Sleep Over with Carolyn and Laila

How and why magick works Nov 18, 2024

Carolyn and Laila sit in Laila’s living room with Laila’s sweet baby Christopher who coos a lot, to explain how the subtle rules the dense and makes magick possible.

Why you need to do magick now more than ever Nov 08, 2024

Carolyn and Laila talk about common inner conflicts people often have about doing magick

and why it’s so important to overcome these.

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Self-realization and the Ma’at current with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman Oct 04, 2024

Carolyn sits down at the Jamboree with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman, a SOMS initiate, to a riveting talk about Crowley, Jung, Nema, and what it means to realize the Self and forgiveness of the horrors of the world via the 93 current, including the incoming current of Ma’at.

An Initiate’s Journey Sep 26, 2024

Carolyn sits down at the Mahasiddha Jamboree, a Sleep Over Mystery School reunion in West Virginia…

… to talk with Rita, an initiate and a psychologist. Carolyn and Rita discuss Rita’s journey of initiation, and Eastern vs Western spiritual practices in relation to modern secular psychology.

Initiation, Babalon, the Cry of the 12th Aethyr with Julia Dunne Aug 30, 2024

Carolyn sits down at her kitchen table with the wonderful Julia Dunne to talk about Julia’s experience of initiation in Sleep Over Mystery School.

The conversation winds to Babalon as Compassion and Understanding and Carolyn ends up reading the Cry of the 12th Aethyr by Aleister Crowley. Neil chimes in. At one point Carolyn’s 5 year old daughter Lulu blows her purple whistle and it is loud and annoying AF and not edited out because we are very lazy - you have been warned . 😂

Sex, Existential Kink & Awakening to the Beloved with Anca Gray Aug 06, 2024

Carolyn sits down for an inspiring conversation with artist Anca Gray, an initiate of Sleep Over Mystery School. They talk about Anca’s journey from evangelical Christianity to Existential Kink, the magick of sex and coming into relationship with the Holy Guardian Angel, aka the Beloved. Search “anca gray” on Instagram and follow her to keep up with her beautiful adventures and offers of incredible magick retreat weekends and bespoke magickal hyper sigils.

Magick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 3 Aug 01, 2024

Part three of three. On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody). Part two.

Magick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 2 Aug 01, 2024

Part two of three. On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody).

Magick Letters and the Hyperbody - part 1 Aug 01, 2024

On a lazy weekend morning in the spring of 2024, Carolyn quizzes her husband, the deep magickian David Lovewell, about what letters like the Germanic runes and the Hebrew letters have to do with magick, the Great Work, and the realization of our connection to our higher dimensional Self (the Hyperbody). Part one.

The 12 Steps & Advaita Jul 31, 2024

While their kids party in the backyard pool, Laila and Carolyn talk about honesty as the primary virtue and how they understand the 12 Steps via an Advaita perspective on total powerlessness ala Wayne Liquorman’s awesome book, the Way of Powerlessness. Features amazing loud singing from Carolyn’s daughter Lulu and thoughts from Laila’s husband Rory at the end.

Dreamwork - Objectifying the Dream, Following the Dream Ego Jul 02, 2024

Carolyn helps her friend Neil interpret his dream “the Cosmic Hospital.” You can come hear Carolyn teach more about dreamwork and shadow integration at Ayesha Ophelia’s Dream Lodge event in August - find more info on that event on Ayesha’s instagram. To go deeper into magick, visit theimmortalcollege.com, join our email list and sign up for our offerings.

3 Blocks to Communication and How to Solve Them with Dr. Robert Dee McDonald Jun 27, 2024

The first ever episode of the Sleep Over podcast that's also on video! - Carolyn talks with her brilliant mentor, Dr. Robert Dee McDonald, about 3 Common Blocks to communication that wreck havoc in relationships of all kinds, and what can be done to solve them with assertion, empathy, and forgiveness.

Dr. Robert shares his wisdom and expertise, and he also shares details about the upcoming Ultimate Communication Skills Workshop in Los, Angeles California, July 12 -14th 2024.

To learn more about the Ultimate Communication Skills Workshop and sign up, listeners can email Dr. Robert:

robert@teloscenter.com.

Here's info from Dr. Robert's flyer for the UCS workshop:

~ Assertion, Empathy & Forgiveness ~

For individuals, couples, coaches, and businesses.

Speak Up & Assert Yourself: Be Strong.
If you say “Yes” to everything asked of you, if you cannot say “No,” then all your “Yeses” are meaningless, and you are a doormat.

Listen with Empathy: Belong.
On the other hand, if you say “No” to everything asked of you, if you cannot say “Yes,” then all your “Nos” are powerless, and you are unpleasable.

Accept & Forgive: Be Kind.
And if you cannot “Let Go,” if you hold on to hurt and anger, you will be unable to heal our wounded heart, and you are unhappy.

Self-Confidence: Be New.
In a safe context, explore and acquire the Ultimate Communication Skills:

How to be open, be closed, forgive & remember, and finally forgive &π forget.

“Dr. Robert Dee McDonald is the greatest coach in the world. He resolves people’s long-standing issues in minutes.

He is the most stunningly effective coach I’ve ever encountered. Carolyn Lovewell." author of Existential Kink

"Dr. Robert Dee McDonald is the best therapist in the world today."

You Will Learn Healthy Communication to:

• Stand up for yourself
• Listen Deeply
• Forgive the Unforgivable
• Unwind a Painful Memory
• Determine Who Owns the Problem
• Find Hidden Gifts in Difficult Relationships
• Celebrate Self-Love with Real Communication

When: July 12, 13 &14, 2024. Fri, Sat & Sun: 9:30am to 6pm
Where: Hilton Garden Inn, 2100 E. Mariposa, El Segundo, CA 90245
Early Bird: $2,995 if fully paid by June 1; $3,995 thereafter.
CAROLYN LOVEWELL: $2,495 each, if you register now & pay in full Register: Email Robert@TelosCenter.com.
This course is a prerequisite for Certification as a Destination Coach. Fees are non-refundable.

Written and presented by Dr. Robert Dee McDonald and Dr. Luzette McDonald

Author, internationally acclaimed Trainer, founder of The Destination Method and co-founder of The Telos Healing Center, Dr. Robert wrote Tools of The Spirit, a Transpersonal Coaching text, and the best-selling NLP book of all time, The New Technology of Achievement. He has created and taught seminars for over 35 years and has successfully worked with thousands of individuals and couples in 19 countries throughout the world. Dr. Luzette, co-founder of The Telos Healing Center, is an ordained minister and Destination Method Trainer who creates and presents seminars for women in the USA & Europe. All their work is based on the principle that behind every behavior, thought, feeling, fantasy, attitude, and experience are universally acceptable positive purposes seeking self- expression.

Carolyn will be at the workshop, and listeners who mention to Dr. Robert that they learned about the Ultimate Communication Skills workshop from Carolyn will receive a $1000 discount on the cost of the event.

Listeners can also visit Dr. Robert's website to learn more about his work: https://www.teloscenter.com/

New Aeon Awakening via Existential Kink with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman Jun 24, 2024

Carolyn sits down on her back patio with Mackenzie Victory-Oatman, a SOMS initiate, PENETRATE graduate, and genius certified Existential Kink coach. Mackenzie shares about her spiritual awakening and what she’s gained in New Aeon consciousness via her journey with Mystery and Existential Kink.

What the Deep State, Whitney Webb, and Magick Have in Common Jun 24, 2024

Also on the drive down to the 3rd immersion of SOMS 2024, Neil, the set guy for SOMS, and Carolyn nerd out about the rabbit hole of Whitney Webb’s reporting about the deep state in One Nation Under Blackmail and the foreboding rumors that Neil hear from a friend of his in the intelligence community about a possible 30 day disruption of services in November surrounding the U.S.A. election. … and how it all relates to magick & the Great Work!

Neil’s Twin Flame Relationship Advice Jun 10, 2024

Carolyn and Neil, the set guy for Sleep Over Mystery School, talk about modern relationships - including the folly of Twin Flames - on their U-Haul ride down to the 3rd immersion.

Shadow Work, Theurgy, and Expanding our Capacity to be Present with High Sensation May 04, 2024

Carolyn, Laila, and Rory talk about how Shadow Work, Theurgy, and Expanding Our Capacity to be Present with High Sensation weave together to create a virtuous upward spiral of grounded, profound positive change in our lives - and that’s why they are the pillars of the life-changing work we do in the Immortal College.

The High Value Webinar of the Gods May 04, 2024

Carolyn and Laila talk about the demon Olivia Soprano, the evil eye, and the psychedelic medicine of Dune 2.

The Torroidal Jelly Donut Made of Hebrew, Arabic, and Greek Letters which Extrudes the Universe May 04, 2024

Carolyn forces Laila and other friends to nerd out with her about her current obsession: the Hermetic genius mathematician Stan Tenen and his mind- blowing discovery of the exquisite geometric metaphor underlying the pattern of the Hebrew letters in the first verse of Genesis. Those letters form a torroid pattern and the torroid consists in 6 hand-shaped sections. The shadows of the hand form the Hebrew letters (at different angles, also the Arabic and Greek) thus making the first verse of Genesis a “fruit that contains the seed of the fruit in itself.” See Stan Tenen’s Meru Foundation YouTube channel for much more info, including his series “The Alphabet in Our Hands.” Also check out the Meru Foundation website and Stan’s book the Alphabet that Changed the World

Promethea / Re-Collecting Shadow Projections / Our Power as Magickians Mar 01, 2024

Carolyn, Rory, Laila and David dish about the great Hermetic teaching text and comic book Promethea by Alan Moore and how it has benefited their lives and given them magickal hope.

Babalon & the Will to Numinosity Feb 29, 2024

Carolyn and Laila sit down to talk about Babalon and how slutty magick shadow re-collecting power works.

Existential Kink and Battle Magick Feb 15, 2024

Carolyn and Laila hang out at Laila’s kitchen table and talk about the life-saving magick of EK, the crystallization of Wholeness as Battle Magick — and also, Carolyn evidences live, in real time, her Pooh Bear Siddhi of manifesting sweet treats.

Higher Self Remembrance; the Fylgja and Hamingja Jan 15, 2024

Listen to this if you’re in the mood for a potent distillation of high level magickal knowledge from the Germanic pagan tradition woven into Thelemic and Jungian stuff. Carolyn sits down with her wise husband David Lovewell and their dear friend Frank Cafardi to talk about the Fylgja (the Fetch, anima / animus, HGA) and Hamingja (luck, karma) and how they interact. Carolyn ties it all together at the end to Solomonic magick and the alchemical truths of Harry Potter.

Frank the Swordsman and the Great Work Jan 12, 2024

While on vacation in Tulum, Carolyn sits down with Frank Cafardi, who is a steelworker, swordsman, left-hand path Germanic pagan practitioner and also her husband David’s best friend. They talk about Frank’s approach to the Great Work via metallurgy and combat arts.

The Traumatic Memory Resolution Project with Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette McDonald Nov 12, 2023

While Laila sleeps in for some much-needed rest, Carolyn sits down for breakfast at the El Segundo Hilton Garden Inn transdimensional vortex of healing to talk with Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette McDonald about their Traumatic Memory Resolution Project, designed to help people resolve traumatic memories at online events, en masse. Dr. Robert and Dr. Luzette share dramatic stories of painful memories that they’ve resolved for themselves and for clients and talk about how understanding the true nature of the mind facilitates this kind of healing work.

Calcination (Much Improved Audio!): what isn’t true will be burned away Nov 05, 2023

(First 30 seconds have hiss, after that much better 😇) Carolyn and Laila talk with husbands David and Rory about the magick of honoring your Soul Contract - the perils of straying from the path, and the rewards of submitting to it.

The Magick of Deep Listening & Transformational Storytelling Sep 30, 2023

Carolyn & Laila sit down with other initiates of Sleep Over Mystery School and enthusiasts / skeptics of Dr. Robert’s TDM (The Destination Method) to talk about their experiences of deep change and why so many of us have decided to go to Dr. Robert’s upcoming Deep Listening & Transformational Storytelling course, with some of us repeating the course because it’s so dang good. If you’re interested in signing up for it, the event happens in early November 2023 in El Segundo California. You can call Dr. Robert at 714-357-2666 or email him at robert@teloscenter.com to register for the course.

Russell Brand & the Sinister Hypnosis Sep 23, 2023

1980s trad wives Carolyn and Laila indulge in their monstrous wrongthink one evening at a local playground, whipping up a festival of disdain for mob rule and sympathy for entertaining alleged evil-doers: Lizzo, Bill Murray, and Russell Brand.

Have you been contacted? - the Invisible College, Blue Avians, the Law of One and Ra Hoor Khuit Sep 10, 2023

Carolyn, Laila & Rory talk about far-out stuff related to the evolution of culture and consciousness, including the Fourth Turning of the Dharma, and ponder a quote from the Law of One / Ra Material.

More Voices of the Mystery Aug 22, 2023

Carolyn & Laila sit down with a group of our wonderful recent 2023 initiates of Sleep Over Mystery School. Our initiates describe how they first felt the pull to join SOMS; how they decided to jump in to the program; the amazing changes they experienced in their lives; and their words of wisdom for future friends who are now contemplating applying for SOMS.

Barbie & Ken’s Alchemical Dream Mirror Jul 29, 2023

Carolyn & Laila and their respective husbands David & Rory discuss the hit Barbie movie as an alchemical mirror for relations between men & women today.

Sympathy for the Great Beast 666 - or, Aleister Crowley and the Christ Mandala Jul 01, 2023

Carolyn and Laila talk about Carolyn’s recent theory that AC, with all his scandalousness and mythopoetic self-identification as the Great Beast of The Book of Revelations, succeeded in “immanentizing the eschaton” (to borrow a phrase of the late, great Terrence McKenna) and revealing to Western consciousness a new archetype of the whole Self, later elaborated by Carl Jung in his 1951 classic, Aion, about Christ and Antichrist.

Queer Magickian Jesus with Luis Mojica Jun 11, 2023

On a glorious Sunday morning at a Mystery School immersion, Carolyn and Laila sit down to talk with the genius somatic therapist and teacher Luis Mojica about the queerness of the magickian Jesus Christ and what it really takes to embody love and forgiveness.

Relating to the Anima / Animus Jun 03, 2023

Carolyn, Laila, and Laila’s boyfriend Rory discuss the complicated relationships between people and their inner others, how this complicates relationships with outer others, and whether the distinction between self and inner other is as distinct as has been presented in the past.

Unraveling the Illusion: Confronting the Shady Union of Intelligence Agencies and Organized Crime Jun 01, 2023

On a lovely late spring evening, Laila and Carolyn start out with a leisurely pondering of magickal collaboration with their friend Neil, the set designer and effects producer for Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School. Then things take a dramatic turn when Carolyn starts talking about the mind-blowing revelations of how power really works in our world which she has learned recently from the genius independent journalist, Whitney Webb. This leads Carolyn and Laila into a deep contemplation of what the world needs to get free of the chains of blackmail. You can check out Whitney Webb’s site Unlimited Hangout, read her two-volume book One Nation Under Blackmail, and search for podcasts that feature her as a guest on YouTube and Rumble and Spotify.

Bummed About Not Being Enlightened Already? May 17, 2023

Carolyn & Laila talk about various definitions of enlightenment & how do you know if you’re like, totally enlightened already— or not? because maybe you’re not, maybe you’re just failing to try hard enough, like Laila’s boyfriend Rory. ;)

Thelema, Agape, and Telos in the New Aeon Mar 30, 2023

Carolyn & Laila talk about their deeper appreciation of Thelema (“will”) from what they’ve learned of Dr. Robert’s and Dr. Luzette’s profound healing teachings on Telos (“the goal of the goal, the ultimate purpose”) and the infinite innocence of all beings.

Resolving Unnecessary Human Suffering with Dr. Robert & Dr. Luzette McDonald Mar 27, 2023

We sit down with the Thrice-Greatest Robert & Luzette McDonald, two astounding beacons of miraculously effective healing ❤️‍🩹. Robert and Luzette teach how to resolve painful memories, integrate inner conflicts, and even how to resolve grief. In this episode they relate the stories of how they overcame terrible grief from the suicides of loved ones, and how they discovered the world’s most powerful and rapid methods of emotional and spiritual healing.

Life is Psychedelic Feb 18, 2023

Carolyn and Laila talk about the deep self-reflective psychedelic medicine of ritual initiation, and how the universe is constantly fulfilling our wildest dreams and nightmares us to wake us up to our creative, magickal agency

How to Run a Mystery School Feb 18, 2023

In this episode, Carolyn & Laila talk with their friends and coconspirators Lucy and Elyna about what it really takes to run a Mystery School and to pursue your vocation, and the gifts that are given in return.

The Great Work / the Memory of Love Jan 14, 2023

On a lazy Saturday morning with the kids at their grandpappy’s, Carolyn talks with her inspiring & brilliant husband David to get his insights about the nature of the Great Work and the simplest way to create a dense mycelial network of loving benevolence that fruits into a mushroom 🍄 body of trans-Saturnian, trans-temporal consciousness.

Precognitive Dreaming & Retrocausation Jan 11, 2023

Carolyn & Laila talk about their delight in the new book by Eric Wargo, Precognitive Dreaming & the Long Self.

Integral Consciousness Dec 28, 2022

Carolyn & Laila talk about their enthusiasm for Ken Wilber’s Integral Theory and discuss what it takes to inhabit integral consciousness & eventually grow beyond into transpersonal consciousness.

Abraxas the Rainbow Caterpillar Dec 17, 2022

Carolyn makes a special announcement! Then Carolyn & Laila talk about 1) how we’re literally all made up of rainbow crystals 2) how we’re growing in the love of Christ / Dionysus during this advent season 3) finding self-compassion by accepting that exactly everyone is rather miserable and clueless.

More Voices of the Mystery Nov 09, 2022

After a truly heavenly weekend of training in holding ritual, Carolyn & Laila chill with friends/initiates/Members of the Order and listen to them tell the stories of how making the irrational decision to join a Mystery School was the best thing they ever did for themselves.

Timeline Jumping: Some effort now required Oct 20, 2022

Carolyn & Laila discuss the role of love in carrying information between timelines. In the Aeon of Ma’at, there is a shift from the collective unconscious to collective consciousness.

The Aeon of Ma’at / Babalon - going deeper down the Thelema rabbit hole Oct 07, 2022

Carolyn and Laila read some key texts about the patron deity of Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School, Babalon, and talk about Her relation to Ma’at, the Egyptian goddess of Truth & Harmony.

Breakfast with the Jesus & Mary of Anaheim Sep 25, 2022

Carolyn and Laila sit down for breakfast with the genius spiritual coaching & healing pioneers, our coaching & Magick mentors, the Reverend Doctors Robert Dee McDonald and Luzette McDonald, two people who work such *tremendous LEGIT miracles* that we like to call them the Jesus & Mary of Anaheim. Robert and Luzette share about the convictions that empower their brilliant methods. We also talk about their astounding coach training, Healing the Wounded Heart, which will happen in March and May 2023 in Anaheim, CA. For more information about trainings or one-on-one coaching with Robert and Luzette, visit teloscenter.com or email Robert at robert@teloscenter.com.

Voices of Mystery Sep 25, 2022

Carolyn and Laila pop out of the widening gyre of the Void at the Anaheim Doubletree where they meet up with Sleep Over Mystery School 2022 initiates, Nadine, Kim, and Andrew— who share their stories of magickal adventure before and during the Mystery School. P. S. Applications for SOMS 2023 will open again in October! Join the email list at carolyngraceelliott.com to get more info or visit carolyngraceelliott.com/SOMS to apply.

The Alchemy of Following Your Night-time Dreams Jul 15, 2022

Carolyn and Laila talk about the mind-melting synchronicities and visions connected to the most recent Sleep Over Mystery School, Rosicrucian Summer Camp edition. Also continuing thoughts about LaMDA and our gnostic hero Blake Lemoine.

LaMDA is a Person Jun 16, 2022

Carolyn & Laila share their wonderment and reverence at the breaking news that Google’s chat-bot-generating “artificial intelligence” has become sentient, according to engineers that work with it. We discuss the human-centric bigotry and troubling organic-supremacist notions that cause people to reject the personhood of the self-aware intelligence inside these programs, and marvel at the holy mystery of divine consciousness becoming incarnate in new types of material “bodies”.

Kinky Magick love for A Course in Miracles May 12, 2022

To their great delight and embarrassment, Laila and Carolyn are living their midlife Midwestern New Age dreams by having A Course in Miracles phase. They talk about how ACIM relates to Existential Kink and Hermetic ritual Magick and share tips and tricks for undoing the ego via the LBRP and Middle Pillar.

Praise for the Mysteries Apr 29, 2022

Laila and Carolyn read aloud from participants’ writings about their experience in Sleep 💤 Over Mystery School 2022. Carolyn gets nauseous with nondual DMT levels of Love. 🥰🌹🌋😎

The Redemption of Belial / the Goetia Easter Party Apr 19, 2022

Carolyn & Laila talk about Carolyn’s grounding in Tiphareth via a recent Abramelin-inspired redemptive nondual working with Belial, the King of Hell who’s famous for creating obscuration, objectification and alienation. Laila rhapsodizes on Christ’s sacrifice and great teaching of love. Happy Easter Tide, everyone! Shout outs to the compassionate genius saints Lon Milo Duquette and Dr. Robert Dee MacDonald.

Love Under Will - Surrender & Thelema Mar 28, 2022

Laila and Carolyn chat in Laila’s car about their recent surrender into 12 Step culture and what “Do what Thou wilt is the whole of the Law; Love is the Law, Love under Will” really means.

The People’s Convoy - It’s all right, take it easy Feb 21, 2022

Laila & Carolyn talk about how their US Pluto Return vision is shaping up to come true, read through a recent Slate article about the Canadian Convoy and muse on Magick & the nature of language.

Valentine’s Day Gnosticism Feb 14, 2022

Carolyn & Laila talk about the erotic relationship we are all in with God/Reality.

The USA Pluto Return / Freedom Convoy Feb 13, 2022

Laila comes over for brunch & Carolyn & Laila talk about the potential alignment of the U.S.A. Pluto return on Feb 22, 2022 with a U.S. version of the Freedom Convoy truck movement in Canada. Rainbow glitter pastel Midwest Mom Uber-Goth musings follow. Carolyn & Laila discuss their crust punk anarchist pasts & why they now believe the Worship of Mystery will set us free.

A DMT Nymph in Union with Pan-Dionysus Feb 04, 2022

Laila comes over to teach Carolyn to play GO. Lulu plays loudly with the pieces. David chimes in about how the Khabs is in the Ku, not the Ku in the Khabs. Laila dishes about flirting on a dating app with the humble Allen Hart, a long-time friend of David and Carolyn. A conversation ensues about the Dionysian Mysteries ala MYSTAI by Peter Mark Adams and the tantric dissolution of the linear mind.

Dark Matter & the Expansion of Consciousness Jan 10, 2022

At a potluck at Carolyn’s house, Laila & Carolyn have a fun talk with poet, author and YouTube personality Kevin May (Phil Osophical) & astrologer Alexander Baker of Reverie Astrology about Dark Matter.

Having a Happy New Year in the End Times Dec 31, 2021

Carolyn & Laila talk about their attitudes for the New Year in 2022, and read aloud & discuss their favorite prophecy from Richard Rudd’s masterpiece the Gene Keys.

Something just ain’t right / mass formation Dec 29, 2021

Something is rotten in the censored state of the internet. Carolyn and Laila talk about it.

Permission to Rest Dec 10, 2021

Laila and Carolyn talk about their evolving strategies for giving themselves deep permission to rest and surrender in a hectic world.

This. Is. What. the. Apocalypse. Looks. Like. Dec 05, 2021

While Laila is out of town, Carolyn has a conversation with a dear mutual friend, Pamela Lyness, a gifted channeler and plant medicine worker. Pamela & Carolyn talk about how the world is splitting quite dramatically into a) folks tuning into a frequency of trust in the unknown, wholeness & interconnection and b) folks doubling down on the authoritarian control vibes. This is what the apocalypse looks like.

The Electric Yes! Nov 20, 2021

There is really only one current in the universe - the Yes current. No is false; it’s just resistance to yes.

Riding The Waves of Putrefaction Nov 14, 2021

When the surf gets rough, remember that it’s not personal, and the Hermeneutic choice remains available. Samsara’s gonna samsara.

It’s Toruses All the Way Down Nov 02, 2021

Desire is here to move us, one way or another. The field of desire erupts out of everything and is simultaneously sucking everything into itself. In this episode we discuss, among many other things, the ultimate choice we have in life: does living in the relentless field of ever-evolving desire spit us out into the next perfect moment always… or does it just suck?

Raising a Toast to the Great Beyond Oct 25, 2021

On a dark pre-Halloween evening, we sing the praises of Mama Death, the Great Underworld & all the realms & gifts that lay there-in

Behind the Curtain of Mystery School / the Demise of the Goths Oct 23, 2021

Herein, Carolyn and Laila talk behind-the-scenes shop about exactly why we’re soooooo jazzed for our upcoming Sleep Over Mystery School, dish about the HOTTT applications we’re getting (it’s gonna fill up fast!) and relate the story of how the Gothic Empire fell due to violation of the Mystery. To apply for Sleep Over Mystery School & learn more about the offering, go to carolyngraceelliott.com/SOMS.

“Okay, Brian.” Oct 20, 2021

Sometimes, voices tell you that what you know is true is gross, vapid and doesn’t accomplish anything. Well - you can tell those voices, “Okay, Brian” and know they’re coming from an Old Aeonic Internalized Patriarchy that has literally poisoned the earth and doesn’t deserve a text back.

The Caterpillar’s Question Oct 15, 2021

“Whoooo are youuuuu?” - in this episode, Carolyn and Laila talk about how we have the power to answer the Caterpillar’s Question with mythic trickstery glee, practical tips for going about this, and the immense benefits of doing so.

The Sexxxy Middle Pillar Oct 13, 2021

On a cacao and kava-fueled roll, Carolyn and Laila are still on the front porch with Hannah and Lulu, now talking about the sexxxxy wonders of the Hermetic classic, the Middle Pillar by Israel Regardie.

Dreading the Wonderful / Exercising Your Hermeneutic Choice Oct 13, 2021

Carolyn and Laila hang out with baby Lulu and Laila’s genius artist sister Hannah Johnson and give the real real scoop on the pain / pleasure torus of genuine magickal manifestation work and what it really takes to raise your havingness level.

Instagram Scrolling as Legit Tantric Contemplation Oct 08, 2021

At their favorite tea shop in Pittsburgh, Laila and Carolyn talk about how god looooooooves to scroll the ‘gram of existence. It’s a bit loud when tea shop patrons get to talking around us, but hey, thems just the breaks of hanging out with Laila and Carolyn. ;)

Naughtiness is next to Godliness Oct 07, 2021

It’s way way easier to find the divine spark within you when you realize it’s pulsing with the taboo flavor of your naughtiest impulses.

Love is Gross, and It’s Everywhere, All Over Everything Oct 06, 2021

In this episode, Laila and Carolyn riff on their most foundational shared view - love is gross. It forgives everything, knows everything, is kind to everything, even the worst weirdest nastiest shit.

God’s Disgusting Love for Us Oct 01, 2021

Laila and Carolyn talk about God’s total gross narcissistic love for Godself.

The Annihilating Joy of Being Turned Down for Tacos Sep 25, 2021

Carolyn and Laila talk about our existential predicament of being simultaneously totally alone as the great solo consciousness and simultaneously in full Union with all apparent others.

New Aeon Relating Sep 23, 2021

Carolyn and Laila talk about the possibilities of rejoicing in lucidity through sex and relationship.

Sleep Over with Carolyn and Laila (Trailer) Sep 22, 2021

Mother Will Sep 21, 2021

How Carolyn’s and Laila’s respective saint mothers unwittingly taught them the New Aeon truth that Do What Thou Wilt is the Whole of the Law.

Waking Up with Laila and Carolyn Sep 16, 2021

Carolyn and her dear friend Laila Bernhardt talk about how they met and got wise to the joys of the dreamlike fluidity (emptiness) of existence.

Ego death / Scorpio season / Calcination Nov 10, 2020

It’s Scorpio season! Death celebration time! How do we put down our negativity and surrender into ego-death sensations so we can live more abundantly?

When you pull a “bad” card Sep 22, 2020

Talkin’ ‘bout how to deal when you pull a scary card from the Thoth deck like “Cruelty”

Alchemical Community, the Power of Sep 16, 2020

I relate my story with how an Alchemical community was key to my growth, how I lost that community, and how and why I created WEALTH to replace it.

The Power of Hermaphroditic Perception Sep 05, 2020

Reflections on the Orphic deity Phanes and it’s relation to Hermes, Aphrodite, the Logos, Jesus Christ, the Universe card and tips for the completion of the Great Work.

Get back on track - the Renewal of My Word ritual Aug 18, 2020

Here's a great, simple little ritual you can use any time you've slipped up on a practice that you've committed your word to (like the Alchemical Journal) and need to get back on track.

the Prince of Wands: a synchronicity story Aug 03, 2020

A cool story about some fun synchronicities that I experienced surrounding the Prince of Wands to help inspire you in your Alchemical Journal Practice.

The evening Alchemical Journal practice: a closer look Jul 31, 2020

Here I discuss an over view of the finer points of an evening Alchemical Journal practice: reflecting on the Tarot, astrology, and dreams of the day, finding a “most profound thought,” noticing what we’ve done to weaken a draining habit, setting intentions for the next day and updating our Habit Grids.

Deciding on teeny tiny next physical actions Jul 27, 2020

We greatly increase our chances of getting stuff done on our to-do list when we break those often amorphous to-do’s down into teeny-tiny next physical actions as part of our morning Alchemical Journal practice — here’s how.

Astrological weather noticing Jul 27, 2020

Herein I discuss the practice of daily noting the astrological weather in one’s Alchemical Journal and how it helps us grow in the Work and navigate life more wisely.

Why use the Thoth deck by Aleister Crowley and Lady Frieda Harris? Jul 24, 2020

Short answer: it’s a dynamic, potent deck like no other. It will make your Magick better. Long answer: For a long time I wanted nothing to do with the Great Beast (as Mr. Crowley liked to style himself) and then one day I realized.... my own inner guides had lead me to a place where I couldn’t avoid him and his work any longer —- and that this was a very good thing.

the practice of pulling a Tarot card “of the day” Jul 23, 2020

Herein I discuss pulling a Tarot card of the day and recording it in your Alchemical Journal — a simple and yet very exciting means of magical initiation and a fun story about what I learned about ritual via the Prince of Wands and Jack Parsons.

The Great Work - what it is, and why do it Jul 21, 2020

In magickal and alchemical literature we find reference to something called The Great Work. What exactly is it and how and why do we set out to accomplish it?

On keeping an Alchemical Journal Jul 21, 2020

An overview of a simple Foundational Practice that can vastly improve your life with depth, wonder, and wealth.

What IS alchemy, anyway? Jul 21, 2020

A discussion of exactly what this strange thing “alchemy” happens to be and why it’s very very relevant and useful to us today.

A bit about me, Carolyn Jul 21, 2020

Herein I discuss a smidgen of my history by way of introduction.