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**Disability After Dark**

This is a podcast that looks at disability stories. it’s like sitting down with a really close friend to have real conversations about disability, sexuality and everything else about the disability experience that we don’t talk about; the things about being disabled we keep in the dark. The show is hosted by Disability Awareness Consultant Andrew Gurza.

Latest Episodes:

E422 - Talking The Overlap in Lack of Representation of Trans and Disabled Bodies in Porn w/ Stevie Trixx Apr 05, 2026

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In this episode I sit down with trans masc adult performer Stevie Trixx. We explore Stevie’s relationship to impairment, I ask what might happen if they became disabled tomorrow, and we talk about the need for more disabled and trans bodies in porn + so much more. Enjoy!

Follow Stevie Trixx here: https://www.stevietrixx.com/

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Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

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E421 - Waiting for Dawn: Long COVID, Gray Grief, and Living with Uncertainty w Marisa Renee Lee Mar 29, 2026

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In this episode, Andrew sits down with bestselling author and long COVID advocate Marisa Renee Lee to talk about her upcoming book, Waiting for Dawn: Living with Uncertainty (out April 7, 2026). Marisa shares her experience becoming ill with COVID in April 2024 and joining the millions who never fully recovered. We discuss Marisa's experience of disability and caregiving before she dealt with disability in her own body, the concept of “gray grief”, how Long Covid has changed her relationship to disability, her husband and their son + we talk all about her new book and so much more. Enjoy.

Follow Marissa:

- Marisa’s Website: https://www.marisareneelee.com/

@MarisaReneeLee on Instagram, LinkedIn, and Facebook

Episode Sponsors

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Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

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E420 - Range Of Motion w/ Author Brian Trapp Mar 22, 2026

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This week, Andrew sits down with Brian Trapp — fiction writer, memoirist, and professor of disability studies at the University of Oregon — to talk about his debut novel Range of Motion, a decade-in-the-making story that puts severe disability at the centre of a complex, funny, deeply human family portrait. Brian opens up about his real twin brother Danny, who inspired the book, the broken systems his family had to fight through, and why he refuses to let Danny's story be forgotten + so much more. Enjoy!

Follow Brian's work & Buy the Book: www.briantrappwriter.com

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

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E419 - "A Thousand Deaths & 500 New Ways" - w/ Disabled Paragraphs Mar 15, 2026

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Andrew sits down with writer and disability activist Sloane Harlow for an honest, unfiltered conversation about navigating polyamory, kink, dating, grief, and joy as a disabled person. Sloane opens up about living with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, bipolar one disorder, and a constellation of other conditions, sharing wisdom on solo polyamory, accessible kink, medical ableism, and why the disability community needs more grit + so much more!

Follow them here: www.instagram.com/disabledparagraphs

https://www.instagram.com/disabledparagraphs

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.

E418 - What Porn Should You Play for Your Service Dog? w/ Ejay Eisen Mar 08, 2026

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Andrew sits down with EJay Eisen, a trans, autistic, multiply disabled service dog trainer who runs one of the only integrated service dog programmes focused on the queer community. What starts as a conversation about service dogs quickly becomes a raw, hilarious, and deeply political discussion about the intersection of trans identity and disability, healthcare discrimination, the broken service dog industry, and what happened when EJay tried to take his service dog to a Chappell Roan concert + so much more!

Follow Ejay's work here:

Website: rufftranslating.com

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.

E417 - "The Bullying Wasn't At You, It Was About You" w/ Abigail Mar 01, 2026

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Andrew chats with Abigail, a 20-year-old London-based photographer and disability advocate. Diagnosed with a facial tumour at six and over 50 surgeries later, they talk medical trauma, silent bullying, caregiving, healthcare systems, and why disability representation needs a serious upgrade. Honest, funny, and real this one is. Enjoy!

Follow Abigail:

@BraveArtist2005 on Instagram & TikTok

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.

E416 - 2 Sex Educators Talking Sex and Disability w/ Tim Lagman Feb 22, 2026

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On E416, Andrew sits down with award-winning podcaster and sex educator, Tim Lagman, as we have an off the cuff chat about sex, disability and everything in between. Enjoy!

Follow Tim's work here: https://www.instagram.com/sexedwithtim/

****Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.

E415 - Will Andrew Ever Bottom? w/ Alex Hall From Bottom's Digest Feb 15, 2026

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On Episode 415, we go back to our classic roots of sex and disability to explore whether or not Andrew will be able to bottom. We talk with co-founder of The Bottom's Digest, Alex Hall as we consider butt stuff from a disability lens, but actually talk about fear, shame and so much more. Enjoy!

Follow The Bottom's Digest at www.thebottomsdigest.com

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Hire Andrew to talk at your next event & buy his book by going to www.andrewgurza.ca

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.

E414 - "So Many Therapists Don't Know How Harmful Ableism Is" - w/ Briana Mills Feb 08, 2026

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Hello, hello friends. On E414, I sit down with disabled bi-con and Marriage and Family Therapist, Briana Mills. We talk about her experience of Muscular Dystrophy, and how all the ableism she experienced in therapy made her want to dismantle ableism in therapeutic settings + so much more. Enjoy!

Follow Briana at www.BrianaMills.com

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

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E413 - “We’re Seen As Not Deserving Of Touch” - w/ Margeaux Feldman Feb 01, 2026

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On this episode of Disability After Dark, Andrew sits down with author of the new book, "Touch me, I'm Sick," Margeaux Feldman. We talk about their experience of touch, pleasure, trauma and so much more. Margeaux has written such a brilliant book, and I am so happy to chat with them. Enjoy!

Follow Margeaux's work and buy "Touch Me, I'm Sick" https://www.margeauxfeldman.com/

Episode Sponsors

Do you wanna turn b*tt stuff up a notch. Go to bvibe.com and use code AFTERDARK to receive 20% off orders of $100 (including bundles, discounted items and more).

Disability content creation doesn't have to be hard. Follow @seated.perspectives on Instagram to learn how to make content creation a gentle, easy, accessible experience.

Are you looking for attendant care when you need it at your convenience? Check out your team, on tap www.whimble.ca

Get 15% off your next purchase of sex toys, books and DVDs by using Coupon code AFTERDARK at checkout when you shop at trans owned and operated sex shop Come As You Are www.comeasyouare.com

Order Notes From a Queer Cripple and hire him to speak on it by e-mailing andrew@andrewgurza.com US: https://us.jkp.com/products/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Canada: https://www.ubcpress.ca/notes-from-a-queer-cripple

Support the show with a donation: https://patreon.com/disabilityafterdark

This podcast is powered by Pinecast.