The Rollercoaster Podcast

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The Day He Pulled The Trigger - What Happened After Will Give You Goosebumps Dec 16, 2025

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What do you do when the pain gets so loud that you don’t want to be here anymore? What happens in the moment when life almost ends… and something pulls you back?

In this powerful episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Wes Wright, who opens up about the day he attempted to take his own life and the split-second moment that changed everything. Wes walks us through the fear, exhaustion, and silent suffering that led him there, the near-death experience that followed, and the long road back toward faith, accountability, and purpose.

This conversation goes far beyond a suicide attempt. We talk about men’s mental health, depression, identity, faith, redemption, and the lies that convince people they are alone or beyond repair. Wes shares the hard lessons he learned about responsibility, healing, and why pain doesn’t mean your story is over.

If you’ve ever felt broken, lost your sense of purpose, or questioned whether life can get better, this conversation will meet you right where you are.

Watch this episode to hear Wes Wright’s story and be reminded that hope is still possible.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Day He Planned To End His Life

2:45 Sitting Alone With A Gun And No Hope

6:10 Dialling 911 Not Knowing If He’d Survive

9:10 “God Still Gave Me A Choice”

13:40 The Lie That Almost Destroyed Him

16:20 The Ten-Minute Danger Window

20:40 “I Wanted One Last Goodbye”

23:10 Doctors Say Can’t Explain This

27:30 The Therapist Who Changed Him

31:10 “My Son Died… Then I Tried To”

34:20 Why Suicide Doesn’t End Pain

37:05 The Three Lies That Trap You

40:10 A Message To Anyone Struggling

Guest Info:

IG: @wesfunbro

Tiktok: @wesfunbro

Two Tragedies, One Family… How I Survived Losing Them Both Dec 09, 2025

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There are moments in life that split everything into “before” and “after.” And for Ben Longshore, it began with one sentence from his father: “Take care of your mom and sister.” Hours later, he learned there was no pulse.

In this raw and deeply human conversation, I sit down with my cousin Ben, someone I’ve known my entire life, as he opens up about the night his dad unexpectedly passed away, the weight of being 16 when everything changed, and the choice to step into a role he never asked for. His story doesn’t end there. Seven years later, another tragedy struck our family, forcing him to face grief all over again and ask the questions no one wants to ask: Why now? How do you keep going? Where is God in all this?

This episode is about loss, faith, resilience, family, and the quiet strength you don’t know you have until life demands it. If you’ve walked through grief, felt responsible for others, or wondered how to rebuild after tragedy, this conversation will stay with you.

Watch this episode to hear Ben’s powerful journey and be reminded that even in the heaviest moments, hope still has a voice.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Last Words His Dad Ever Said

3:00 The Day That Changed His Life Forever

7:04 The Moment He Knew Something Was Wrong

12:18 The Night Before Everything Went Wrong

17:10 The Prayer That Shifted the Room

21:45 Telling His Sister Their Dad Was Gone

25:40 How the Community Showed Up Overnight

30:12 The Spiritual Perspective That Saved Him

35:40 The Father-Son Moments He Still Misses

39:54 Dreams, Football, and a Life Rewritten

43:02 Why Showing Up Matters More Than Words

49:35 The 30-Hour Drive They'll Never Forget

51:20 Seven Years Later, Another Tragedy Hits

55:24 “Nick Is in the Hospital”: Reliving Old Trauma

59:58 The ATV Accident That Changed Everything

1:03:49 Praying for a Miracle That Didn’t Come

1:07:22 Helping His Sister-in-Law Survive the Impossible

1:12:28 The Organ Donor Story No One Expected

1:17:08 How That Meeting Changed Their Family Forever

1:23:56 How He Leads His Family Differently Now

1:28:40 Why “Stepping Up” Matters More Than Ever

Guest Info:

IG: @‌ben.longshore

The Most Haunting Childhood Story I’ve Ever Heard… Dec 02, 2025

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What happens when your childhood is spent dodging bombs instead of playing outside?

What does survival do to the human spirit and how do you rebuild when everything familiar disappears overnight?

In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Guitta Harb, who escaped war in Lebanon as a young girl and was forced to grow up before she ever had the chance to be a child. From hiding in dark underground shelters to leaving her home at 2 am on a secret ship with no promise of return, her story is raw, vulnerable, and deeply human.

We dive into the identity struggles that come with being caught between two cultures, the trauma stored in the body, and the moment she realised fear didn’t have to dictate her future. She shares how survival turned into purpose, graduating dental school at 21, becoming a mother, and building a life rooted in gratitude and resilience.

This conversation explores war trauma, anxiety, identity, mental health, survival mode, fear, resilience, the immigrant story, and finding your why.

Watch this episode to feel hope again proof that pain can become purpose, and your past doesn’t have to define your future.

Key Moments:

0:00 Robbed of a Childhood

2:12 Life in a Warzone: Fear Every Single Day

5:45 “Pack Your Bags. We’re Leaving Tonight.”

8:10 The Secret Ship That Changed Everything

12:12 Lost Between Two Worlds

17:30 Learning English… Without Knowing a Word

22:38 How She Learned to Belong in America

25:09 “I Refuse to Be a Victim”

30:44 The Anxiety That Never Fully Left

33:26 Parenting After Trauma

36:12 What Chaos Does to the Nervous System

40:55 Turning Pain Into Purpose

45:40 Why So Many Suffer Alone

48:12 The Power of Finding Your Why

52:33 Why Young People Give Up Too Soon

55:17 How to Survive When Life Breaks You

59:55 Raising Strong Kids in a Fragile World

1:04:10 How She Found Healing Slowly

1:08:20 Why She Still Believes in Hope

Guest Info:

IG: @‌therealocdentist

Website: https://drguittaharb.com/

The Body Part That Saved My Family From Being Killed Nov 18, 2025

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What happens when the moment that should have destroyed you… becomes the moment God uses to save your life? This episode with Ruslan KD is one of the most intense, emotional, and faith-shifting conversations I’ve ever had.

Today, I sit down with Ruslan KD, creator, pastor, rapper, and one of the fastest-growing Christian voices online, to unpack a story that begins in a war-torn country, where a single detail from his childhood literally saved his family from being killed. From fleeing ethnic cleansing in Azerbaijan, surviving abuse, and falling into drugs, crime, and violence in San Diego, Ruslan opens up about the battles that shaped him.

We talk about fatherlessness, trauma, identity, masculinity, addiction, and the moment God stepped in and completely rerouted his life. His transformation from chaos to calling is a raw reminder that redemption is real and that God’s ways, even when they feel restrictive, are actually pathways to freedom.

If you’ve wrestled with identity, faith, or the pain of your past, this conversation will breathe hope into you. Watch this episode to hear a story you’ll never forget.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Moment That Saved My Life

1:42 Growing Up Armenian in a War Zone

4:52 The One Detail That Meant Life or Death

7:48 My Family Fell Apart Overnight

10:38 How I Slid Into Crime at 11

13:22 Gangster Rap Became My Role Model

15:52 Running From a Kid With a Knife

18:40 We Had to Move or I Wasn’t Going to Make It

21:41 Wrestling With Faith, Trauma, and Identity

24:45 Why I Finally Surrendered Everything

27:28 Breaking Old Habits and Building New Ones

30:09 Why God’s Boundaries Lead to Freedom

33:14 The Danger of Letting Your Job Define You

36:12 The Only Identity That Actually Holds

39:16 My Imposter Syndrome While Writing This Book

42:40 How to Pursue Success Without Losing Yourself

46:01 Why Most People Misunderstand Calling

49:02 The Problem With Hustle Culture

52:18 What I Wish I Knew at 16

55:47 Advice for Kids Growing Up Without a Dad

59:01 Why God’s Ways Aren’t “Restrictions”

1:02:22 How to Build an Identity That Lasts

1:04:14 The Power of Community When You’re Lost

1:07:54 The Simple Advice That Saved My Life

Guest Info:

IG: @‌ruslankd

YouTube: @‌RuslanKD

The Moment I Thought My Ex-Husband Was Going To Kill Me Nov 11, 2025

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What happens when the man you love becomes the one you fear? This is Jennifer DeTracy’s powerful story of surviving abuse, reclaiming her identity, and finding peace through forgiveness.

In this raw and emotional interview, Jennifer shares how her “Cinderella” love story turned into years of manipulation, control, and violence. From bruises she tried to hide to the night she finally escaped, she opens up about the pain, confusion, and courage it took to leave. But her story doesn’t end there. Jennifer reveals how faith, forgiveness, and personal growth helped her rebuild her life and become a voice for women finding strength after abuse.

Today, she’s living proof that even after the darkest chapters, redemption is possible.

Watch this episode to hear Jennifer’s powerful message of healing, courage, and second chances and be reminded that it’s never too late to start again.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Signs I Missed Before the Abuse Began

2:34 How a “Perfect” Man Slowly Became My Abuser

5:12 The Subtle Red Flags No One Talks About

7:46 The Moment I Realised I Wasn’t Safe Anymore

13:45 How Manipulation Made Me Doubt Reality

17:19 The Night I Finally Fought Back

21:47 Why I Chose to Forgive the Man Who Hurt Me

25:32 How I Reclaimed My Mind and My Power

29:10 The Call That Changed Everything

33:45 How to Recognise an Abuser Early

36:25 Forgiveness Doesn’t Mean Forgetting

40:30 The Secret to Long-Term Success

44:00 Building a Life of Freedom, Not Fear

48:58 The Product That Changed Everything

52:10 The Truth About Starting Over

56:08 The Power of Sharing Your Story

Guest Info:

IG: @jenniferdetracy

The Night I Lost Both Parents & What Happened Afterward Nov 04, 2025

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What do you do when your whole world disappears overnight? When a single phone call changes everything you thought you knew about life, faith, and purpose?

In this powerful episode, I sit down with Nathan DeTracy, a former IFBB Pro bodybuilder whose life was forever altered when he lost both parents in a tragic car accident at just 23 years old, only days before 9/11. What followed was a decade-long battle with grief, addiction, and identity, hidden behind a flawless exterior of success and discipline.

Nathan shares how he went from broken and lost, drowning in pain and denial, to rebuilding his life through faith, purpose, and service. He opens up about how bodybuilding became both his escape and his armor, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to finally face the truth beneath the muscle. Together, we explore the power of surrender, redemption, and finding meaning in unimaginable loss.

Today, Nathan channels that journey into helping others transform their health and mindset through Make Wellness, a company redefining how we approach fitness, peptides, and true well-being.

If you’ve ever faced grief, addiction, or identity loss and wondered if healing is even possible, watch this episode. It might just change how you see pain, purpose, and the fight to rise again.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Phone Call That Shattered My Life

5:40 When Reality Finally Hit

8:37 Escaping the Pain Through Addiction

13:04 Losing Everything and Finding God

15:20 How Bodybuilding Became My Survival

20:32 The Miracles That Changed My Atheist Heart

23:10 The Woman Who Saved Me

27:18 Rock Bottom & Bankruptcy

32:15 Losing $100K a Month Overnight

35:05 The 5 Pillars of Real Health

39:04 Why Supplements Don’t Work

44:02 The Truth About Ozempic & GLP-1s

49:20 Nature’s Alternative to Injectables

54:50 How to Join the Movement

Guest Info:

IG: @‌nathandetracy

LinkedIn: Nate DeTracy

How A Notorious Shot Caller Found Purpose After 20 Years In Hell Oct 28, 2025

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What if your best friend pulled the trigger right in front of you and you couldn’t stop it? This isn’t a movie scene. It’s the moment that changed everything for Carlos Vasquez.

In this raw and unforgettable episode, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff and Carlos Vasquez, two men who once ran California’s most dangerous prison yards as shot callers. What begins as a story of broken homes and lost fathers spirals into gang life, violence, and survival inside maximum-security prisons. Carlos recounts the moment his best friend played Russian roulette and died before his eyes, a trauma that sent him down a path of armed robberies, betrayal, and decades behind bars.

Inside, Carlos became a leader in a world ruled by fear and strategy, not strength. Peter opens up about his own time in the system, where loyalty was an illusion and every friendship could turn deadly. Together, they reveal what prison life really demands and how both men found redemption through truth, forgiveness, and faith after years of darkness.

Watch this episode to witness one of the most gripping redemption stories ever told and to see how even in the darkest places, purpose can be reborn.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Russian Roulette That Changed Everything

1:25 Entering Maximum Security Prison at 19

5:16 Running Away at 13 and Finding the Streets

8:15 The Deadly Game That Ended Everything

13:31 The Lie of Loyalty in the Streets

17:23 The Setup That Sent Me to Prison

20:35 Realising Loyalty Doesn’t Exist Here

23:27 How Violence Became My Identity

27:45 Why I Was Scared to Become a Father

31:22 Ten Years of Violence to Earn Respect

34:13 Becoming a Monster to Live

39:48 I Stopped Thinking About Freedom

43:47 Trust No One Behind Bars

46:54 Inside the Prison Drug Trade

50:21 When Guards Become Gangsters

53:00 The System That Fuels Violence

56:02 Prison Hustle vs Corporate Life

1:01:09 When Ego Finally Breaks

1:05:50 Rebuilding Purpose From the Ashes

1:10:20 How Pain Turned Into My Mission

1:15:25 Why Forgiveness Sets You Free

1:18:09 The Prison Lessons That Apply to Life

1:21:03 When Power Becomes Poison

1:24:14 The Turning Point That Saved Me

1:27:00 Relearning What Loyalty Really Means

1:33:45 How to Rebuild a Life After Prison

1:36:27 Peter’s First Days of Freedom

1:39:05 The Shock of Returning to the Real World

1:44:28 What Prison Taught About Humanity

1:47:11 Why Most Men Never Truly Heal

1:52:27 From Violence to Vulnerability

Guests Info:

IG: @peter_meyerhoff

Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/

IG: @‌carlosvasquezofficial

Website: https://carlosvasquezofficial.com/

My Former Husband Took His Own Life & Autism Is Taking My Son's Oct 21, 2025

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What do you do when the person you love most takes their own life, and your child’s world collapses with them? This episode is a raw and emotional journey through grief, survival, and the unrelenting strength of a mother who refused to give up.

In this powerful conversation, I sit down with Tiffany Sumner, whose life changed forever on May 25th, 2020. That day, her former husband, battling depression, addiction, and undiagnosed bipolar disorder, ended his life, leaving behind two children, one of whom was later diagnosed with profound, non-verbal autism. Tiffany opens up about navigating the unimaginable: her son’s violent regressions, the pain of separation when he had to move into a group home, and the deep loneliness of motherhood in crisis.

Yet through the heartbreak, Tiffany found purpose. She’s now a powerful voice for mental health awareness and autism advocacy, using her story to bring hope, healing, and visibility to families who often suffer in silence.

This is not just a story of tragedy. It’s one of faith, resilience, and redemption. Watch this episode to witness how one mother turned unimaginable pain into purpose, and why her message of hope could save lives.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Day That Changed Tiffany’s Life Forever

2:05 The Moment She Learned Her Former Husband Was Gone

6:00 The Hidden Pain Behind Male Suicide

8:22 Why So Many Signs Go Unnoticed

12:06 When Faith Becomes the Only Thing Left

14:37 Raising a Child With Profound, Non-Verbal Autism

18:04 Living Between Love, Fear & Survival

21:15 The Pain Siblings of Autistic Children Carry

23:05 Inside the Reality of Level-Three Autism Care

26:08 “I’ve Never Heard My Son Say I Love You”

28:42 The Truth About Living With Profound Autism

32:06 Why Tiffany Refuses to Stay Silent

34:45 The Viral Moment That Changed Everything

37:16 A Message for Every Mother Who’s Struggling

Guest Info:

IG: @tiffanysumner

Website: https://hausofmedia.com/

Inside The Mind Of A Killer: The Murder That Changed Everything Oct 14, 2025

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In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff, a former high-ranking prison shot caller who once held power within one of the most feared groups behind bars, the Aryan Brotherhood. Peter gives a raw, unfiltered account of life inside the system, revealing the inner workings of prison hierarchy, the brutal politics of control, and how violence was used to maintain order.

He recounts in detail the day he helped facilitate a murder inside the prison walls, describing the planning, the execution, and the psychological cost of being part of such extreme acts. As someone who lived and enforced the code of the yard, Peter offers rare insight into how loyalty, fear, and survival shaped every decision he made.

This conversation exposes the dark reality of prison life most people never see, where every move is strategic, and every alliance can mean life or death.

Watch this episode to hear a chilling inside look at the power, structure, and mindset of prison leadership from someone who lived it at the highest level.

Key moments:

0:00 The Day Everything Went Too Far

2:00 Inside the Mind of a Prison Shot Caller

4:45 The Most Brutal Thing I Ever Witnessed

7:12 Why I Helped Plan a Prison Murder

9:40 Realising I’d Just Thrown My Life Away

12:55 Eleven Months in the Hole Changed Everything

15:30 How a Single Decision Destroyed My Future

18:45 The Moment My Childhood Ended

21:30 The Accusation That Ruined My Life

24:10 How Addiction Turned Me Into Someone I Hated

26:45 The Things I Did Just to Get One More Fix

29:40 Why I Got 12 Years for a Crime Others Got Probation

32:15 Facing God After Years of Hate

34:22 Overdosing on Fentanyl and Coming Back to Life

37:10 The Conversation That Made Me Believe in God

39:40 From Aryan Brotherhood to a Biracial Family

42:00 What I Want My Kids to Know About Their Dad

44:30 Learning to Forgive My Family and Myself

46:10 The Message Every Broken Person Needs to Hear

Guest Info:

IG: @peter_meyerhoff (https://www.instagram.com/peter_meyerhoff/?hl=en)

Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/

I Told the Anxiety Expert Something I’ve Never Admitted Before Oct 07, 2025

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What if the only way to truly live was to accept the things you fear most? In this raw and deeply personal episode, we unpack how radical acceptance can transform the pain of anxiety, addiction, and shame into peace, purpose, and power.

In this conversation with licensed therapist Rachael DeKoning, we explore the hidden connection between anxiety, addiction, and the fear of losing control. Rachael shares how her battle with alcoholism and crippling anxiety became the catalyst for her healing and why the willingness to feel everything is the real path to freedom.

We dive deep into the emotional cost of denial, the danger of living a “safe” but joyless life, and how radical acceptance helps you reclaim your life even if that means accepting heartbreaking realities like losing someone you love.

You’ll also hear an honest, unscripted “mini therapy session” as I open up about my own struggles with social anxiety and identity, revealing how growth often means outgrowing old versions of yourself.

If you’ve ever felt trapped by fear, shame, or anxiety, this conversation will remind you that healing begins with acceptance. Watch this episode to rediscover what it means to have a life worth living.

Key Moments:

0:00 What Makes Life Worth Living

3:51 Radical Acceptance Changes Everything

5:23 Inside the Vicious Cycle of Anxiety

10:47 How Alcohol Rewires the Brain

13:10 The Shame That Finally Broke Me

16:37 Why Familiar Pain Feels Safe

22:58 How to Befriend Your Anxiety

25:30 When Anxiety Is Just Information

28:24 Why Connection Gets Harder With Age

31:18 Learning to Sit With Discomfort

35:02 Why Nice Guys Burn Out