Death in Cambodia, Life in America

A Final Message, From Me to You. Sep 11, 2022

Season Finale - Farewell to Robert Sep 11, 2022

Robert and I share our last recording together as we close this chapter. We finalize the season by discussing what Robert has learned over the years, how he would have done things differently, and what he hopes everyone will takeaway from this podcast. We discuss topics like revenge, forgiveness, the legacy he hopes to leave behind, lessons of life and so much more.
You can hear me tear up and cry towards the end and I realized this season was coming to a end. What a journey this has been.
The future of this podcast will continue, but for Robert, it is time to say farewell <3
Thank you again to everyone who has listened religiously every Sunday. Please continue to follow us on social media to get the latest updates!
https://www.deathincambodiapodcast.com/

Special Guest - Angela Wu aka The Sassy Asian Therapist Sep 04, 2022

Today we bring on Angela Wu LMFT aka the Sassy Asian Therapist to bring on a professional light on what generational trauma is, and how we can cope with it as second generation asian Americans. We discuss this idea of trying to "fix" our parents as children of refugees, tactics to handle generational trauma, how we can start the conversation of healing with our parents and many more!
Do not miss this episode. This is such a wonderful conversation for second generation Cambodian Americans.
https://www.thesassyasiantherapist.com/

Special Guest - David Edsall Law Aug 28, 2022

David and Robert met when they were both young and starting their their careers. While Robert was building his long train of shops up along highway 99, he met a nice lawyer from Camarillo, CA who was willing to help Robert on reading documents and any legal situations he was in. To this day, David is just a phone call away for any of Robert's legal issues. David has helped him navigate everything from signing on a new store, to maneuvering through the painful lawsuits that Robert has encountered. It was a blessing to have David on to talk about not only his experiences through the lawsuits, but also bring in a 3rd party perspective on what was happening, and what exactly went down with the fall of Golden Bake.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

S2 Epsiode 16: The Fall of Golden Bake Aug 07, 2022

Robert discusses the lowest point in his life in America - when a family member and business partner who he trained from the ground up, stabbed him in the back and pushed him out of his own company. He talks about being depressed, angry, and turning to alcohol to release himself from the pain. Robert felt he spent his whole life working and sacrificing for this company, and only to have it be taken away by greed and jealousy was the twist he never ever expected.
I hope that highlighting this story can help the second generation community do better for ourselves, and learn that the only way for us to move forward as a community is to uplift each other, not tear each other down.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 15: The Growth of Golden Bake Jul 31, 2022

Robert reflects on his past and the different obstacles he faced as he ran 4 different companies at once. We dive into topics like how people viewed him, jealousy, family perceptions and more. He recalls an instance where we attends a wedding where nobody actually knew who he was and he witnessed (and even joined in!) on the gossip about this mysterious man who ran Golden Bake. He remembers the great times, watching this company become the pride and joy of the Cambodian community. Robert then dives into the gigantic issue that he was faced with.
Music by: Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 14: The Rise of Golden Bake Jul 24, 2022

Robert continues to grow B&H in Northern California and ended up doing so well that he surpassed his Southern California counterpart. They had an agreement when they first decided to join together that Robert's territory was Northern California and his friend was Southern. However, the counterpart started getting jealous and crossing into Northern California territory. Robert let it drag on for 9 years until he eventually had to file a lawsuit. It was a sad time to feel like he has to be pushed to do such a thing within his own community. Robert also discusses his health sacrifices and surviving 2 strokes during this building process.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 13: Crabs in a Bucket Mentality Jul 17, 2022

Robert discusses the cultural downfalls of the Cambodian culture that he first realizes when he tries to grow his business. He notices that there is a lack of community and help when he comes to supporting their own Cambodian people, which we call "crabs in a bucket" mentality. Robert does his best to create this community and despite the pushback, continues to move forward and grow the business.
Music By Acerelio Chen

S2 Epsiode 12: The Beginning of B&H Bakery Distributors Jul 10, 2022

Robert and I take it back to discuss how he went from a silent investor to running the Northern California division of B&H Bakery Distributors. Robert believes it was a great idea from the very beginning to supply his own community with the ingredients they needed to run their donut shops. After building the donut shops up along California, Robert already had the donut network he needed to kickstart the supply company. B&H Bakery Distributors being in Northern California while his family still in Southern California meant that he only spent 1 day a week at home. We discuss how his sacrifices and lack of family time has impacted his relationship with the family today.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 11: Church's Fried Chicken and Winchell's Donuts Jul 03, 2022

Robert continued on with his growth mindset and built donut shops until he hit South Lake Tahoe where he lost money due to renting the shops to owners with gambling problems. He then decided that he was going to tackle Church's Fried Chicken when he found out of an opportunity to take over their locations with the idea of potentially turning them into donut shops. Robert goes national with his dreams and even tries to strike a deal. We truly learn that Robert at this point in his life is willing to tackle any challenge that life throws his way. He also tried to tackle Yum Yum Donuts when they tried to sell their locations. We learn about the history of donut shops in California and why some of them may just be Yum Yum Donuts converted to Cambodian donut shops.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 10: "If I have money, I have everything" Jun 26, 2022

Robert scales up the state of California taking 6-8 months at a time building donut shops all along highway 99. Robert backpacks his way just building one shop after the next with no intention of stopping. He has become borderline obsessed with his process of building donut shops. Robert talks about never taking a day off and how the culture he was raised in believed that if he had money, he had everything. Robert reflects on his life and realized how crazy he was to work and think like that.
Music By: Acerelio Chen

Dear Fellow Survivors - A Khmer Message From Robert Jun 19, 2022

Today, I released the video called Dear Fellow Survivors. This video feels like the accumulation of what the podcast represents so far: healing. My goal is and always has been to heal as many remaining survivors as possible, and this video is the kickstart. Todays release is a audio version of Robert's speech, however if you don't understand Khmer, I would recommend to check out the YouTube video that includes english subtitles.
Link to Video: https://youtu.be/cDWius2qyFM

2 Week Intermission - Back on June 19th! May 29, 2022

I will be taking a 2 week intermission from launching episodes to refresh, plan, and manifest the future of this podcast. If you haven't seen, we were on CBS National TV a few weeks ago, and I feel nothing but gratitude for the opportunity to represent the Cambodian American community through this podcast. (still pinching myself!)
Thank you to all the listeners who have followed along since the very start. This is only the beginning for us!
Content will resume June 19, Fathers Day.
Here is the CBS Segment if you want to check it out! https://www.cbsnews.com/video/artist-and-podcaster-describe-the-cambodian-american-refugee-experience/?fbclid=IwAR16Gfi_49tWYy--IRkBtZ6l8QfxrM41HSttQVu2dKKxijGtHqSQ0MbIxzQ

S2 Episode 9: The Gift of the American Dream May 29, 2022

Robert continues to build donut shops throughout California. In this epsiode we talk about Robert's chase towards the American Dream and why he fought so relentlessly towards it. I ask Robert how he has the willpower to keep going, and what his mindset was like as a new refugee in America. This episode was a huge eye opener for me on how refugees look at their life in America as a second chance to life. And how being in a country that allows you to dream, made him feel he had no other option but to chase it.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 8: Climbing the Donut Ladder May 22, 2022

Robert gets back on his feet and builds his first donut shop's sales in just 6 months. Sleeping and breathing the donut shop day in and day out allowed him to pay back all his investors within the first year. Robert LOVES his newfound way to build a good life in America. He brings mama and the whole family from Portland to also work these donut shops. He relentlessly pushes himself to the limit and enjoys the process of building more and more shops for refugees flooding into the country.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Special Guest - "On the Corners of Argyle and Glenwood' May 15, 2022

About 20 years ago, Stuart Isett lived on the corners of Argyle and Glenwood and noticed that many of his fellow neighbors were Cambodian Refugees from the Khmer Rouge. Years later, he put together a photo book called "On the Corners of Argyle and Glenwood' that showcases the Cambodian Refugee experience here in America. He captures the Cambodian youth of the 80's, grandmothers grieving, and families that are simply trying to create a new life from scratch in this new country.
Today we are joined by 3 very important guests - Stuart Isett, Silong Chhun, and Pete Pin who are the collaborators on this very special book. We talk about why Stuart put together this book and what this kind of representation means for the Cambodian community. We even discuss topics such as generational trauma and how we can move forward.
Thank you Stuart, Silong, and Pete for this amazing talk!
To learn more about our honored guests:
Stuart Isett
Website: https://www.isett.com/
Social: https://www.instagram.com/stuartisettphotography/
Silong Chhun
Website: https://www.silongchhun.com/
Social: https://www.instagram.com/thefakesilong/?hl=en
Red Scarf Revolution: https://redscarfrevolution.com/
Pete Pin
Website: https://petepin.com/
Migrations of Memory:https://petepin.com/projects

Special Guest - Bob Burton May 08, 2022

Bob Burton was the real estate commercial agent who helped Robert find his first donut shop ever. Today we with with Bob and recall when he first met Robert and why he felt compelled to help this refugee from Cambodia.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 7: The Robbery May 01, 2022

Robert scrambles to find a way to get 30k through his family and friends to buy his first donut shop. After getting the money... in cash, he marches over to the real estate office and drops off a trash bag of money to purchase the store. Stunning the entire office, Bob Burton asks him if he has a check, while Robert responds he doesn't even have a bank account! Within the first week, Robert also encounters his first instance of being robbed. Tired from the long hours, and sleeping in the back of the shop, Robert relentlessly works to build up the business.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 6: Robert's First Donut Shop Apr 24, 2022

Robert immediately decided that it was time to change his lifestyle and dive headfirst into donut shops. He left his company and volunteered to watch over his uncles financials. After working there for about 6 months, he decides he wants to have his own. Robert gets really close with a regular customer named Bob Burton, who happens to be a commercial real esate broker. Together they find Robert's first donut shop. It was the most exciting time of Robert's life so far.
Music By Acerelio Chen

S2 Episode 5: "Don't EVER Run Donut Shops" Apr 17, 2022

In this epsiode, Robert found work in LA and starts to make some friends in this new city. He would be out drinking, and living for the weekends as most 20's somethings do. One day he decides to visit his auntie about 30 minutes away from town. Since arriving to their front doorstep, he was treated with disrespect and looked down upon. Without even being offered dinner in their howe, he felt unwelcome and left early. He left that home with a new found passion to improve his life. He brushed off his dirty shirt, wiped his tears, and vowed to get his life together so he would never feel that way again.
The last words the auntie told him was "Don't EVER run donut shops".
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 4: Im Moving to California Apr 10, 2022

In this epsiode we follow Robert and his push to master the English language. He noticed immediately that without the language, you would not be able to get a good job other than a farmer or a janitor. He also started to make American friends who showed him the culture in America. Robert enjoyed the independent way of life because he truly felt it was similar to his natural independent nature. After earning his AA degree, and not getting any job prospects that he wanted, he decided to make a drastic move to change his life and experience a big city. He packed his bags, took $20 for gas..and moved to LA.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 3: Robert's First Crush Apr 03, 2022

Robert has now started to learn more about how different life is like in America. I starts to learn that here in this country, people who work hard regardless of social status and birthright, can be successful. The family also decides that is probably best to move somewhere closer to a stronger Cambodian community, so they move to Portland Oregon. There, Robert was able to make friends and start going to community college to study english. For the first time, Robert is able to plan out his future, and not just survive life, but LIVE it.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 2: The Bike from the Trash Mar 27, 2022

Robert starts to assimilate into America and gets his first job picking berries in the fields. Later, he gets a job as a janitor in JefCo. Since there was no transportation to and from work, he got to work by walking miles. One day, Robert found a broken bike behind a trashcan. Excited, he takes it home, asks Bill Hoffman his sponsor to get him new wheels.. and BOOM, his first mode of transportation. In the meantime, Robert's family makes ends meet by saving money and eating chicken butt from the 7/11 down the street. The family starts to consider moving closer to a Cambodian community in Portland Oregon.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

S2 Episode 1: Bill Hoffman Mar 20, 2022

Robert arrives and lands in Portland Oregon in the middle of the night. He has absolutely no idea what his sponsor looks like, and gets lost in the airport. He ends up sleeping next to his gate until a janitor wakes him up. Bill Hoffman finally picks him up, and he drives him to his house. Robert spends his first night in America and experiences an American breakfast for the first time.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Welcome to Season 2 Mar 20, 2022

Welcome to Season 2! Here are my goals for this new chapter of the podcast. We will be discussing the following topics:

What was the refugee experience like?
The process of how Robert obsessed over his American Dream
Why was Robert so successful? What did he fail at?
The rise and fall of Golden Bake Food Products
What is generational trauma? How has the khmer rouge effected second and third generations beyond?
What do we need to do to improve and heal our community?

Special Guest - Ken Swann Mar 13, 2022

Ken Swann was a Field Representative for the IRC, was on the field working directly with the refugees in the main refugee camps. His job consisted of helping transport doctors and nurses to the correct camps, run errands for medical staff, and towards the end helped compiled the "Unaccompanied Minor Handbook" which helped reconnect kids with their parents in the camps. His work was incredibly valuable in saving the lives of refugees, and in this episode he shares what he witnessed during those 2 years.
Ken has recommended the following reading list for our listeners to learn more:

"Cambodia Year Zero", by Francois Ponchaud
"Sideshow: Kissinger, Nixon, and the Destruction of Cambodia" by William Shawcross
"Brother Number One: A Political Biography of Pol Pot", by David Chandler
"The Tragedy of Cambodian History", by David Chandler
"Facing the Cambodian Past", by David Chandler
"Cambodia's Curse; The Modern History of a Troubled Land", by Joel Brinkley

Special Guest - John Burgess Mar 06, 2022

John was a stringer for the Time Magazine and Washington post from 1979-1980’s, covering on the ground exactly what was happening in these Cambodian refugee camps. He has had first hand experience and was on the grounds of the camps, witnessing everything going on from starving people marching out the forests, to being there the day of First Lady Carter Visit in November 1979. I couldn't pass up the opportunity to pick his brain and give all the listeners an inside scoop on what his experience was like.
In this episode we cover the following topics:

What was a day-in-the-life of a stringer (journalist) during that time?
Did he feel resistance against journalists who were trying to share what was going on?
What were the dynamics between Thais, UN organizations, and refugees?
What did he witness at the camps?
What was the impact of First Lady Carter's visit to Cambodia?
What did he learn from the experience?

John is also the author of 5 Khmer books. You may find his full library of works at:
www. john-burgess.net

John Burgess Washington Post Articles from 1979-1980:
https://www.washingtonpost.com/archive/politics/1980/01/13/feuding-armed-factions-hurt-cambodian-relief-efforts/854c4c76-75f0-49e0-a01b-66f130a86e8e/

https://www.washingtonpost.com/archive/politics/1979/10/11/new-khmer-flight-to-thailand-begins/0926d22a-2bc0-4c39-a90f-19bdeb426047/

https://www.washingtonpost.com/archive/politics/1979/10/30/struggle-to-save-lives-of-refugees-frequently-fails/0f32dd1d-3048-4322-9ef8-6bb8284c3bb4/

https://www.washingtonpost.com/archive/politics/1979/10/24/a-futile-dash-with-a-dying-boy/ebf38e3b-4907-46e9-96fb-350b3d7f2d35/

Unscripted: The Power of Storytelling Jan 20, 2022

Unscripted: The Power of Storytelling
This episode was captured as I secretly pressed the record button during a talk I had with my dad about how he felt the podcast has impacted him. Sometimes when my dad knows he's being recorded, he tenses up. But this talk was just us two chatting about how he truly felt. I am so glad I captured this piece, and wanted to share with you all. We talk about:

How support from the community feels?
Why do we need to get more people to share their stories? Support groups etc
How much release he feels after sharing his story?
How is the Cambodia portion different from America?
What future generations should learn?

Season 2 will be launching February 13.

Episode 27: Season Finale - Reborn (America Here I Come) Jan 16, 2022

Robert spends his last several days at Longpenny camp in Bangkok dreaming about his future in the new land. He learned that he was sponsored by a man in Portland Oregon, and he was going to be the first of the family to head to America. Everyone was handed a plastic bag with their refugee paperwork. Robert learned that toilets in America were meant to be sat on, and water inside was not meant for drinking. He left his home country, stepped on the plane, and never looked back.
America... Here I Come.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 26: Preparation for America Jan 09, 2022

Robert takes this beautiful greyhound bus to a camp called Longpenny in Bangkok Thailand. This camp is filled with a bunch of refugees who are specifically dedicated to fly to America. Everyone here is very excited for their new lives. Here is where Robert and the family register, take photos, and finalize paperwork being heading to America. Robert remembers feeling so much hope for this future, fully believing that his days of hell are finally behind him.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 25: Life in Nong Chan and Preah Vihear Jan 02, 2022

Robert finally reunited with the rest of the family and lives life in Nong Chan. People start gossiping about which country they are going to go to, and dreaming about life after this camp. Red Cross and other humanitarian organizations come to the camp to take pictures, news reporters from all over the world are documenting what is happening. One day, there were about 10 buses that came to pick up their first group of people to transfer to Bangkok, an American camp. Robert barely makes it on the bus, and later finds out what dreadful events happened after he left..
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Special Guest - Aunt Amanda The Escape Dec 29, 2021

This epsiode we will travel back in time and see how Amanda and the rest of the family escaped after Robert had made it alive in Thailand. After the family learns about the axe coming back - proving there is an escape route out of Cambodia, Amanda runs back to grab Mama to get the whole family together and out.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 24: Human Trafficking and Rape in Nong Chan Camp Dec 19, 2021

Robert has arrived to Nong Chan camp and is one of the first 30 refugees in this Thai camp. Prior to the Red Cross and humanitarian organizations, children specifically girls were preyed on for human trafficking, rape, and prostitution. Without the regulation of other orgs, the refugees were taken advantage of. This was absolutely terrible as Robert witness girls taken away. Imagine, people just finally escaping the jungles and crossing to the Thai border, only to have their own children targeted for human trafficking?? Robert even had to hide one of the girls in his group to protect her from these horrific soldiers. These are the silent stories that aren't told. It was a sad sad time the first 3 weeks of these refugee camps.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Musical Experience - In the Jungles of Thailand Dec 16, 2021

OPTIONAL LISTEN
All the music used on this podcast is originally produced and composed by a creative soul in our family. He composed a small snippet that accompanies the scene of Robert's group finding their way through the jungles of Thailand. Completely optional, but hopefully this can add a soundtrack that will contribute to your overall experience as you listen to Robert's story.

Episode 23: Khmer Rouge Slaves to Thai Prisoners Dec 12, 2021

Roberts group of escapees follow the roosters crow and creep towards what seem to be a village. They create the plan and Robert leads the pack in. What they found is a quaint Thai village and stumbled upon some locals who immediately assume this group are Khmer Rouge soldiers. Because of this lack of trust, Robert's group is thrown into jail and tortured to get information. Yes they are in Thailand, but as Thai prisoners.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 22: Trailblazing the Thai Jungle Dec 05, 2021

Robert’s group of 5 walk towards the forest and follows their leader. They all agree to never let this guy out their sight, it fear that he would take the money and run. About 1/3 of their way into the forest, they encounter a massive storm. This rainstorm, ended up saving the groups lives. They end up getting lost and encounter dangerous animals and lack of food and direction.

Growing up, my father always shared small snippets of this story. I was captivated and it was a major spark of curiosity that led me to the creation of the podcast today.

Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 21: Chuy's Axe Nov 28, 2021

The Vietnamese have officially taken over the country, and everyone is flooding the Thai border in hope to get out of the country. The street is not opening, and people are starting to consider walking through the dangerous forest to reach Thailand. There are lots of criminals who took advantage of this demand, leading people into the forest to be stranded. Robert finds a trustworthy guy, gets a group together and takes the risk of walking through the forest.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 20: The White Flag Nov 21, 2021

Robert reunites with the family but understands that there is just not enough food to stay on the side of the road forever. Robert gets a group together and they all decide to walk towards Nimitt to pick up scraps left after the massacre. At the time, the Vietnamese soldiers were still fighting the Khmer Rouge. Since there was no food left, Robert sees a warehouse storage in the middle of the battlegrounds, and decides to raid it. While doing so, he gets stuck in the middle of active fire.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 19: The Massacre at Nimitt Nov 14, 2021

Episode 19 - The Massacre at Nimitt
The majority of the Khmer Rouge soldiers are now back at their “home base”, in the jungles between Thailand and Cambodia, which happens to be where more and more refugees are trying to cross in order to escape their country. There are a few Vietnamese soldiers are guarding the town of Nimitt, however not enough to truly protect the thousands of people who are flooding to the border. One night, the Vietnamese soldiers pulled out from the town, allowing the Khmer Rouge soldiers to raid the city and attack. Thousands of people were murdered, as the Khmer Rouge wanted to kill anyone in sight. They pushed all the refugees back so far back, it felt they were back at square one. These are the parts of history that people don’t hear about. These are the untold truths.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 18: The Road to the Thai Border Nov 07, 2021

Epsiode 18: The war is upon us, and Robert makes the decision that he needs to escape to the Thailand border. The Khmer Rouge soldiers seems to be gone, leaving it wide open for people to leave as they please! He keeps walking and starts realizing that many people are trying to cross the border. He is so hungry and meets a nice family that offers to be with him and share food since he is alone. Robert still has not found any of his family members, but at this point, the goal is to get out of Cambodia ASAP. He reaches a town called Nimitt, right before the Thai border, and is met by Vietnamese soldiers.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 17: Vietnamese Invasion 1978 Oct 31, 2021

Episode 17 - Vietnamese Invasion 1978

Robert starts hearing more and more bombs in the distance. All the people in these labor camps had no idea who was bombing who - but they did know they have been waiting for a change for the past 3.5 years. People know that something different is happening, which is exciting. As the Khmer Rouge soldiers get more scared of the situation, they kill more people in a last attempt to feel powerful. Over time, less and less Khmer Rouge guards seem to be around. Robert waits for the right moment to make a move.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 16: The Best Day of His Life Oct 24, 2021

Episode 16 - The Best Day in His Life

While Robert is being fed at another camp location under a new leader, Robert runs into a familiar face who also recognizes him. He is a distant relative who was lucky enough to marry a Khmer Rouge solider - therefore has protection. He secretly tells Robert to come meet him at his place to get more food and medication that he would need to stay alive. Robert figures out a way to meet him and this uncle gives him a bunch of food and antibiotics. For the first time in Robert’s life, he feels a sense of security. It was the best day of his life during the 3.5 years with the Khmer Rouge.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Mini Episode - A Mother's Love Oct 17, 2021

Mama has become such a powerful character in our story, that it wouldn't feel right to not officially introduce her. In this epsiode we will learn more about where she was born, how she grew up, and a small clip of Auntie Amanda recalling her mother's strength.
RIP Mama, we miss you and love you dearly.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 15: Palm Sugar Rub Oct 10, 2021

Episode 15: Robert leaves the hospital and gets an assignment to pick up herbs close to where Mama’s camp was. He made the executive decision to use this opportunity to visit Mama, regardless of the risk. At this point he has slowly started to loose hope that there were going to be future chances for him to see his mom. While he was with Mama, she secretly rubbed some sugar on his body so he would be able to have some sustenance. He slowly gains his energy back, and with new energy comes a new found motivation to figure out how exactly he can gain trust of the Khmer Rouge soldiers.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 14: The Guardian Angel Oct 03, 2021

Episode 14: The Guardian Angel - Robert has been back at this camp for over 3 months, and again had now gotten really sick from eating rats. He is extremely weak and is sent to another hospital where he is basically to rest until he dies. He gets weaker and weaker, with no hope in sight. For the first time in all this suffering, he says he lost all hope. He is 100% sure that this is where he is to die. Then one day sitting under a tree waiting for death, he is recognized by a familiar face… that changes the course for Robert forever.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 13: Straight From HELL Sep 12, 2021

Episode 13: Straight From Hell - Robert has now safely assimilated back into this original camp, away from Mama and Auntie Amanda. He describes how women were forcibly married to Khmer Rouge soldiers, the many holes he had to dig for people who were killed, and the more horrific time he experienced in the camp. He remembers a group who had tried to escape and got caught in the process. The consequences were gory and indescribable. All the while, the laborers are getting less and less and less.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 12: Please Tell Me What I Did Wrong.. Sep 05, 2021

Robert is walking back into the first labor camp when he meets an old friend who gives him a banana. He has accepted that he may never see his family again and that his was his life moving forward. He has arrived to the labor camp that we was originally sent to, and has safely integrated back. He remembers one night when a bedside friend was pulled out and beat to death.. Robert couldn't sleep that night thinking when it was his turn.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 11: The Greatest Pain of All Aug 29, 2021

Robert enjoys his time with Mama and Auntie Amanda in hiding, and finally starts to feel like he has a sense of family again. His health also starts to improve as he gets more rest. Through it all, he still feels that this kind of luck in dodging the Khmer Rouge in this camp isn't going to last forever. Robert makes the very important that was pivotal in saving his family's life..
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 10: The "Hospital" P.2 - Deep Dive Aug 22, 2021

After recording last weeks episode, I realized that I wanted to spend a little more time diving into that creepy hospital! I mean seriously, I couldn't even begin to imagine a place like that! We take a step back and go day by day. In this episode, Robert opens up more about exactly what he experienced and saw, and my goodness... If you like scary movies, you definitely want to tune into this one.

Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 9: The "Hospital" and the Duck Aug 15, 2021

Robert is sick with asthma and can't continue working, so the Khmer Rouge solider send him away to a local "hospital". On his way there he almost passed out of weakness, and when he finally got to his destination, the hospital wasn't as he imagined. He was tested to his limits, and had some of the most painful experiences here. He makes another very important decision and ends up finding his way back to Mama for the first time in a long time.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 8: Life in the Jungle Aug 08, 2021

Episode 8: Poison and Life in the Jungle– Robert continues to work and hunt for food whenever he can. One day, another guy in his group accidentally ate a bunch of poisonous berries out of deep starvation. He immediately became sick and Robert and some other group members needs to deal with the situation. Life in the jungle was so hard that Robert truly started to question his will to live.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 7: Deadly Malaria Aug 01, 2021

Episode 7: Deadly Malaria– Because Robert was set in a labor camp in the middle of the jungle, there were many workers that not only died of starvation and overworking, but also sicknesses like Malaria. Robert pulls a memory stuck deep in his past about one of the guys who slept next to him during this time at this labor camp. It was a sad night and he was left to make an important decision to help this friend. This is one of the most important episodes on this podcast.
Warning: Get Tissues.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Episode 6: Separate the Kids Jul 25, 2021

Episode 6: Separate the Kids – Robert gets separated from his family and starts walking towards an unknown destination. On the way, the Khmer Rouge pulls other kids to join. They finally arrive to a new camp that is close to the Thai Border. He planted rice fields by himself, and was constantly tired and hungry. Every night before going to bed, there was a meeting by the Khmer Rouge that enforces control over the people. Every morning they woke you up as they pleased and forced you to work. He felt like a prisoner.
Music Written By: Acerylio Chen

Special Guest - Aunt Amanda P.1 Jul 18, 2021

My aunt Amanda had a very different experience during the Khmer Rouge. She was hidden by my grandmother in fear of being taken away, therefore most of her time was spent in hiding. She talks about how life was like in the camps back where grandma was, and how grandma did what she had to do to keep her alive. This special episode is a fascinating look into what had to be done during the Khmer Rouge in order to stay alive.
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Episode 5: Mama's Big Pockets Jul 11, 2021

Episode 5: Mama's Big Pockets – Robert’s mom (my grandma aka “Mama”), luckily gets assigned to work in the community kitchen giving her access to food. Mama lies to the Khmer Rouge soldier and registers only 5 people, when in fact she had 6. She hid my Aunt Amanda out of fear of having her getting taken away. Mama used her big pockets to steal food from the kitchen for her kids. During this time, people are dying from overworking in the field.
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Episode 4: Labor Camp 1 Jul 04, 2021

Episode 4: Labor Camp 1 – The Khmer Rouge starts organizing and registering people into groups. Robert’s uncle gained trust with the Khmer Rouge which helped protect the family for a while. People were forced to give up their own food and only eat at organized camp “cafeterias”. They organized the wealthy, educated and high - ranking folks from the others and killed them.
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Episode 3: The Checkpoint Jun 27, 2021

Episode 3: The Checkpoint – Robert gets home and the family is franticly trying to figure out the next game plan, however the Khmer Rouge soldiers take over faster than anyone can leave. They force everyone out of their own homes and force them into the countryside. Robert’s family decide to move back to grandma’s farmhouse. On the way, Robert recognizes his old friend in Khmer Rouge clothing who ends up betraying him.
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Episode 2: The Beginning Jun 20, 2021

Episode 2: The Beginning – Robert’s family was wealthy at the beginning of the Khmer Rouge. When he started hearing about political turmoil, his parents told him to cross the border to Thailand or come home. In Battambang, he had his first violent encounters with the Khmer Rouge and witnessed the beginning of group slaughters. That’s when he decided he couldn’t stay in the city Battambang and needed to quickly figure out any way back home.
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Episode 1: Roberts Childhood Jun 14, 2021

Episode 1: Robert Childhood - was born in 1959 in Mongol Borey, Cambodia. Because his parents were living in another city, working, he stayed with his grandparents. During this time, he experienced loneliness and didn’t quite understand why his parents left him alone to live far away from his siblings. Because of this, he had to learn how to take care of himself, to be strong minded and to be independent.
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Episode 0: Are You Ready? Jun 13, 2021

Labor Day 2020, I shoved a mic in front of my dad and tested the podcast set up. This is the very first clip we ever recorded. "Testing Testing... 123 Testing".
Are you ready?

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