine, anyways, moving on. My other top favorites were Canary by the Washington Post, I believe. Don't quote me on that. [Note: Canary is in fact published by the Washington Post.] But it was a limited series about just a couple of sexual assault cases from the past few years. Highly recommend. So good. Really interesting storytelling, and I think the reporter did a really good job balancing like the sensitive nature of the case. And then my next favorite is @lexie. I love her. I love her personality. She makes me happy listening to her. It's like Emma Chamberlain, it's light, she's funny. L: She's not that relatable though. This girl highkey went like “I never get stressed.” And then I stopped listening to her. V: It's attainable though. I'm trying to reach that level. L: Is it attainable though? I think … I think she's lying. She's definitely been stressed before. V: That's fair. I think it was a little bit of exaggeration on her part, but she's fun. She lives in New York City. She has a great life. She does YouTube for a living. L: I love that our – the people we look up to are YouTubers. V: Who are basically younger than me. Emma Chamberlain is younger than us. I think she's 19, still. L: I just really like Emma's podcast because she literally will hop on the mic and be like, “I had a shit day and I cried for three hours.” I was like “same. “ V: My favorite part is when she doesn't talk for three minutes and it's just her cats meowing and she’s like “Can you hear that? Can you hear that?” Please, I just want a cat. L: I think we need that in our podcast. I was gonna talk about stand up. V: Yeah, definitely. L: Because we definitely need some laughter in 2020 and 2021. I saw Taylor Tomlinson's Netflix special [Taylor Tomlinson:] Quarter-Life Crisis. The beginning of the year. I thought it was so good. Death to 2020 came out in 2020. V: No, it didn't. Did it come out the last day of the year? L: Probably. I don't know. I'm gonna count it as a 2020 film. [Note: Death to 2020 was released on Dec. 27th, 2020.] That one was funny. Very dark humor. V: I couldn’t get through five minutes of it. Not gonna lie. I don't know … something about it. It's confusing. L: It's not confusing. It's so funny. V: Yeah, I think I thought it was real for like two seconds. And then after that I was disappointed. I wanted a real documentary. L: We're living through it. We don't need a real fucking documentary. V: That’s true. I think it was because they made fun of the New Yorker. Or was it the New York Times? L: They did? V: Yeah. They were like mocking one of them. I can't remember which one.[Note: She means The New Yorker] L: That’s really funny. V: It hurt me. Oh, we can talk about documentaries. Yours is Miss Americana? L: This is so sad. Yes, mine is Miss Americana. Taylor Swift. Huge fan. Not the greatest documentary. But it has Taylor Swift in it, so I watched it. V: My favorite documentary of this year has to be Dick Johnson Is Dead. L: I loved that documentary. It’s so good. V: I think I cried for all of it, maybe? Possibly all of it. L: I think we need to rewatch it. V: Yeah. Do I need to cry again, though? Should we explain what it is? L: We should. V: For the audience. L: At least a little bit of it. Might be a little confusing.Who is Dick Johnson? Why is he dead? V: Exactly. Okay. So Kirsten Johnson made this movie. Basically, it's coming to terms with the fact that her dad is going to die, which sounds really sad. And it was, but she did it with almost a humorous take in that she had these scenes where her still-living father would go through a reenactment of how he could potentially die. So it'd be anything from like, getting hit by a car to having an air conditioning unit fall on his head, all of this crazy stuff. And she would direct and film these scenes. But yeah, it's just like, a really beautiful film. And it will be I think, for her once – I can't spoil it – but I think it's a really good remembrance of her dad. And it's also a beautiful piece of art. L: I think those are my favorite types of documentaries. Like when the documentarian kind of has a more self-reflective topic, rather than like trying to tackle a bigger issue. Yeah, I don't know. I just think those are really personal. And more pieces of art than journalism. V: Yeah, I agree. I think especially because the audience is seeing something through the lens of the documentarian. And so, anytime they're trying to tackle a really big topic that's not through a personal viewpoint, it can be dangerous and they can end up saying things that aren't true. Or they can end up jumping to conclusions, but I think sticking to your own story not only makes it more authentic, but it's also a lot more powerful. This has to be one of the most powerful documentaries I've ever watched. L: Ooh, what is the worst movie or TV show you've seen in 2020? V: Okay, so originally, I had the second To All The Boys movie, which is horrible. We watched that on Valentine's Day, didn't we? Which is revealing our very single status. L: That’s true. V: It's fine, whatever. Moving on. But I think after some very, very deep reflection, I have decided that the worst movie I saw this year has to be Kissing Booth 2. L: You saw that movie? Why did you see it? V: I don’t want to talk about it. Did I watch the entire two-and-a-half hours? Yes. L: That's like self destructive. Why would you see that? V: I loved it though. Not gonna lie, I loved it. L: What? I hated the first Kissing Booth movie. V: Yes, me too. No, no, I didn't hate it. L: It was so shit. I'm sorry. V: They're not good movies. They're not good movies. I enjoy watching them. I do think they are objectively horrible films. Really, no one should watch them. But I did watch it. I will say it was the worst movie of this year. L: I think mine rivals yours, maybe. 365 Days. It's basically – you know how some movies are basically porn with a plot? V: Bridgerton. L: This one's just flat out porn with 50% of a plot that doesn't fucking make sense. V: Isn’t that just actual porn at that point? L: Basically, it's an extended version of porn, basically, luxury porn. Do not search that up. Because I did, it does not mean what you think it means. Actually, it means exactly what you think it means. But 365 days, it's just about this mafia dude who kidnaps this lady. And then he's like, “I'll give you a year, 365 days, to fall in love with me. And if you don't, I'll set you free.” But then it was just a terrible representation of sex on screen. No consent, zero consent. And then halfway, she just falls in love with him. No fucking explanation why. V: What the fuck. L: They have more sex. That was it. V: I'm so disturbed. L: Do not watch it. Or watch it if that's what you're looking for, you know? V: I really hope it's not what you're looking for. L: Hey, no judgment here. V: A little bit of judgment. L: A little bit. V: See I’m a real film student. I’m allowed to pass judgment. L: 2020 was a hard year for everybody. So maybe luxury porn is what you need? Who knows? V: And on that note, I'm Victoria Benefield. L: And I'm Lami Zhang V: And this has been Subtitled. Thanks for listening.

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Bridgerton Roundtable Feb 08, 2021

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Trigger warning for mentions of sexual violence from 5:15 through 5:50.

Spoiler alert for everything beyond 11:50.

Beck Dengler This is going to be NBN’s Bridgerton Roundtable. We're going to talk about this just crazy show that tries to do a million things at once. It was adapted based on a novel series by Julia Quinn, which is actually an eight book series. So there could be a lot of Bridgerton in our future. The show has been very hyped, at least a lot of people are watching it. So I guess the first question to begin with is does Bridgerton deserve the hype? And what are your thoughts on the show? Isha I mean, I liked it. I think it kind of did deserve the hype. I feel like a lot of the drama lately have been teen dramas, and not period pieces-ish. So I feel like it's kind of new. It has its own flavor. And I think Shonda Rhimes is the producer, and I mean I like all of her other shows. She brings in a lot of the elements that I like about the other shows into Bridgerton. And so I think that the hype is deserved. Elizabeth Since Downton Abbey, we haven't seen as popular of a period drama, as far as I know. So it's kind of been like that next modern twist on Downton Abbey. Although I do think that the first couple episodes were a little slow, eventually, as we got more in tune and more insight into the characters, I think it did eventually live up to the hype. Tanisha The costumes are great and I feel like a lot of people watch period pieces for the aesthetic. And I get that. I get that completely, but I don't think plot wise it was as invigorating as Downton Abbey or anything that you might expect from a period piece. I feel like in any show, you need to have someone you're really rooting for. And I just didn't see that here. I personally didn't care much for Daphne at all. She didn't really know what she wanted. She just wanted to get married. And I'm not saying that that's not cool, but beyond that, she didn't have a personality. Her personality was that she didn't like Simon from the get-go, unlike everyone else, so that makes her quirky and unique, and so she should be the protagonist. Een the other characters like Eloise, who I think is very, very, very, very, gay, as much as I love her, her only personality was, I hate everything that Daphne does, and I want to be the opposite of her. And everyone else is just kind of like, "nice." Isha With Eloise, her thing was very "not like the other girls," which makes a little bit of sense because she did not like what a lot of the other girls were into. She wants her to get her education or whatever. But it felt like she did not express that the right way. It felt like she was taking her anger out, that should have maybe been on society in general, on Daphne. With what you said about Daphne, my biggest issue with her is she would constantly complain that the men in her life didn't trust her to make decisions and stuff, which is great cause like hashtag feminism, you know. But every time she had the opportunity to make a decision for herself she kind of messed that up. Beck Dengler My opinion on the show was ehh somewhat fun to watch, but I did not like the characters. It was trying to do so many things. It was really trying to establish this whole world, a cinematic world with all the different characters having their own storylines. We go to their gambling place. They've got a boxing ring. We go to their orgy house, like we’re really going all over the place with tons of these different characters. I don't even know their names. And then they’re held on by this ultimate romance with Daphne. Her motivations change slightly, but she just tries to get the Duke to impregnate her I guess. I guess that's the vibe. Tanisha When I was watching the show, I kept forgetting that it was called Bridgerton because I was so confused by why it was called that. I really thought it should have been called Lady Whistledown. The only people we even like know about in the Bridgerton household is Daphne and her brother and even Eloise all she does is like go sit outside, smoke, be gay. And I don't know if that's much about her, you know? Isha In the show's defense, I think they're confirmed to be renewed for seven seasons, or maybe it's not confirmed. Beck Dengler Seven? Elizabeth Wow. Is it like one for each sibling? Isha Yeah, A through H. Each season revolves around one of the characters. So the next season is supposed to be about Anthony. One of the show's flaws was the fact that there were so many characters. And, obviously, they're doing that to set up for future seasons and the longevity of the show. But it did come at a price where you feel like you don't really know a lot of the characters. I don't know if we can blame not liking the characters on that, because some of them just have undesirable qualities. Elizabeth If anything instead of focusing on so many different of the characters or so many of the different siblings, maybe you have a second sibling that's upcoming in the next season be the second focus because you don't really know the characters after this season as well as I guess the producers or writers were shooting for. At this point, I don't know which sibling, maybe outside of Eloise and her kind of development in society, like which one I would be intrigued to see a whole season on. Obviously, I'm gonna watch it because I've watched the first one and I just kind of see how it goes. But I don't think there's specifically one I'm particularly excited for. Beck Dengler So if each one is gonna correspond to a different sibling, does that mean the two young kids they're gonna get their own seasons, like the little boy? Elizabeth See, I don't know the little boy's name. I know there’s like a Hyacinth in there, but I don't know the little boy's name. So like, I just don't understand. CW: Mentions of sexual assault (please skip to 5:50 if you wish to avoid this subject) Tanisha Something that made me uncomfortable was that whole scene, which was obviously a rape scene, but it isn't characterized as such. I think the showrunners somewhere have talked about that as like a moment of Daphne being empowered, which is really uncomfortable. It was obviously not consensual. Isha Yeah, I'm definitely not comfortable with the showrunners or whoever framing that as empowerment. That's just sexual assault. I don't know if it should be framed as something positive, like empowerment. Yeah, I don't like that at all. Beck Dengler What do you then think of the main romance for this season, Daphne and the Duke? Do we have many opinions? Because their relationship fell into a lot of romance cliches. The young virgin who's so naive, then he needs to teach her literally everything. He's like, “masturbate, try it out.” What were your thoughts? I mean, they're both very attractive actors, and I liked looking at them. Period. Isha They're both attractive. But I did sometimes feel uncomfortable because Daphne looks like a 13 or 14 year old, and he looks much older. But I think the actress is like 25. Tanisha I thought she looked age appropriate as did he. I know the books probably set this up, but when you're adapting something, especially way after the books were published, you do have that freedom to make it more time appropriate. They didn't need to infantilize her so much and at the same time make her this "I'm capable of making my own decisions, back off” person. But at the same time, I feel like she was very, very fickle. Every single time that she brought up “you have so much because you're a man and I have nothing because I'm a woman” it just made me cringe so badly. Especially because they set it up to be a world where racism did exist at some point. I'm pretty sure she said this to Simon as well, and for her to say that to him “you have no idea what oppression means because I’m a woman, OK?” It was just weird. She was just extremely childlike and not at the same time. You know those 12-year-olds who really want to go to the mall by themselves? Like that. Beck Dengler That's gonna be an outdated reference. Like, right now, already. Tanisha Okay. Well, I am old then, I guess. Isha Part of it is she is young, right? She's supposed to be like 15 I think. So she is still a teenager. But society dictates that it's time for her to go through her whole marriage season. So that caused her to have to grow up in some ways, but she's still a 15 year old. So I think maybe that's what the discrepancy is. Elizabeth The romantic development overall for me was very hard, was very subtle, or maybe hard to pick up on. Obviously, like you mentioned, it's 1813, so the way that romance is developed, or how they court is a lot different. So it's a lot of them taking walks together, just talking or dancing. But beyond that, it was like, hard – I just remember them dancing and then talking and they enjoy each other's company, obviously. And then I remember this one episode where they're at the queen and he's like, “I burn for her” or something, or they tell each other that or something. I think that just that stark contrast between their interactions, and then that whole scene was jarring for me because just them looking at each other across the ballroom or like taking walks. I was like, “I didn't see this coming as strongly as it did.” Beck Dengler One of the issues I saw with their relationship, which is kind of fun in a TV sort of way, but the way that all their fights early on, seem to, and later on, pretty much just end with them having sex. Isha I feel like that's just kind of representative of the whole relationship. I feel like communication was obviously a huge issue for them. He did not tell her about his whole vow to not have kids thing. I feel like a lot of instances Daphne did not feel comfortable enough to say what she wanted to say because maybe her lack of experience, maybe she's younger, things like that. And then he obviously has his own life, and he's used to being a lone wolf. So maybe that kind of fueled his lack of communication skills. But I think that the sex was a byproduct of that. Elizabeth Honestly, it's just another one of those cliches that you see in a lot of romantic shows or movies. The communication is not always there, but the physical aspect is always there. Beck Dengler If there's going to be seven more seasons of this show about the children. From this first season, what characters, what things are we interested in seeing or what would bring us back to the show? Elizabeth I think earlier I mentioned I wanted to see Eloise and kind of her development as she grows older and kind of see if her mindset changes or how she stands in society. But also I'd be curious to see Colin and Penelope’s relationship, if there is eventually something there, especially now that we know – not to put any spoilers – of Penelope’s other activities. Tanisha The only thing that would bring me back to the show is if Penelope and Eloise got together. That’s the only thing that will bring me back because I think that Eloise is obviously not just like‒ She's obviously gay. We can tell, right? You know that whole shazam with “I love Colin and I want him and Marina to break up because he's too young and all that.” I don't think she liked Colin. She liked Marina. That's really obvious. And the only reason she thinks she likes Collin is because she was friends with Marina first. She was so invested in her relationship with this faraway soldier who didn't really exist. But then when a real guy comes to take Marina away then she was like, ah. Isha I think I'd be interested in Anthony or Benedict because I kind of liked Anthony as a character. I feel like that might be a hot take. And Benedict, I definitely think he's gay and I definitely thought when he went to the painter's house that they were going to make some moves. So I'd be interested to see how that would play out in this 1813 show. Elizabeth I agree with the Benedict take. Going back to Elouise, I think the best character comparison I have for that is Jo from “Little Women.” She is very similar in a lot of aspects and a lot of their mindset. Spoiler alert for the rest of the transcript. Beck Dengler I think it's interesting because the show kind of only – as far as I could remember – only had the one direct moment of homosexual relationship, which was in the brothel very much behind closed doors. But I would be interested if they actually go that direction. I have no idea where the books go, so I assume it goes where the books do. So far it has seemed very straight. Oh, I just got to get this off my chest too, though. Penelope we can spoil it right now. Penelope‒ Elizabeth I tried so hard. Beck Dengler Yeah. So this big build up to Lady Whistledown, Lady Whistledown all season – all about her, very Gossip Girl. And then right at the end, final episode we see in the carriage, Penelope. It's her – probably...probably…assumably. Tanisha I don’t know. I think it's really obvious. Elizabeth I don't know for me, it was very unexpected. And I almost didn't like how they ended it on that. Because I thought it came out of nowhere. But I'd be curious to see what were the signs you guys saw? Isha For me, it was as soon as she outed Marina as being pregnant when she was about to marry Collin. Then I was like, OK, it's definitely Penelope. I was mostly surprised by the fact that they revealed it was her because I thought I was kind of putting this since the same fram Gossip Girl where I was like, OK, they're gonna reveal it at the very, very end. So when they revealed her I was like, "already?," I guess I was kind of anticipating this being a long running mystery throughout the series. And I wonder if they're going to replace that mystery or dish the whole "Who is Lady Whistledown?" thing. But yeah, I feel like I kind of saw it coming. Tanisha There's this scene where her and Eloise are talking and Eloise is talking about how she really wants to just find out who it is. And like you can tell by like the way Penelope is behaving, that's something that she's not interested in, because she pretends that she's more interested in her problems. But she's also trying to steer the conversation away from that because she doesn't want her to find out. And then, I don’t know who says why it wouldn’t be one of the servants. It has to be someone who has access to all these private spaces, and is also someone that has the time and that people are just kind of overlooking. And so I was like, yeah, it's obviously you then! Just say it. Beck Dengler I'm glad they didn't go the Gossip Girl route: let's just keep on building up to this moment. Because they changed who Gossip Girl was a lot of times before landing the result and it kind of whimpered out a bit. So it could be interesting to explore what it means for her. Tanisha The actress who plays Penelope, she's also in Derry Girls. OK, so the weird thing is that in Derry Girls, she's a lesbian. And I love that show. And she's a great character that plays a great character. I don't care enough about the show to actually root for any of the characters, so I'm just rooting for the actors. So I love her. So I'm always OK with everything that she did. I was like, go cause some damage and pop out, have some fun. Elizabeth One interesting thing I did like about the show that made it kind of unique was the modern music with the classical orchestra, the accompaniments to the show. I thought that was really unique. I watched the show while I was doing busy work or something, so I would just be half listening, half watching and then I would hear something that I recognize, like, "Oh, that's really cool." Tanisha I thought that was funny. It made me laugh a lot. Every single time it was on I was like, "this is so insane." Who pitched that? Who sat in a room with 15 other really smart writers of the show, and said that my great idea is that we put the music we use now‒ Beck Dengler Let's use "Bad Guy" by Billie Eilish. Let's have that played on a string quartet. Let's do it. Isha This was the first period piece-ish thing I've watched. I thought that was interesting. And, you know, there's some flaws plot wise character development wise, but like it was entertaining. I watched it in one night. So it was, you know, a good use of my time. I stayed up until 8 am. Elizabeth I'm a huge fan of Downton Abbey. So when I heard something very similar yet kind of different came out, I was excited to watch it. And obviously, we've discussed it's not the same, not the same level. And there are flaws to it. But I think compared to what's been put out. Similar, I think I enjoyed this a little more. It wasn't a bad use of my time. I didn't binge it all in one night. I maybe took a week. But it was a good use of a couple hours once a day. One thing I thought this show was kind of missing was the wit or humor that I kind of found and enjoyed from Downton Abbey. I kind of wish they had that. Beck Dengler I think that's the way this show could improve. There were some funny moments. Like when the chick passed out from her corset in front of the Queen, like some like the, you know, little stuff like that – if they leaned into kind of the goofiness of it all. Tanisha In every period show, you would have someone passing out because they're wearing a corset – It’s not even original humor. Daphne laughed at everything. I hated her so much. I was like, stop laughing. What is so funny? What is so funny, explain it to me. I don’t get it. It just wasn't my show, maybe. This is something that I forgot to say. I was really thrown off by them first doing colorblind casting for the show, and then introducing things like this really half-baked racial hierarchy – they did not need to include that. I was just trying to have a good time. And it was just unnecessary. That's also part of the whole white feminism of it all. As if one marriage, even if it's a royal marriage – as if that could end racism. I mean, Harry and Meghan got married, and the U.K. is still a shithole. And so is Canada. Wherever they go it all just sucks. So I don't know. I would rather they not have mentioned that at all. They didn't need to do that, it didn't add anything to the show. Isha Yeah, I appreciate the attempt at diversity, but it just felt so clumsy added in that it just gave me more questions and confusion, more than anything else. Beck Dengler Well, it's been fun talking about this. We had some differing opinions, but I think ultimately landed on it's a fun show in some ways, but seasons two through eight could be better. Elizabeth Hopefully, hopefully.

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Subtitled Ep 2: Normal People Dec 01, 2020

Episode Notes

Normal People: College Relationships, Mental Health, and the “Perfect” Man

V: Hi, this is Victoria Benefield.

L: And I’m Lami Zhang

V: Welcome to Subtitled, a podcast where two fake film students take a look at popular movies and TV shows. Seriously, Neither of us can get into any film classes, if anyone knows how please help us.

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L: This episode contains strong language, and discussions of mental health and familial abuse.

V: And the overwhelming hotness of a chain-wearing Irish man.

L: Today, we're talking about Normal People. An Irish show that follows Marianne and Connell through high school and college, as they weave in and out of each other's lives. The show focuses on relationships, mental health and masculinity.

V: Today we have a special guest Kevin Park, a second year vocal performance major, who's a big Normal People fan.

K: What up. I love this show a lot.

L: The show starts off with a pretty toxic relationship between Marianne and Connell.

V: They both have a lot of growing to do at the beginning, because it's high school and they're both dumb and Marianne had never been in a relationship before. And then they jumped into things pretty quickly. There was a lot of that, like first love, like it's super exciting, but then they also have no idea what they're doing at all.

L: Right. It's kind of a weird mixture of a physical relationship and like a really twisted, buried underneath emotional connection that neither of them kind of know how to go forward with.

K: But they get to explore feelings and thoughts that they've never had to experience before. They got to express how much they feel like through intimacy and through, you know, sex, which I think like brings up this larger topic of like how intimacy is dealt with within relationships. And also just in film and TV in general.

L: I read this article that said, that there was an accumulative 44 minutes of sex portrayed in the entire show. And I was like, this is interesting. They make the sex and intimacy seem really realistic, especially like your first time and your first love.

K: There's like one part that I remember. It was just like the first ever time I've ever seen, in like popular film or TV, consent just being shown, so normally, just a part of sex and a part of like having your first time. And I thought that was very powerful, cause that's something that has been a dialogue within our Northwestern community.

V: I think a lot of times in media, film and TV specifically, there's kind of this implied consent that’s shown where like the couple, just look each other in the eyes and they just both know that now's the moment, right? And then I feel like this show really breaks that standard.

L: Right? Like one of the major themes of the show is communication within a relationship.

K: It's like a mirror to us in terms of like, how we think that we are being communicative. Like Marianne asked, do you love me or something? and Connell’s, like, obviously, but she's like, who is it obvious to? You know, there's this level of miscommunication between the two of them that really mirrors to, like, are we being communicative to our partners and our relationships, whether, romantic or, you know, like a friendship or whatever.

L: The first time they broke up in college was pretty memorable, when Connell goes back to his hometown and he's afraid to ask Marianne to stay at her place. I was really confused as to why they broke up, cause clearly they're so in tune with each other physically and mentally, but their failure to communicate kind of just ruins their whole relationship.

K: We all know when we watched the show, like, just say it just like talk to them, just talk to them. Right. And like, we talked to our friends about relationships, whatever, it is, like, just talk to them. But none of us really, really want to do it. And I think it shows the consequence, as well. There's a sense of like realism to that.

L: Another key factor of the relationship is their differing socioeconomic statuses. In the first episode, we meet Marianne who lives in this giant house and Connell's mother works for her family. And throughout the show, there's always been this underlying differing, socioeconomic factor in their relationship. And I think that really shows up in their college years when they both got scholarships, but for Connell, that was kind of a matter of survival and being able to continue college while for Marianne, it's more for a pride thing.

V: You don't recognize what a big impact it can have on your relationship with someone, but it just means you have drastically different experiences from them and that your backgrounds are very different and you grew up with sort of a very different mindset. There's just the sort of instability that Connell faces that Marianne can't understand.

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L: I have a question for you two. When was the first time you realized that Cornell had anxiety?

v: For me, it was this scene where I think he was in high school still. And he runs into the bathroom, and you can tell he's having a panic attack.

K: I knew that he had troubles within himself, but I didn't really know what to classify it as. The first time that I really understood, he actually went to therapy.

L: Right. And it was his roommate who , encouraged him to go get help at college. And I think that was just a really frank portrayal of mental health in college.I haven't really seen that portrayed in any other TV show in high school or college that, Oh, you should go see a counselor.

v: Another aspect of it that they do really well in terms of mental health is showing how it is a constant and consistent struggle. It doesn't go away just when his relationship with Marianne is going well, or when he gets a scholarship, it's something that he's going to deal with. and they don't glorify it at all which is so important, especially after getting shows like, um--

L: 13 Reasons Why?

V: 13 Reasons Why, yes.

L: Oh, I think we can't blame Connell for having a lack of communication with Marianne, because his anxiety and his other mental health issues really play a big part into that. He was so anxious to ask her to stay at her house, which is such an insignificant thing to most other people. For Connell, like his anxiety amps it up so much that he feels like he's going to get rejected if he asks her to do such a simple thing for him.

K: Also in Marianne's perspective, also like scary for her to reach out. —this whole like, series, Marianne struggles with worth, does she feel worthy enough to like, be in a relationship with Connell?

L: there's a phrase she repeats throughout the whole series. "I have an unlovable quality about me," so she feels like she cannot engage in any sort of emotional relationship besides from the one she has with Connell and even in the one she has with Connell, she's always saying, I'll do it. If you want me to do it.

V: Yeah. I think her relationship with her family. I don't think I realized the extent of the abuse within the household in the first few episodes. At the end, it really crystallizes and I think they did a really good job showing how that abuse makes its way into your life in ways that you don't really understand.

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L: So, Connell is a pretty complex character and that's kind of unprecedented for a male character and that he shows both this type of physical masculinity and this emotional vulnerability.

K: It's something that a lot of other shows that I've watched tried, I think it's very hard to write because it's not very common either. Just in normal life, you know? I've been hearing a lot from my female friends who have watched the show: Wow, Connell was perfect. Connell’s perfect, which, I understand. But it’s also like, is this an ideal man in the 21st century or is this just like how men feel, actually feel, like in real life?

V: that's so interesting. I do think there has been a recent trend where vulnerability among men is definitely celebrated. And we see that in Connell, like he cries so many times throughout the show, Marianne rarely cries. I feel like we might get a couple moments where she cries, but you see Connell cry so much more often. And I feel like that's kind of a big thing.

K: Connell comes to a point where he understands his flaws and he’s very introspective about that. And I think that's just something that we perceive men to not talk about. But personally like living in a household now with like three other guys, it's been really eye opening in terms of having like male friends who actually like to open up and we talk about our past traumas —I realized that like, it might be feasible. It is feasible? I don’t know. It's just an ongoing conversation.

L: What you mentioned about Connell being this ideal male character, are we romanticizing this idea of mental health in men? Do men have to have a mental health problem to be emotional and communicative?

V: So interesting. I think the mental health aspect explains the crying and the emotionality of him and you can like justify it. And it makes sense. So outside of the context of his depression and his anxiety, would we be like, Ooh, he's crying so much. It's weird. Why is he crying? Would we still feel the same way about him?

K: I think it also might be like we perhaps romanticize people who have mental illness and we want to be there to listen to them or have this savior complex.

L: As simple as it may be, that Marianne would be Connell's savior and Connell will be Marianne savior. Connell goes to therapy to better his mental health. It's not something that Marianne alone can fix. Similar thing for Marianne's self-worth issue. She's the only one who can kind of realize that she's worth more than she thinks. Her friends and Connell can be there to support her, but ultimately it's her who has to realize that for herself.

V: Yeah. I think that's a great point. I think they grow the most as people when they're not in a romantic relationship, when they're just friends. Even though they're madly in love with each other, they need that space, and they need to be physically distant from each other in order to grow as people.

L: Right. I think the show really just brings to life that cliche of maybe you're the right person for each other, but it's not the right timing.

V: Yeah. That's true. Actually, I did think like the last scene that they were like, Oh, I love you. I'm never going to love anyone else as much as I love you. I was like, okay. Yeah, sure. I mean, they've had this connection, but really it's been over what, like six, seven years of their life. They have a lot longer to go. You know, I wonder if he goes to New York, meets someone, 15 years later, Marianne is just like a footnote, she’s just like a number that he can call sometimes. You know, I wonder if their relationship really is that meaningful in the grand scheme of their lives.

K: I think that there is some sort of connection that we see. They also acknowledge how different it is. And I guess we'll never know, but in terms of just like our own personal relationships, if we think back to people that really impacted us, I don't think I'll ever forget them.

V: I think there are some people who are really impactful in your life. I have this — I’m sure Lami has heard this rant before —about my theory about love.

L: Oh my god.

V: Because like they have this connection that they call love, but I think love is an action. And so I do think that they're very much infatuated with each other and that that infatuation has led to this action of loving each other. But I don’t think they will have that feeling of infatuation for that long, and I think that they will grow distant. I don't think that they will be in love for the rest of their lives. That's my opinion on it. Controversial, maybe?

L: I actually completely agree with you because I think TV shows in popular culture emphasizes and exaggerates ‘the right person for each other’ trope. And how like if you're with the right person it's supposed to all be easy, like, it's not. And I think Normal People kind of shows that, in that Oh, if they don't communicate, they won't have a relationship together. But I agree with you, people can have this type of connection with a bunch of other people. And it's just about how much effort you put in.

K: I think they are soulmates, but my definition of soulmate, as, in terms of just like, it could be anyone, it could be a friend, it could be a lot of people. But it's just this deep connection with someone that you walk your life with. And it doesn't have to be a relationship where you're holding hands forever, but it's just a person that you're continuously walking your life with.

V: I always say that I believe that anyone can fall in love with anyone. And by that, I mean like, is there something about them that like their personalities and their souls that makes them intricately connected and makes them soulmates? Or is it just because they grew up together?

L: That's interesting. I think if you go through certain situations and experiences in your life with someone, it kind of really sticks with you, whether they be like romantic partners or friends. I think we can talk about it in the context of Northwestern. Right.

K: I personally think a lot of what they said and did seemed very real. Like first time having sex,, I could relate to that, you know, or like, staying up with them on Skype, and just like watching the other person fall asleep, or them breaking up, but still being friends and having that connection. I feel like a lot of those things are just personally relatable to like my life. I feel like every person no matter, like what their personality is like, can find something in the show that they deeply resonate with.

L: For me, it was more about having anxiety and being in a relationship. I think I struggle with a lot of the same issues that Connell has with Marianne in terms of communication, I just think they did such a good job, how realistic their portrayals of panic attacks and depression and anxiety is, I don't know. That's just like, kind of blows my mind. And I think that also brings up the idea that you can be a nice person, but you can still be toxic to other people. Every person in my opinion has to actively work towards not being toxic in any sort of relationship.

K: Actively being good? Yes.

L: Let’s go.

V: We have to talk about the chain, right?

L: Oh my God.

K: Guys. I got a chain.

L: Oh my God. Kevin, you're basically a Connell now, emotional and has a chain. Damn!

K: After I bought it, I was like, did I buy this, like subconsciously in my head because I perceive Connell as a perfect man? And I thought, no, that can't be, but looking back, I most definitely did. Yeah.

V: Everyone needs to wear a chain. I can't reiterate this enough. Everyone needs to be wearing a chain constantly. Just purchase one, start wearing it.

L: Is that a chain Victoria? Oh my God.

V: I am wearing a chain, I just realized it!

L: I'm in the same room with two Connells!

V: Thank you for listening. This has been Subtitled. I’m Victoria Benefield

L: And I'm Lami Zhang.

K: And I was special guest, Kevin Park.

V: Tune in next time for more fake film analysis. Thanks for listening!

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Subtitled Ep 1: Cuties Review Nov 08, 2020

Episode Notes

LAMI: Hey, this is Lami Zhang

VICTORIA: This is Victoria Benefield.

LAMI: Welcome to Subtitled, a podcast where two fake film students take a look at popular movies and TV shows. Seriously, neither of us can get into any film classes. So if anyone knows how, please help us.

LAMI: This episode contains strong language and discussion of the sexualization of children and sexual assault.

VICTORIA: And also spoilers.

VICTORIA: Today, we’re talking about Cuties, a French film released in September directed by Maiimouna Doucouré. If you somehow haven’t heard anything about this movie, I’ll sum it up for you: an 11-year-old Senegalese girl, Amy, who has just immigrated to Paris with her family, meets a group of young girls who are preparing to enter a dance competition. The film follows her friendship with the girls, their journey to the competition, and Amy’s internal conflict between her traditional Muslim roots and the liberal culture represented by her friends and social media. Sounds innocent enough, right?

LAMI: Wrong. Backlash around the movie started in August, after U.S. Netflix released promotional material showing the young cast in suggestive dance poses and costumes. Critics deemed the movie “child pornography,” saying it sexualizes the 11-year-old main character and her friends. The hashtag #CancelNetflix started trending on Twitter. Disapproval came from both sides of the political spectrum, including Rep. Brian Babin, Senator Ted Cruz, and Rep. Tulsi Gabbard. a grand jury in Texas brought criminal felony charges against Netflix, indicting the streaming giant for “promotion of lewd visual material depicting a child.”

VICTORIA: So, Lami, what did you think about this movie?

LAMI: I heard about the controversy surrounding this film before I actually saw the movie on Netflix. To be honest, I was a little skeptical about the backlash, mostly because I don't trust a single word that comes out of Ted Cruz's mouth. But after I watched the movie, I honestly really liked it. It covers a lot of issues pertaining to growing up as a girl and learning how to be a woman in this modern age.

VICTORIA: I've had friends who quite literally cancelled Netflix. And so I went into it thinking it was going to be pretty bad. And then I watched it, and I understand the concerns, but I think it was exaggerated. I thought that the film raised a lot of really important themes that you don't really hear or see portrayed in film or any other form of media very often.

VICTORIA: One of the really important themes that Cuties raises is the sort of dichotomy between the two different cultures that Amy is a part of, which is her African Muslim background, and the Western culture that she finds herself in when she immigrates to Paris. Some of the ways that the director talks about this is, it's most definitely through the lens of womanhood, and how womanhood is defined in both of those cultures.

LAMI: She's trying to figure out what it means to be a woman, meaning what responsibilities come with that and how she's supposed to get in touch with her sexuality. What does her sexuality mean? And her female family members don't really go into much detail about that. For me, there was a really poignant part of the movie, where she gets her period. For like every young girl, the first time you get your period is pretty memorable, right? I distinctly remember mine. Her mother later that night just said to her, you're a woman now. As validating as that may be to young Amy, I feel like there needs to be more discussion.

VICTORIA: And I think it's just sort of indicative of the way that Amy's family really wasn't there for her as she's growing up and as she's discovering more about herself, and her sexuality and her womanhood, and she's also making this huge transition from living in Africa, and then moving to Paris. Like, she's going through all of these things, including getting her period. And her family is just not there to listen to her.

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LAMI: So let’s talk about one of the more controversial parts of the movie, the laser tag scene.

VICTORIA: The cuties girls sneak into a laser tag place and they get caught by two security guards who wouldn’t let them leave without paying. The girls protest, and one of the security guards grabs Angelica by the arm, and she was like, “If you don’t let us go, we’ll tell everyone that you sexually assaulted us.” And I think that was really interesting, because it shows that Angelica knows that she is an easy victim in society, and that she can use that status to her advantage. I also think it's kind of sad, that she's so aware of that, and that she knows that that is believable.

LAMI: Right, and that was a really jarring moment. Her accusation didn’t end up working, so [Amy] started dancing, in a pretty provocative way. She was twerking in front of the security guards and we could clearly see this disturbing ass expression on the security guard’s face and he was very intently staring at her body.

VICTORIA: And I think that was intentional, because I think the director really wanted to emphasize how wrong this was. And this is an aspect of our society that we need to be aware of, and that we need to critique and that we need to work on.

LAMI: That reminds me of that other scene where they're being filmed for a music video on that bridge, and they were dancing. it's clearly filmed from the male gaze, because it's focusing on their crotch areas. And I just find that to be an interesting choice on the director's part. Because, on one hand, she's clearly saying, we should not sexualize children. Look at this fucking security guard. And on the other hand, she's showing the scene that's kind of sexualizing them in a way.

VICTORIA: One of my friends who actually cancelled Netflix over this pointed this out and that like you don't make a stand against killing puppies by killing puppies, which was her way of saying that the director shouldn't have been making a stand against exploiting children by exploiting children. And I think in that scene specifically, she was really exploiting these young child actors without showing how wrong it was. I think at this point, we should mention while the director is female, the cinematographer was a male. And I think that it's really interesting to watch the movie from that perspective. And I just think that's kind of strange. And maybe a poor choice, on her part.

LAMI: It definitely gives the camera a sort of voyeuristic perspective. I think another moment in the film that’s pretty hard to watch is when Amy takes a picture of her vagina and posts it on social media. The next day, all her friends were extremely angry with her for doing that.

VICTORIA: One of the boys in her class, and, as she walks by him, he smacked her on the ass. And she was like, What the fuck, dude? She didn't say that. But it was essentially that. This man considered her posting her nudes as permission for him to not just sexualize her but sexually assault her basically.

LAMI: Right. He feels like just because she holds ownership of her own body by posting a nude, he somehow gets the permission and access.

VICTORIA: To me, that was really just like an encapsulation of what this film is about. Any time a girl, a young girl, is putting herself out there sexually on social media, men, even young boys, are taking advantage of that, sexualizing them, using their method of expressing themselves as a way and as a reason to sexualize them inappropriately.

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VICTORIA: So like we mentioned earlier, in Texas, Netflix is being indicted for “promotion of lewd visual material depicting a child.”

LAMI: In order to qualify the film as child pornography, they'll have to make a case that there's no artistic, literary, or any, like, educational value in the film itself, which I think will be a hard case to make, because obviously, the director is very passionate about her cause. And she's trying to show that oversexualization of young girls is wrong.

MAIIMOUNA DOUCOURÉ: I put my heart into this film, because this is my story. I believe that cinema, and art in general, can change the world. We are able to see oppression of women in other cultures. But my question is, isn’t the objectification of a woman’s body that we often see in our Western culture, not another kind of oppression?

LAMI: As we can clearly tell from this interview, she has all the right intentions for making this film. It's her story. It's her culture that she's depicting. And she also did research on girls of that age, and how they're kind of coming into their own bodies and coming into teenagehood.

VICTORIA: Yeah, so I think a lot of the backlash surrounding the age, and the provocativeness of the film is coming from people who have not actually watched the movie, which is very important when you're going to judge content. They're just making assumptions, based off of what they've heard from others, and also…

LAMI: Promotional material.

VICTORIA: Yes, Netflix, what were you thinking?

LAMI: So the advertising for the film is different here in the US versus in France, where it first premiered. So in the American advertising, there were provocative images of the girls dancing in crop tops, and very, very short shorts.

VICTORIA: Yeah, and then the advertising in France and other countries just showed them holding shopping bags and running in the street.

LAMI: Also, marketing is so important. It's your first impression of a film. And if your first impression of a film is, oh, my god, these young girls are being sexualized, you're going to look at the film in a completely new light, as opposed to, oh, these young girls are trying to discover their sexuality.

VICTORIA: At the same time, I think we both generally agree that the casting of actual underage girls to be in these very provocative scenes shot in a very provocative way is a problem. Regardless of whether they agreed to this, I mean, the director was like, we tried to make this as safe as possible. There was, like, a counselor on set. The thing is, they’re 11. Like, at the age of 11, I wasn't capable of making the decision about whether I would be in a film where I would be dancing, where I would be shown taking nude photos.

LAMI: And even if they were able to comprehend kind of the gravity of the role they're

taking, they don't necessarily know what's going to happen in the future, like with all this backlash, like, I doubt any of them anticipated this.

VICTORIA: This film would not even be close to as problematic if the actresses were over 18. But also, another question we have is like: how much of this critique is actually about the casting versus about the expression of young girls’ sexuality? Like, are all these Republican politicians really that concerned about the five girls in the film? Or are they more bothered by the mere idea of girls being sexual entities at all?

LAMI: There really haven't been a lot of films, where shows girls at that young of an age trying to discover their sexuality, like I can’t even think of any off the top of my head, I guess, like, coming of age movies, but they’re usually in high school, they're like, 17, 18, going into college, and they're trying to finally discovering their sexuality, which I feel like is unfair, because with social media and what Amy and her friends are going through, when you're seeing portrayals of female sexuality and oversexualization of the female body at such a young age, you just unintentionally start to think about your sexuality and your own body from that age.

VICTORIA: Yeah, I guess the question is it bad that girls are becoming more sexually aware younger because of social media?

LAMI: Well, let's look at it from the other perspective. If you have a young boy discovering his sexuality, at the age of like, 11 to 13, we think of it as normal. There's so many depictions of that in coming of age film.

VICTORIA: One that comes to mind is mid90s, which is on Amazon Prime. And in it, the main character, who is 13, is shown in his boxers with a girl who is also only in her underwear. Later, he describes their sexual encounter to his friends in, I’ll just call it explicit detail. And then further, at the time of filming, the lead actor was only 11, and the woman in the sex scene with him was 22. So where was the backlash when this came out? Why didn’t anyone cancel their Prime subscription? I think the director had every good intention in the world. But I think the problem is that, yes, while you can make a piece of art with all of these good intentions, you don't know how the result is going to be perceived by the world, and you don't know what the actual impact of your film is going to be. And I think the problem that a lot of people have with it is whether people are going to use this as, like, pedophilic material. I think she ends up unintentionally exploiting these young actresses.

LAMI: If you make a film depicting a clearly very controversial and very hard topic to depict, directors and writers shouldn't have to take into account the feelings of pedophiles and rapists. Like do we not include a rape scene, just because a rapist might find it sexually rewarding?

VICTORIA: I guess the problem is like when you're doing a rape scene, the person isn't getting raped. Right? It's consensual.

LAMI: But she's unintentionally sexualizing, portraying these child actors in a sexual light.

VICTORIA: Yeah.

LAMI: Which is something they didn't ask for.

VICTORIA: Yeah. I wonder, though, if the backlash to this film will scare people away from this topic. Like if the thought now of talking about young girls and their sexuality will become taboo.

LAMI: But also I feel like future directors can take away a lot from this controversy and this discussion. Whether it's casting older actresses to portray a younger role, or just like framing the story in a different way. So I think it really brings up questions on how you tell these stories, because obviously these stories are very important to tell, especially surrounding issues like pedophilia, which is kind of clouded in a way. So how do you tell these stories in a way that doesn't exploit or sensationalize the issues?

VICTORIA: I think that is kind of the main point to take away from not only this film, but this whole controversy. She has a good story to tell, this is an important message to talk about.

LAMI: In a way it's her story.

VICTORIA: And it’s also every little girl’s story in this society about the way that social media shapes who you are as a person, the way your culture shapes your concept of womanhood. But it's so marred by the controversy.

LAMI: Also I think, it's hard to pinpoint what the actual impact of the film is right now, because there are so many films throughout history that were thought of as very controversial, temporarily. And then in like, a couple of years, people were like, Oh, my God, this sends such a strong message. And I think that might be the case for this film.

LAMI: This episode was produced by me, Lami Zhang, and Victoria Benefield, for NBN Audio. Thanks for listening!

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State of the Arts Episode 3 Feb 05, 2020

Episode Notes

[“Coffee” Theme by Cambo]

Gabriel Firmo: Alright, so welcome back to State of the Arts, a podcast by two idiots on NBN. My name is Gabriel Firmo.

Lucas Bezerra: And I'm Lucas Bezerra. And Happy 2020!

Gabriel: Yeah, welcome back. It was surprisingly quick, the break.

Lucas: It was extremely quick. Well, the break was quick, but traveling back was not. I think you took a direct flight from Brazil.

Gabriel: Yes, it is the worst.

Lucas: I did not. It's not the worst for you. I mean, jumping around on airplanes wasn't fun. But we're back. We're here recording our third episode of State of the Arts.

Gabriel: Yeah. And so what is the...? We have a pretty traditional question to start the year?

Lucas: Yeah I mean, I figured we'd just do a little recap of 2019 and our favorite arts-related thing that we did. It could be like, one in Northwestern, one out of Northwestern.

Gabriel: That we did or that we consumed?

Lucas: That we did, that we consumed, I guess is a better way to put it. That we saw, experienced.

Gabriel: Okay, okay, that makes more sense. Yeah. Do you have one like right off the bat?

Lucas: I've got one for my Northwestern.

Gabriel: Okay, go for it!

Lucas: It isn't really at Northwestern. But yeah, it was during my time here; as soon as I got here, basically. So the MCA last year had a Virgil Abloh Expo. And that Expo was really cool. It really showed like his sort of vision of what design and what art is, and he's got a lot of--

Gabriel: That was out here at Northwestern?

Lucas: No, that was in the MCA, like in Chicago.

Gabriel: Oh, okay. Okay, okay. Okay. Yeah,

Lucas: But it was while I was here, I guess this could be my not Northwestern.

Gabriel: I mean, I guess that kind of counts for it? There's no hard and fast rule.

Lucas: No, but I kind of want to showcase something from Northwestern.

Gabriel: Okay, sure.

Lucas: So let's leave that as my not Northwestern-related.

Gabriel: Yeah. This year I went to--so Giovana, my girlfriend, she surprised me with tickets to Next to Normal, which is my favorite musical of all time.

Lucas: Just to be clear, not Next to Normal at Northwestern.

Gabriel: No, no--That was also amazing.

Lucas: That was really good.

Gabriel: But there was one that was playing in a nearby town. And I was surprised with tickets and we went, and it was like it brought me to tears on like two different, three different occasions. Just like throughout the runthrough. And that was just like crazy. I had never seen any of my favorite musicals live before and Next to Normal, it's just like so near and dear to me. So it was crazy good. Definitely highlight of my 2019. Next to Normal at Northwestern, also very good,

Lucas: Also very good, yeah.

Gabriel: But it would be kind of terrible if both of my highlights Northwestern and non-Northwestern were both Next to Normal.

Lucas: Yeah. Next to Normal was the first thing that I did here, arts-related. Well, that I went to. But I have to say maybe my highlight was going to--So our guest on the second episode, Joe, his band, another Northwestern-based band and a third Chicagoland group had a performance. They had a gig, North Side of Chicago. It was a little bit after we interviewed Joe. So, he told me about it, and I went, and both his band was great, but also the other Northwestern band. So I'm just gonna, I'm gonna shout them out again. So Joe's band is called Morning Dew and the other band is called Honey Butter. And they're both really good.

Gabriel: Damn, I really need to go to one of these.

Lucas: You really do.

Gabriel: I did not manage to go last quarter.

Lucas: It was a lot of fun. And it was full of Northwestern students and just good energy, you know?

Gabriel: Yeah, I mean, that sounds--I'm not a big concert person so I always get a little bit "eh," but for music on like the smaller scale where it's not the enormous super packed concerts I feel like it'd be more fun just in general. For my Northwestern thing, I think Dolphin Show 2019 was Hello Dolly. And I remember Hello Dolly being so extraordinary--and like both of mine are musical theatre.

Gabriel: Man, Hello Dolly was so good it made me want to write stuff again and sing again. I hadn't written in a good while, and I hadn't performed any music for a very long time because I had stopped taking classes when I came here. And I remember I came out of Hello Dolly and I turned to one of my friends and was like we need to start some project together because I am so inspired.

Lucas: Yeah.

Gabriel: Because, for a student musical that thing was--not even for student musical just completely even out of its context it would be one of the best shows I've ever seen. It was so, so, so, so good.

Gabriel: So actually our guest for this week, because we have a guest every week is Elynnor Sandefer. She is someone I'm super excited to interview. She's an old friend of mine at the school, but also just kind of someone that I met tangentially through my creative writing classes. She was one of the most unique writers there. Like, there are a lot of very good writers at Northwestern, and for sure, Elynnor is one of them. But specifically, like her style and her choice of topics was always one thing that was just so out of left field that makes her a very, very unique writer, and she was actually one of the first people I suggested when we start with the show.

Lucas: Yeah, so I'm excited. I met her today, didn't really get a chance to talk to her that much. I’m excited for this.

Gabriel: Yeah. Let’s go to that now!

Gabriel: Ok so, we are here now with our guest, Elynnor.

Elynnor Sandefer: Hello!

Gabriel: Would you like to kinda introduce yourself, say what you do that’s artsy...

Lucas: Why do you think we asked you here, I guess?

Elynnor: I'm Elynnor, I put words together and make them do things. Optimistically, good things. I'm here because Gabriel has had some writing classes with me and thinks that my work is weird.

Gabriel: Yeah. I think it's good, also. Like, disclaimer.

Elynnor: That can be the same thing.

Gabriel: But very weird.

Elynnor: Yeah. Thank you.

Gabriel: Like, that is...I mean, we'll get into that in a bit. I think like the standard first question that we ask everyone here, which is that like, necessarily, if you're doing art on a university campus, like you're pre-validation, essentially, like you're not getting any external validation most of the time. Especially for writers more than any other profession. So, with that in mind, why do you do it? Like when no one is in your corner, why do you still do it?

Elynnor: Well, the work that I do is mostly writing. And for me, a lot of that starts with journaling. So I do it for my own brain before anybody else's brain. And in that sense, validation has never been that significant. Okay, that sounds wrong. It sounds like I don't take criticism. But everything I make is usually first for myself, which I find works for me. When I write things it is because I'm driven there by some kind of personal urgency. So to that extent, I don't really care if other people want to read it. I also haven't started trying to publish yet so that may change, will change, definitely will change.

Gabriel: Okay. Yeah.

Lucas: Yeah. I mean it from what I've heard about you and what you write... When I met you today, I mean, you asked me about my opinion on melons?

Elynnor: I sure did.

Lucas: And I've heard that you wrote an essay on whether boba is a soup.

Elynnor: I sure did.

Lucas: So you've got a wide range of topics, although they do seem to revolve around food somehow.

Elynnor: Yeah, that's been pointed out to me. I don't know what to make of that. I don't eat that much.

Lucas: So I guess like, where does the inspiration for this kind of stuff come from? Like, what are you trying...Where does it, how does it work in your brain? I guess.

Elynnor: Um, well, I have a tendency to hyper fixate on things, often objects. So the cereal being soup is something I fixated on for a while last year. Melons are something I just find personally interesting right now because people don't seem to think that they have strong opinions. But if you ask them for an opinion, they almost always have one. Except for when they don't know what a melon is...like some people.

Gabriel: Is that a call-out? I think that’s a call-out. ’Cause she asked me what a cantaloupe was, and I was just like, I blanked on it. I only know fruit names in Portuguese.

Lucas: Not gonna lie, same. I mean, she asked me specifically about cantaloupes and I... No images came to mind. So...

Gabriel: But like, I have read a little bit of your stuff, and so this is a really interesting thing is that you talk about these hyper fixations, which are some kind of like oddball ideas, but you do take them somewhere, right? You're not just writing about melons or just writing about, "Is boba a soup or is cereal a soup?" You do something in the nature of all nonfiction, which is something more profound out of like kind of surrealist or just kind of out of nowhere topics. So, what is exactly that process like? Because at least from my perspective, I also do a fair bit of writing and a lot of your topics I can't even really imagine inroads into that range, you know?

Elynnor: Well, for cantaloupe, it was that my roommate was cutting a cantaloupe, and I realized I had forgotten about fruit, and I just hadn't eaten fruit in a long time. I started getting worried about scurvy because like citrus or something. But I don't know, I was watching her cut a cantaloupe. And it occurred to me that it just, I don't know, it would never occur to me to buy a cantaloupe. And I thought that was really interesting, because they've been a part of my life for a long time. They have them in dining halls, they're terrible in the dining halls and just generally average. So I use them in an essay I was already writing at the time as just like a joke about the realm of averageness. But yeah, I don't really know what the cantaloupes mean, except for maybe the fact that there are objects that are in everyone's life that no one really notices, but we care about...

Elynnor: What do you think literature is?

Gabriel: Oh God, you can’t drop that on me. This actually came up in one of my classes recently with a teacher who asked I think that exact question. And they disregarded genre fiction out of hand. So horror, sci-fi...

Elynnor: That's not literature?

Gabriel: That sort of stuff.

Elynnor: That's a...yikes. That's a hot take.

Gabriel: I think they were doing it like as a sort of, like, “Oh, it's the beginning of class and I'm going to do this to spur discussion.” Because it doesn't seem like that's their opinion, necessarily. But I was immediately as a genre fiction fan, like, "Ahh." Because fantasy is generally considered not literature.

Elynnor: Okay, but I've read amazing works of literature that are fantasy in nature, and I'm angry at this person whose name I don't know.

Gabriel: But so you are just like, "Anything is literature".

Elynnor: Well, I think that art more broadly speaking is anything whose existence is conditional upon a very particular arrangement of human choice. And I think that, within that it's very difficult to differentiate between different kinds of art. Like if you've read the poem “38” by Layli Long Soldier, this is not in that book I mentioned earlier, but it's a great poem that you should read. And in it, she is referring to a specific action/event as a poem, and that is like one of her main claims. And I think that there's a lot of power in that and saying that, well, I guess in naming what you're making or naming something, something other than it is.

Gabriel: Yeah, I guess it becomes just, if it's intentional, it's art that sort of almost, that level of simplification. Which I would get, like, crucified by some of my philosophy teachers for that, but I think that is a pretty good...I mean, you're the philosophy major.

Lucas: I mean, it's almost in the like, I think of the “this is not a pipe” painting.

Elynnor: Ah yes, The Fault in Our Stars.

Lucas: I'm not sure... Yeah, I mean, it's just this sort of idea that the objects and the things that we conceive of as being what they are...

Gabriel: Are totally a construction?

Lucas: Yeah.

Gabriel: So you can just say anything is anything.

Lucas: I wouldn't go... I wouldn't say that.

Lucas: But that's an idea. I guess.

Elynnor: Sometimes it's fun to.

Lucas: Sometimes it’s fun to.

Gabriel: I mean, in that case, then I'll just say boba is soup.

Elynnor: It obviously is!

Lucas: I mean, she walked in here and called this podcast art.

Gabriel: Yeah. That was, that was quite surprising.

Elynnor: To be fair, I have not listened to it. No offense, I'm sure it's great. I just didn’t know about it.

Lucas: Yeah, I think we're running out of time. We always end our episodes by asking our guests to plug something on campus that they are excited for related to the arts. Could be anything, I guess. So tell us what you're thinking.

Elynnor: Well, I'm not involved with any publications or performance groups or anything like that, but my roommate and best friend is on the staff of Helicon, which is a literary and arts magazine. And you should submit to that because they want you to submit to that.

Gabriel: I've read a good deal of Helicon, occasionally. I always forget about Helicon. And then I just, their book comes out, and I'll just see it around and be like "Oh!" I'll flip through it. It's really cool, what people do.

Lucas: I've never heard of it.

Gabriel: You should! There's very avant garde stuff in Helicon which is fun.

Elynnor: If you're a visual artist, especially, you should submit to Helicon because I think visual artists forget about it. Because I think it's mainly marketed to writers.

Lucas: Interesting.

Elynnor: Yeah.

Lucas: I like that.

Gabriel: Yeah. Well...

Elynnor: They publish anything. There's like a digital game thing on their website.

Gabriel: Yeah. And their physical copies should be coming around soon, because it's winter, right?

Elynnor: Yeah.

Gabriel: Yeah. So it'll be up soon. That's really cool. Thank you for coming by. Thanks for talking to us.

Elynnor: You're welcome. I hate talking to you.

Gabriel: For listeners, thanks for listening and hopefully join us in two weeks. If we can manage to edit this in our regular time frame, and we'll be back with another guest and another question as per usual, so anything left to say Lucas?

Lucas: No, thanks for listening. We'll see you in two weeks. All right.

Elynnor: Google images of hairless cats!

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State of The Arts #2 Nov 28, 2019

For this episode, we're talking to Joe Nedder. He's a sophomore here. He's a dual degree student in Bienen and Weinberg, and he does a lot of music.

State of The Arts #1 Nov 19, 2019

Episode Notes

Gabriel Firmo 0:08
Oh, welcome to the state of the arts podcast by two idiots on NBN. My name is Gabriel Firmo. And I'm Lucas Bezerra. And this podcast is kind of hard to describe. We are both-

Lucas Bezerra 0:19
Pitch it like you pitched it to me.

Gabriel Firmo 0:20
Yeah, we're both artsy people on NU campus. Yep. Self, self determined artsy people-To be verified.

Lucas Bezerra 0:27
Our authority on this is nil,

Gabriel Firmo 0:28
Yeah. And I pitched it to Lucas just being like talking essentially, to the artsy people we find interesting on campus and also just talking about being an amateur at this level and college artists and you're right about to be at the level where you are doing something super serious, but you're also not quite there yet. Most of the time.

Lucas Bezerra 0:47
A little bit of a round table just discussion about arts, you know?

Gabriel Firmo 0:51
Yeah. And by no means do we pretend to be experts, right? We're not, but we are enthusiasts, I'd say. So like, We're not trying to talk about like, "Oh, this is how you do it." "That's how you make it." "This is what's important." "This is what isn't," that sort of those kind of tired questions. We mostly just want to have fun talking to interesting and exciting people about interesting and exciting stuff. So that's, that's the goal, right?

Lucas Bezerra 1:14
Yeah. For this first episode. We'd usually be starting with a question about creativity, about the arts in general. But we're going to just tell you a little bit about ourselves started with that. You want to start? Sure. So I'm Lucas, I'm a freshman here at NU. I'm a philosophy major, which I guess I could say, puts me on about the same job prospects as if I were not in college and doing something artsy like selling paintings on the beach. I did theater most of my life. I love music. I do music too. And really, I definitely stick to what most people would call like an amateur artist, even on campus like I'm not in Bienen. I'm not in the theater program. I'm just I just do things because I think they're fun.

Gabriel Firmo 1:58
Yeah. I mean, That's-

Lucas Bezerra 2:01
That's what we're here for.

Gabriel Firmo 2:02
At this point. No one's doing it for the money. So yeah, you're doing it because it's fun. Or to put it on a resume.

Lucas Bezerra 2:07
Yes. How about you?

Gabriel Firmo 2:10
So I am Gabriel. I am a Computer Science, English, Korean, some sort of major and minor combination of those three things. So like in terms of art, it's like complicated. I have my finger-fingers in a lot of pots, right? Like I am interested in game design. And I am a writer, like I write a bunch of short stories, not just for class, but I've been trying to send them into like publications and that stuff. I do amateur voice acting on the side, I do this podcast now. Like, I try to do a whole lot of everything. And I'm not amazing at any particular one. But like, this is one of the reasons we were excited about the show where it's like, we're going to be talking hopefully to, you know, theatre kids. Yeah, like amazing theatre kids, on campus, amazing dancers, amazing singers. Amazing-you know, we're trying to capture the whole gamut of Like the arts experience at Northwestern like being a bit like being a jack of all trades myself, I'm super excited. Yeah,

Lucas Bezerra 3:04
I'm stoked for this. I think our first guest is going to be great. I mean, yeah, I'm excited for her because she comes from my area, you know, theater. Yeah. And I just want to talk to her about that. So do you want to tell them who she is?

Gabriel Firmo 3:17
We're going to be talking to Duda Ramos who is a, another Brazilian on campus. We are both Brazilians. She's an Econ and CS major but she's kind of like been in theatre for like a lot of her life. She's done semi professional to like full professional theatre and is now

Lucas Bezerra 3:32
In Brazil?

Gabriel Firmo 3:32
Yeah, in Brazil, and is now you know, at Northwestern producing for Waa Mu. So like, she's kind of been all over in terms of like the theater spectrum there and back again, kind of like The Hobbit. So she's, she's fascinating. And so she's our first guest. So actually, we'll just turn that interview now. Let's go for it. Yeah.

Lucas Bezerra 3:57
Alright, so this is our first guest Duda Ramos.

Duda Ramos 3:59
Hello.

Lucas Bezerra 4:00
We're going to talk to her a little bit about theater and the other theatrical performance stuff that she does.

Gabriel Firmo 4:05
Yeah. And before we just get into like our proper first question, would you like to introduce yourself like tell us what fun artsy sh*t are you doing?

Duda Ramos 4:12
Okay, so my name is Duda Ramos also known as Maria Ramos around campus. I'm econ and CS but I am involved right now in Waa Mu in assistant production management along with Lucas here, right side and yeah, that's like the first thing I actually let myself do that's artistic, just Waa Mu.

Gabriel Firmo 4:30
And, you would say like in terms of it's not just like theatre and acting that you do. You are-you sing, like what are areas just in general, not just on Northwestern like what do you do?

Duda Ramos 4:39
I guess like all performers, like musical theatre performance would have to be like really good at singing, dancing and acting. Dancing is definitely my weak spot. Like I'm not much of a dancer, but I did do a lot of acting like I did theatre school at A Escola de Atores Wolf Maya which is like school of actors Wolf Maya in Brazil and some other theater courses. Also for singing I did a lot of musical theatre and opera singing

Lucas Bezerra 5:04
Awesome, so we know you, we know that you--in Brazil--you were in professional productions. So I guess we wanted to start off with, tell us a little bit about what it's like to leave that sort of professional world of the arts and go back into the amateur world.

Duda Ramos 5:18
Yeah, so I got into theatre, I guess it's like been basically a lot of my life because I got into it when I was 16. I had my first professional job. I was called for a theatre production called 33 Variations. A year after that, I got called for the Brazilian version of Promises, Promises, and then I was touring Rio and São Paulo and that was like right before coming here.

Gabriel Firmo 5:37
Oh, that was right before coming here?

Duda Ramos 5:39
Yeah, it was from January to March.

Gabriel Firmo 5:42
And what actually did you start? How young were you when you started like doing theatre stuff?

Duda Ramos 5:46
When I really wanted to start this, I was like, 13, 14 it was the first time I like saw Phantom of the Opera in London, and I fell in love. So I just, like, started doing a lot of singing classes and trying to do dancing glasses, but basically focused on singing and then... Yeah, and then I got into that acting school. So, it was just like my whole life for a long time was just focused around wanting to be on Broadway and wanting to be a musical theatre person. And then all of a sudden, then I just came here and started doing economics. So life changes, like talk me

Lucas Bezerra 6:15
Talk me through, like, grappling with that sort of--going where you think your life has to go and where you want to go.

Duda Ramos 6:22
It's kind of funny, it's because like, in my college essays coming to Northwestern, I was always writing like, Oh, I'm really excited to find a balance between econ and theater. Because even like, performing and doing things I kind of miss a little bit of, like, the studying part and just like doing math equations and stuff like that, it seems very, very weird but-

Gabriel Firmo 6:43
I have never once been like, writing something and gone "Man, I wish this was a math equation. Like, if this was an integral my life would be better," like that is not--

Duda Ramos 6:54
It's the general feeling of like, at the same time you kind of--I don't know, I feel very weird about it. It's just, I've always been like doing both things and I know that one day that won't work out. Like I can't--I can't do both for the rest of my life. It's almost be like a child's dream being like, "Oh, I'm gonna be an economist and musical performer." No, that's not gonna happen.

Gabriel Firmo 7:14
Yeah, kind of a rough, rough mix.

Duda Ramos 7:16
No, I mean, you can. If you do then it's usually more stuff like you get into the production part which is a little bit of both.

Gabriel Firmo 7:22
Yeah, it does. It reminds me a little bit of a--she was an actress on... I haven't even watched The Big Bang Theory, but I know of her story, because she's like, She's was a neurobiologist first or something like that. She had like a PhD. And it was like you very rarely hear--because it's such an all-in career. You rarely ever hear of someone being like, "Yeah, I mean, you know, I act most of the time. But on the side, I studied neurobiology," you're like, wait, sorry, what?

Duda Ramos 7:45
it's actually like a quote and--

Gabriel Firmo 7:47
You want to swing that with Econ. Sorry, I interrupted you.

Lucas Bezerra 7:50
And is in our DNA, you know.

Duda Ramos 7:54
Um, there's a quote by a really famous Brazilian actress called Fernanda Montenegro, which she says that it's kind of funny because, I guess you hear a lot of actors becoming economists and lawyers and having degrees like that, but they always come back. It's almost, I feel like that emptiness where it's like you're missing something, you're missing a part of it, and you kind of end up where you were before.

Gabriel Firmo 8:16
So you think it's kind of like a predestination like you can try to escape it, but--

Duda Ramos 8:20
I think so. I'm still going to try to figure that out. Because like, I really like Econ, and I'm really--I was actually nervous getting to here it was like, "Oh, am I gonna like it? Am I going to always feel like I should be acting, but actually, I'm just doing this." But I actually am liking econ and my classes. So it's gonna be--it's very complicated right now what I'm feeling but--

Gabriel Firmo 8:38
I mean, the way you described it, it's a little sinister. Like, you can try to get away but--

Lucas Bezerra 8:43
The theatre is gonna pull you back. I mean, it's true. It's very much true. I, I came in here, I guess, with very much the same thought that you did, which is I'm going to keep doing balancing theater and philosophy or whatever else I decide to do with my life. But I just feel it, you know, tugging it's kind of this, this very weird feeling.

Gabriel Firmo 9:02
It's very eldritch horror.

Lucas Bezerra 9:04
Yeah, yeah. Now, now we're working together in Waa Mu. And I just know that like when it comes to winter quarter and we have a cast, and then we start rehearsals in Spring. I'm like, man, I really miss doing that. You know?

Duda Ramos 9:14
Exactly. I feel it's almost like a first love kind of thing. Yeah, like it's your first crush, your first love and then it's your first heartbreak. And then I don't know, you kind of never forget it. So it's really really hard to get over.

Lucas Bezerra 9:25
I think the way it kind of snowballs is that you start doing one thing and you start with, like, production management.

Duda Ramos 9:30
Yeah.

Lucas Bezerra 9:30
And then you start seeing rehearsal and you're like, Oh my god, I really miss doing that. And then you do it again. And then you just keep going. And then somehow you find yourself doing it entirely, you know?

Gabriel Firmo 9:38
Just acting again? Like you're relapsing?

Lucas Bezerra 9:41
Yeah.

Duda Ramos 9:42
I feel like everything sums up to like, almost everything is the same, but you need to find stuff that you're passionate about. And then it just depends on like, what you fall in love with at the time? Maybe that's just like, romanticizing my life decisions, but, y'know.

Gabriel Firmo 9:56
You gotta justify them somehow.

Lucas Bezerra 9:58
Okay, let me bring you down to earth a little bit. Econ here at Northwestern sort of the stereotype is like, Oh, you go into consulting. Yeah, you know. And I think if we look at that career and acting, those are probably like the two-- among the two most cutthroat businesses that you can get into.

Duda Ramos 10:15
That's true.

Lucas Bezerra 10:16
So talk to me about that.

Duda Ramos 10:17
Actually, I did work with consulting, like this summer. And I found that it's like, honestly, it's one of the best ways you can come together with the stuff you like, and also the econ world because, in consulting you can like you go into so many different cases about so many different things that you can grab onto experiences you had before and bring it to somewhere else.

Gabriel Firmo 10:39
Yeah, you can just be all over the place.

Duda Ramos 10:41
Which is like--which works for me because I think that the "and is in our DNA "thing is kind of funny, but yeah, but I mean, it's true. Like I really like how here I can have the liberty of having both sides of me and not feeling weird about it. Like I have to choose one. Eventually I kind of will, but I feel happy right now being able to express them both.

Lucas Bezerra 11:04
Tell us about auditions. I mean, I've never been in an audition. I don't know if you've been in audition.

Gabriel Firmo 11:08
I only do voice auditions like I'm not I'm not there with the person. The great thing about voice acting and wanting to do voice acting is for... especially for amateur projects I just send them a link and they go "Cool, we like it" or you never get a response. But you don't get you don't get nos. You just get complete radio silence.

Duda Ramos 11:25
Oh yeah, that's auditions. But I've auditioned for a lot of productions and I've gotten callbacks before but I've actually never landed a role like--all my other productions I was either... Well that's a lie. No wait I take that back. Yeah. Because my first--

Gabriel Firmo 11:44
"No wait, I'm brilliant."

Duda Ramos 11:44
No, no, my first theatre, my first audition I remember you had to sing something I don't remember now... I think it was just like a vocal test or something that they made us sing

Gabriel Firmo 11:54
So just like scales?

Duda Ramos 11:55
Yeah.

Lucas Bezerra 11:55
Yeah.

Gabriel Firmo 11:55
Jesus.

Duda Ramos 11:55
Cause it was more about--because like my first production the way it was, it was like, we would sing at the end. I think it was, yeah. One of Beethoven's songs, which was called "Kyrie Eleison."

Yeah.

Gabriel Firmo 12:08
I'm gonna chime in with a "No". No idea what that is.

Duda Ramos 12:13
I do really well in vocal warm ups because I'm a soprano. So, yeah, they really liked it. I remember them calling my name. And I was like, I smiled from cheek to cheek. I remember one of the actors who was working with me, like, didn't even know me at the time was like, "I was so happy you got in because you were so happy." And I feel like auditions are like that either you're just bursting with emotions or you're really sad, but--

Lucas Bezerra 12:35
Or you're completely destitute.

Gabriel Firmo 12:36
Yeah, its gotta be rough.

Lucas Bezerra 12:37
There's a metaphor for life in there somewhere. I don't know if I fully get it. But--

Duda Ramos 12:42
One thing you definitely learn how to do is like, lead with rejection. I think that's one of the most important things I've learned for jobs and everything from that.

Gabriel Firmo 12:52
Yeah, I mean, there's also this thing--I mean, I'm not in the theater world. But there is this sense like I'm big into I'm into fiction, I write. And so this thing is like, it can be just a character thing. It's not like "you're a bad actor, so you didn't get it." There's a lot of, especially if it's an original thing and you're talking to the person who wrote it and now like a casting team 200 years after, there's really a sense of this person has really an image and you could take you could have a take on that character. That's like valid, interesting and cool, but it isn't what they eactly had in their mind--that's a hard guessing game to play, right? Like, there's no way for you to know that.

Lucas Bezerra 13:26
I mean, in Brazilian theatre, there's this expression for like, having the lines fit the mouth of the actor. It has to be, like, right for that person. I think. Usually, sometimes that falls through. Like you have someone who wasn't particularly right for that part. But I think that's the beauty of theatre is you find the parts that really speak you to you. You find the parts that speak to you. And that's what actually shines through.

Gabriel Firmo 13:52
Yeah. And there's, for example, there's this website online where I think--it's a crazy policy--I don't really use this website. But, it's for auditions for voice acting stuff. The policy is, you--literally all previous auditions are public. So you can hear the really different takes that people have right? Like, you'll get like two lines of description of this is the kind of voice, this is the kind of place, this is the kind of character--because some of these projects are A. Undeveloped or B. Really unannounced. And you'll get, someone will take, not necessarily their accent but they'll do an accent. Or someone will take an entirely different tonality and voice to them. Yeah, that's that's one of the things that has made me realize... from what I understand from theatre auditions and based on like what I've seen and talked to friends, you're not in the room while other people are auditioning necessarily, right?

Duda Ramos 14:44
Absolutely not. Yeah, like not at all. I've had that one time, and it was because there wasn't enough time. So they made us like do vocal warm ups and they made three people stay. Yeah. Which is rough.

Gabriel Firmo 14:59
And I mean usually that means you come in being like, I hope my read is good, right? Like, oh, cool I am playing this person as super kind of up in the air and not super focused and they're kind of--and then you arrive and they wanted someone who's totally different.

Duda Ramos 15:16
The way at least that Brazilian auditions work. The ones I've been to are like, unless you're called for a specific role. It's open call. So like,

Gabriel Firmo 15:23
So they'll fit you to the--

Duda Ramos 15:24
They'll fit you to a character. But at the same--

Lucas Bezerra 15:27
Like generals.

Duda Ramos 15:28
Yeah, exactly. But, like, the thing is, the thing that's complicated is, you can't sing something that the character would sing, like an actual song from the thing, because then they have their own artistic vision. And then you might not be able to--like they know super well about it. So if you're singing something, you're risking, like, "Oh, we actually wanted it this way."

Gabriel Firmo 15:46
So you almost want to do something that's kind of divorced from a specific role so that they can fit you in. You want to give them something that they can work in somewhere.

Duda Ramos 15:54
Exactly. Like if you want, you have to pick something similar, but you can't pick something that is from it.

Gabriel Firmo 15:59
That's really different, I mean, it's very different industries. But, I'm just thinking of voice acting in terms of like, you have a voice. You're you're auditioning for a character, they give you the lines--you're doing for this or for like a commercial, right?

Duda Ramos 16:12
But that depends on like... After a while, I got so into the industry. Like I was here in spring and I got called to an audition in Brazil, like, they wanted me to audition for a role.

Lucas Bezerra 16:23
Big shot.

Gabriel Firmo 16:24
That is cool. Yeah, big shot.

Lucas Bezerra 16:27
I love it. I respect it.

Duda Ramos 16:30
And I had to send an email like, "I'm sorry, I'm studying. Outside in the United States. I'm in college right now. I can't."

Lucas Bezerra 16:36
Did you feel the tug? Was it like pulling you by your hair?

Duda Ramos 16:39
To be honest, yes. Because it was like one of the main roles.

Gabriel Firmo 16:43
Yeah, oh, man. Yeah.

Duda Ramos 16:45
But um, yeah, then you would read for a character, then you would have probably--they'll teach you a song. One thing that I did that I really loved was, I auditioned for Phantom and then I got a call back. So they called me to audition for Christine in Brazil, and then they would actually, you know, they would, they would give me, like, material to read with.

Gabriel Firmo 17:09
All these name drops...

Duda Ramos 17:14
Stop, why'd you call me on the show? [Laughter]

Gabriel Firmo 17:14
No, I mean, I think the reaction is because like, I'm shocked, it's like a cool thing. I'm like, man...

Duda Ramos 17:21
Welcome to my life. Yeah, no, it's not like that anymore.

Gabriel Firmo 17:28
Now someone calls your name and you're not thinking of it. It's like, "Oh, God, I turned in something late."

Duda Ramos 17:31
Yeah, like I live the life of Hannah Montana, now I'm just Miley Cyrus.

Gabriel Firmo, Lucas Bezerra 17:35
[Laughter]

Gabriel Firmo 17:37
Alright, so we should probably--

Lucas Bezerra 17:39
We should do our last little segment where we want you to plug something on campus. It could be a person, it could be a program, it could be something was happening this week or next week when we're going to be putting this out. What's the coolest, artsy, kind of different thing that maybe people haven't heard about that you think is happening on campus.

Duda Ramos 18:00
So I don't know if this is, people haven't heard about it, but there's gonna be Fun Home.

Gabriel Firmo 18:05
I've not heard about it?

Lucas Bezerra 18:06
You haven't? Ok.

Duda Ramos 18:08
It's November 8, and it's the Wirtz fall production and one of our co-chairs is starring in it and Emma. She said, it's amazing like, it'll bring you to tears.

Gabriel Firmo 18:19
What's it about? I really know nothing about this.

Lucas Bezerra 18:21
I have no idea what it's about either.

Duda Ramos 18:23
I'm not sure of the story, but I remember that. It was like, at the time that it was created. It was like one of those big, you know, like, Tony, things like everyone. It was a lot of buzz about it.

Gabriel Firmo 18:34
Oh, cool. Yeah. Well, I mean, I guess we'll have to go watch that. That sounds cool.

Lucas Bezerra 18:38
All right. Interesting. So you heard about it here first or not?

Gabriel Firmo 18:42
Probably, probably not. I heard about it here first.

Lucas Bezerra 18:45
Gabriel did. So thanks. Thanks Duda

Gabriel Firmo 18:48
Yeah. Thanks for coming in.

Duda Ramos 18:49
Great, thank you guys.

Gabriel Firmo 18:51
That was a really fun conversation. Thanks.

Lucas Bezerra 18:53
Thank you.

Duda Ramos 18:54
Thank you.

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Culture Shook Episode Two: Mia and Maia's Spooky Movie Showdown Nov 01, 2019

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In Culture Shook, hosts Mia Mamone and Maia Brown dive in deep to random parts of the current (and, in the case of this episode, past) pop culture zeitgeist. This week’s topic – spooky...ish... movies. We tried to create a bracket but didn't execute it properly because we are not sports nerds. NBN apologizes for the inconvenience, but only a little.

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Fresh Films: Flatliners Oct 13, 2017

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Fresh Films: Snatched May 24, 2017

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Monday Mixtape: Inspirational music May 22, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano celebrates the end of Spring quarter with some powerful songs. Find this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/0IkqUVjx4faagnKI9ilYeb

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Monday Mixtape: Songs for a workout May 15, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano helps you get into the zone during your workout. Find this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/0ZYgOdD5M6aT7rsmrVojBL

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Fresh Films: Colossal May 10, 2017

Moved by movies? In this new podcast from North by Northwestern, Marco Cartolano, David Gordon and Elliot Kronsberg discuss all sorts of films- good and bad. This week, it's Colossal.

Monday Mixtape: Soothing Music May 08, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano gives you some songs to relax to. Find this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/08MmGGdBxhdBmtWqZCEmLl

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Monday Mixtape: It's OK to like country May 01, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano defends the often maligned genre of country music. Listen to this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/4Yoaz6G7XzVPhFGIa2nQJ6

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Monday Mixtape: Songs for Warmer Weather Apr 25, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano celebrates the fact that it’s finally in the upper 60s with some songs for nice spring weather. Find this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https:/open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/3MTG2TrHzodP8drSK9IJqR

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Monday Mixtape: Kendrick Lamar Apr 18, 2017

In this week’s Monday Mixtape, Marco Cartolano takes a look back at some of rapper Kendrick Lamar’s previous hits in honor of his new album released last week. Find this week’s mixtape on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/user/mondaymixtape/playlist/2imrxnWQlpFDVjyFQ9omzi

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