Stay ConnectedIn the Still Coloring podcast, author, speaker, and founder of Broken Crayons Still Color, Toni Collier, invites you to lean into the stories of women and men that uncover their brokenness and practically show how they rebuilt their lives with hope and grit.
Toni hopes that you will be inspired, poured into, and walk away believing that you too can create something beautiful with your life, no matter what.
Copyright: © 2022 Toni Collier Ministries
Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study, featuring Toni Collier here (for free!)! https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
What happens when you’ve been faithful to God… and your life still falls apart?
In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni sits down with preacher, author, and podcaster **Brenda Palmer** for an honest conversation about church hurt, betrayal, rebuilding your life, surrender, and following Jesus when obedience doesn’t produce the outcome you expected. Brenda shares the devastating story of experiencing betrayal inside a church community that felt like family—and why that pain ultimately pushed her **deeper into God instead of away from Him**.
Because sometimes we believe:
*I prayed.* *I obeyed.*
*I did the right thing.*
*So surely God is going to make this work out.
* But what happens when He doesn’t?
Brenda shares how her life didn’t immediately get better after choosing God. She moved across the country, slept on an air mattress, went almost a year without a job, received government assistance, battled depression, and had to rebuild nearly everything. And somewhere in the rebuilding, she learned something that stopped Toni in her tracks: **Surrender isn’t how we convince God to do something for us. Surrender is our response to what He has already done.**
WHEW. 😭
If you’ve ever thought:
**“God, I did everything right. Why did You still let this happen?”
** This episode is for you. Because obedience isn’t ultimately about what you get on the other side.
**It’s about the God you meet along the way.**
📖 **ABOUT BRENDA**
Brenda Palmer is a preacher, author, podcaster, and the author of *The Journey of Yes: The Everyday Adventure of Radical Obedience*.
Find Brenda’s book wherever books are sold and search **Brenda Palmer** in the Bible App for her devotional.
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
As we kick off Season 10 of the Still Coloring Podcast, we're opening the book of Nehemiah to discover a powerful truth: God doesn't just rebuild walls... He rebuilds people.
In this episode, Toni shares three biblical principles for rebuilding your life with moxie and resilience:
• Stop mourning what was without abandoning what could be.
• Rebuild one brick at a time.
• Protect what God is rebuilding.
If you've been wondering whether healing is still possible for you, let this be your reminder that your story isn't over. God is still in the business of restoration, and even if all you see is rubble today, He knows how to build something beautiful from it.
Your broken crayons still color.
Scripture: Nehemiah 1–4
This episode is sponsored by Our Daily Bread Ministries. Be sure to check out the free Unshakable Moxie Bible study series featuring incredible stories of women who refused to quit. Visit the link in the show notes to watch.
Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Audio-only pod version: https://pod.link/1627335605
Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod
Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier
Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/
For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni
Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
What do you pray when life feels dry, dark, exhausting, and uncertain?
In this special Fifth Wednesday episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni invites you to slow down, breathe, and receive a prayer inspired by Psalm 63.
David wrote this psalm from the wilderness of Judah—a parched and weary place where there seemed to be no water. Yet even there, he continued searching for God, praising Him, and trusting that God’s strong hand was holding him securely.
Maybe you are walking through your own wilderness right now: heartbreak, grief, financial pressure, anxiety, sickness, addiction, insecurity, temptation, or a pain you cannot quite name.
This episode is your reminder that you are not too broken for God to hear you. Your past has not disqualified your prayers, and someone else’s prayers do not reach God faster than yours. Every person who has said yes to Jesus has access to the same loving and holy God.
Toni prays for hope when everything feels dark, strength to resist temptation, freedom from sin, rest for sleepless nights, and the ability to remember that God is still good—even when saying it feels difficult.
Come as you are. Take a deep breath. Bring God whatever you have.
You can expect:
You do not have to pretend that the wilderness is easy. But you can trust that you are not walking through it alone.
Watch the full episode and support the podcast at:
YouTube.com/@tonijcollier
Listen, subscribe, and share this episode with someone who needs prayer today.
Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Audio-only pod version: https://pod.link/1627335605
Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod
Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier
Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/
For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni
Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Dylan opens up about once feeling like she had to choose between her mom and dad, how her relationship with God helped her realize she could love both parents, and what children navigating divorce need most from their friends and families. Toni also reflects on the responsibility divorced parents have to protect their children from adult conflict, resist trying to replace the other parent, and create opportunities for their children to experience family—even when the family looks different than it once did.
But this conversation is about more than divorce. Dylan shares how God helped her overcome insecurity, why teenagers need a personal relationship with Jesus instead of simply borrowing their parents’ faith, and what Proverbs 3:5–6 taught her during a moment when she desperately needed to hear from God.
Parents, this is an episode to watch with your children. And whether you are raising kids, navigating co-parenting, healing from your own childhood, or simply wondering whether the next generation still loves Jesus, this conversation will leave you encouraged. Because the movement of God does not end with us.
The next generation is still listening.
They are still asking questions.
They are still developing real faith.
And they still need safe adults willing to hear what they have to say.
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni gets honest about her own season of loneliness, uncertainty, and learning not to move ahead of God.
Through Psalm 3, she explores what it means to trust that God is still watching over you, even when your circumstances feel unsafe and your prayers seem unanswered.
You can expect an honest conversation about:
Why waiting on God can feel so painful
The temptation to trust your intellect over your discernment
How to stop rushing what God is asking you to surrender
Practical ways to manage anxiety while you wait
The importance of gratitude, movement, journaling, and community
How Psalm 3 reminds us that God is still our protector and rescuer
This episode is for anyone waiting for healing, clarity, a relationship, a new opportunity, relief from grief, or an answer that has not come yet.
God has not forgotten you. He is with you, He is watching over you, and He can give you peace and presence while you wait.
WATCH UNSHAKABLE MOXIE SEASON 2 FOR FREE: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
Listen to the Still Coloring Podcast on your favorite podcast platform: https://tonijcollier.com/podcast
Subscribe for weekly conversations about healing, faith, emotional health, and finding hope in the middle of life’s messiest moments.
Connect with Toni:
Instagram: @tonijcollier
Still Coloring Podcast: @stillcoloringpod
Broken Crayons Still Color: @brkncrayons
Remember: broken crayons still color, and God is not finished with your story. #WaitingOnGod #StillColoringPodcast #ToniCollier #Psalm3 #ChristianPodcast #TrustingGod #ChristianWomen #FaithInTheWaiting #GodHasNotForgottenYou
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
In this episode we discuss why adult friendships change, how to navigate conflict without ending the relationship, when it's time to transition a friendship, the power of being truly seen, and why community is one of God's greatest gifts.
Whether you've experienced friendship breakups, church hurt, loneliness, betrayal, or simply want stronger relationships, this conversation will challenge the way you think about friendship.
In this episode you'll learn:
+ Why friendships naturally change over time
+ How to navigate difficult friendship conversations
+ The biggest mistake people make before ending friendships
+ Why assumptions destroy relationships
+ How to become the friend you're looking for
+ The power of presence over fixing Biblical wisdom for healthy community
+ How to rebuild trust after hurt If this episode encouraged you, share it with a friend who needs it.
Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y Youtube pod version: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod
Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier
Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/
For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni
Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com!
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Do you rely more on your intellect than God's voice?
In this episode of the Still Coloring podcast, Toni Collier opens up about a difficult truth she discovered while reading Psalm 46: she had been trusting her own understanding more than God's wisdom. If you've been overthinking every decision, carrying burdens you were never meant to carry, or feeling exhausted from trying to control every outcome, this conversation is for you.
Through honest storytelling, biblical insight, and practical encouragement, Toni unpacks what it really means to "be still and know that I am God"—and why discernment often requires us to slow down, surrender, and listen. Psalm 46 reminds us that God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Even when life feels chaotic, His presence offers peace that striving never can. You don't have to figure everything out on your own.
In this episode, you'll learn:
• Why self-reliance can keep us from hearing God's voice
• The difference between intellect and discernment
• How to trust God when you don't know what to do
• What "be still" actually means in everyday life
• Why surrender is often the first step toward peace
If this episode encouraged you, subscribe to the Still Coloring podcast and share it with someone who needs this reminder today.
Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod
Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier
Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/
For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni Other resources can be found at tonijcollier.com!
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study, featuring Toni Collier here (for free!)! https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
To shop Toni's Hope Merch, click here: https://shorturl.at/dEp62
Through honest storytelling about her recent surgery, friendship, motherhood, healing, and faith, Toni reminds us that God never intended for us to carry our burdens alone.
Psalm 30 teaches us that weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. No matter what you're facing today, joy is on the way. In this episode, you'll learn:
• Why receiving help can feel so uncomfortable
• How low self-worth impacts relationships and decision-making
• The connection between self-respect and settling for less
• What Psalm 30 teaches about grief, healing, and hope
• How to believe that better days are still ahead
Subscribe to the Still Coloring podcast for honest conversations about faith, healing, grief, self-worth, relationships, and finding hope in hard seasons.
Support Toni's ministry: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Subscribe to the podcast newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/stillcoloringpod
Follow Toni Collier on Instagram: https://instagram.com/tonijcollier
Follow the podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod/
For bookings: https://www.tonijcollier.com/booktoni
Other resources can be found at http://tonijcollier.com
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni opens up about one of the most painful seasons of her life—walking through betrayal, divorce, financial uncertainty, public scrutiny, and the feeling that maybe she had become "damaged goods." Through Psalm 121, Toni shares how God reminded her that He never stopped seeing her, never stopped watching over her, and never stopped working, even when everything around her seemed to be falling apart. If you've ever wondered where God is in your grief, questioned whether your story is too broken, or felt like you've lost more than you can carry, this conversation is for you.
Psalm 121 reminds us that our help comes from the Lord—the Maker of heaven and earth—and that He is still watching over our coming and going, both now and forevermore.
Special thanks to the official sponsor of the Still Coloring Podcast, Our Daily Bread and God Hears Her!
Check out the "Unshakeable Moxie," show where you can hear stories about women who refuse to quit co-hosted by Toni Collier and Moriah Smallbone: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study (for free!)!
https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Can I tell you why Psalm 27 brings me to tears every time I read it? It’s one of the most meaningful passages of Scripture in my life, truly. It has carried me through grief, heartbreak, rebuilding, fear, and seasons when I felt like I had nothing left to hold onto but God.
If you've ever felt overwhelmed, exhausted, anxious, abandoned, or unsure of what to pray, I really do hope this conversation is a powerful reminder that God's presence is enough.
Let me tell you about the things I once turned to for comfort, why Psalm 27 continues to wreck me in the best way. and what it means to dwell with God instead of constantly asking Him to fix everything around us.
Special thanks to the official sponsor of the Still Coloring Podcast, Our Daily Bread and God Hears Her!
Check out the "Unshakeable Moxie," show where you can hear stories about women who refuse to quit co-hosted by Toni Collier and Moriah Smallbone: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
Access the Unshakable Moxie video bible study (for free!)!
https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie
To financially support Toni's ministry, donate here: https://shorturl.at/GsH9y
Watch podcast episodes on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@tonijcollier
Support the Still Coloring Podcast: https://square.link/u/u2FkAzC7?src=sheet
Shop Toni's merch: https://www.shopetch.co/collections/toni-collier
Connect with Toni:
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tonijcollier
Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stillcoloringpod
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/colliertoni
Newsletter: ToniJCollier.com/Newsletter
Website: ToniJCollier.com
Purchase Toni's newest book, Don’t Try This Alone: https://amzn.to/3BQqaBr
Purchase Toni’s children’s book, Broken Crayons Still Color: https://amzn.to/3x3I4xD
Purchase Toni’s first book, Brave Enough to be Broken: https://amzn.to/3VoCjVu
Our TOPPODCAST Picks 
