This summer was a busy season for me which meant that I had to put off dealing with the grief of a relationship that ended. Sometimes that happens in life. We go into crisis mode to make sure everyone is cared for, but eventually, the grief bill comes due. The more we get to know ourselves the more we will understand how we process grief the effect of time on that process. Here's I said this on Facebook:
It hit me this morning that it is almost October. Someone asked me this summer how I was doing and I answered “ask me in October.” No one is an expert in grief, but I knew the full summer would put off some emotions from the unexpected twists and turns life took this year. The grief bill always comes due. I’m grateful for a work trip in October that will give me some time and space on the road to dig deeper into the healing process. I’m grateful for sleeping well every night. I’m grateful for forgiveness. I’m grateful for counseling. I’m grateful for friendships. I’m grateful for the prayers of faithful people. I’m grateful for the daily l things that the Lord uses to keep us going like laughter, prayer, and exercise.
Make time and space to wrestle with all of the emotions wrapped up in your grieving. It's a process that takes time, has no clear map, and can be confusing. It's hard work. But it's the work of being human and the work that our Heavenly Father is doing in us.