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Kenny Johnston on Self-Loathing, Shame, and Healing May 18, 2026

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On this episode of The Crucible Project Podcast, host and pastor Andy Spell interviews Kenny Johnston about the painful effects of self-loathing and shame. Kenny shares how those struggles led him to feel worthless and invisible, and the conversation explores the emotional and spiritual impact of those beliefs.
This episode offers a candid look at shame, identity, and the hope of healing. It is a meaningful conversation for anyone who has wrestled with self-judgment, feeling unloved, or believing they do not matter.

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Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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Jonathan Moynihan: Do the Work, Live Differently May 11, 2026

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Podcaster Armando Batista is joined by Jonathan Moynihan, Pastor of Mosaic Christian Church in Maryland. Jonathan shares his journey that resulted in him doing the work and living differently.
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Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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Brittany Duke: Overcoming Childhood Trauma May 04, 2026

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Andy Spell sits down with Brittany Duke for a vulnerable conversation about childhood trauma, mother wounds, and the path toward healing. Brittany shares how her early experiences shaped her life and how The Crucible Project has supported her as she moves forward.
This episode is for anyone seeking hope, healing, and practical encouragement after childhood pain.

Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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John Casey: Self-Compassion Apr 29, 2026

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Podcaster Tim White is joined by longtime Pastor and Crucible Leader John Casey from Colorado Springs, CO. John shares his personal journey into self-compassion and life changing grace.
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Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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Unlocking the Power Within: Chris Cooper's Transformational Journey Apr 14, 2026

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Dive into a heartfelt conversation with Chris Cooper and host, Andy Spell, as Chris delves into the life-changing weekend with the Crucible Project that unlocked his inner strength and reshaped his approach to leadership, faith, and authenticity.

Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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From Military to Mental Health: Aaron Bahn's Journey of Transformation Mar 30, 2026

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In this captivating conversation with The Crucible Project Podcast host Neil Harbison, Aaron Bahn recounts his transformative journey from military service and personal struggles to finding community, honesty, and grace through the Crucible Project. He delves into how confronting mental health challenges, embracing conflict resolution, and nurturing supportive relationships have led to profound growth and healing.

Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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Breaking Chains: Unmasking Sexual Abuse and Shame with Dr. Doug Carpenter and host Andy Spell Mar 23, 2026

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**Explicit Content about sexual addiction and abuse.**

Prepare to be seen, heard, and healed. In this powerful conversation, Doug Carpenter, a seasoned psychologist and author, bravely unpacks the deeply hidden wounds of sexual abuse, shame, and the path toward recovery. If you're tired of darkness hiding your truth, this episode is your call to step into the light and reclaim your life.

Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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The Hidden Pain: Breaking Shame and Trauma in Male Sexual Abuse — A Conversation with host Andy Spell and guest Dr. Doug Carpenter Mar 16, 2026

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**Explicit Content about sexual addiction and abuse.**

This episode unearths the raw, messy, and brave truths about male sexual abuse, shame, and healing. With Dr. Doug Carpenter, a psychologist and author, we dive deep into the complex journey from childhood trauma to adult recovery, confronting shame, and rewriting the narrative of brokenness into strength. If you're ready to face what’s been hidden, this episode is your call to courage.

This isn’t just a conversation; it’s a movement toward freedom, truth, and renewal. If you’ve carried shame or pain, let this be your first step toward healing.

Share this message — someone needs to hear it. Because your story, your voice, and your courage can change lives.

Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes:

Radical honesty and grace
Spiritual growth
Discipleship
Mentorship
Personal development
Life transformation
Christian men's ministry
Christian women's ministry
Faith-based retreat

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